We Both Laughed in Pleasure Quotes

“I wanna look like what I am but don't know what someone like me looks like. I mean, when people look at me I want them to think-- there's one of those people that reasons, that is a philosopher, that has their own interpretation of happiness. That's what I am.”
― Louis Graydon Sullivan, We Both Laughed in Pleasure: The Selected Diaries of Lou Sullivan

“I finally said, "Let's put it this way: I'd rather lose you than stop my shots.""You mean that chemical is more important to you than I am?""No, I am more important to me than you are.”
― Louis Graydon Sullivan, We Both Laughed in Pleasure: The Selected Diaries of Lou Sullivan

“A big fear of mine is that I will die before the gender professionals acknowledge that someone like me exists, and then I really won't exist to prove them wrong.”
― Louis Graydon Sullivan, We Both Laughed in Pleasure: The Selected Diaries of Lou Sullivan

“It really hasn't hit me that I am about to die. I see the grief around me, but inside I feel serene and a certain kind of peace. My whole life I've wanted to be a gay man and it's kind of an honor to die from the gay men's disease.”
― Louis Graydon Sullivan, We Both Laughed in Pleasure: The Selected Diaries of Lou Sullivan

“He said my ambiguity was one of the few things that made me "interesting." Afterwards I cried while talking with Charles about it, saying I don't want to be interesting, I want to be happy.”
― Lou Sullivan, We Both Laughed in Pleasure: The Selected Diaries of Lou Sullivan

“I don't even know if there was anyone that's ever felt as I do.. how they coped, what they did...how do I find out what someone like me does?”
― Louis Graydon Sullivan, We Both Laughed in Pleasure: The Selected Diaries of Lou Sullivan

“In a lot of ways I think the problem is I spend too much time seeing myself though other people's eyes and not really being in my body and enjoying myself and relaxing in my image.”
― Ellis Martin, We Both Laughed in Pleasure: The Selected Diaries of Lou Sullivan

“I'd buy him jewelry and flowers and wine, scarves, perfumes, strawberries.”
― Lou Sullivan, We Both Laughed in Pleasure: The Selected Diaries of Lou Sullivan

“I need something so badly but I’ll never find out what it is I need. I’m tired of old thoughts, old actions, old thoughts all the time. Rotting in my mind, in my body, rotting poetry, rotting, smelling, and now to the point where it is becoming one with all the other rot in the world. It has no distinctness, no goodness anymore. Rot has taken over every part of me.”
― Lou Sullivan, We Both Laughed in Pleasure: The Selected Diaries of Lou Sullivan

“Dear Diary,
I wish I had a boy to take me skating and to talk to. But I'm too young. I wish I'd grow up. This year I'm counting on my period. Well good night! I hope we become good friends.”
― Lou Sullivan, We Both Laughed in Pleasure: The Selected Diaries of Lou Sullivan

“I just don’t think I write enough on how much I enjoy life lately. This change, this SEX CHANGE that is supposed to be so weird, has in reality made me feel LESS weird. I can relax + laugh + not THINK before I say or do something + it all comes out right + I’m relaxed
+ I think, “My God, if they only knew…”
― Lou Sullivan, We Both Laughed in Pleasure: The Selected Diaries of Lou Sullivan

“It's not that I've changed, but that everyone else has changed toward me, just because they think I'm male now. And I feel less self-conscious because of that.

I haven't changed inside at all.”
― Ellis Martin, We Both Laughed in Pleasure: The Selected Diaries of Lou Sullivan

“This life-and-death matter just doesn’t seem to have answers.”
― Louis Graydon Sullivan, We Both Laughed in Pleasure: The Selected Diaries of Lou Sullivan

“people cannot associate beauty with males unless introducing homosexuality into it.”
― Lou Sullivan, We Both Laughed in Pleasure: The Selected Diaries of Lou Sullivan

“But I haven't a lover, and one who may materialize between now and then may not be close enough to my heart to merit those last moments with me.
How do I want to die?”
― Lou Sullivan, We Both Laughed in Pleasure: The Selected Diaries of Lou Sullivan

“Sometimes I worry (and I know I worry too much, too seriously) that I will have the same self-doubts and uneasiness as a man as I have a woman. I worry that I will fail to find the happiness I think I will. But as I wash myself and prepare for this surgery, when I buy my new shirts and look at my breasts and think they are sexy (!), I know I'll come out of this a better person.”
― Ellis Martin, We Both Laughed in Pleasure: The Selected Diaries of Lou Sullivan

“I don't even know if there was anyone that's ever felt as I do.. how they coped, what they did...how do I find out what someone like me does?”
― Ellis Martin, We Both Laughed in Pleasure: The Selected Diaries of Lou Sullivan