Fallout Quotes

“Anger is a valid emotion. It's only bad when it takes control and makes you do things you don't want to do.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Fallout

“Forgiveness isn’t my best thing.
Easier staying pissed. But I’m
tired of being pissed all the time.
Tired of feeling hurt by stuff that
can never be fixed because it is
an indelible part of the past.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Fallout

“Falling in love with someone is the surest highway to hurt that I know. When the door to love opens, the window to control closes.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Fallout

“Puzzle pieces don't always connect do they?”
― Ellen Hopkins, Fallout

“This is unstoppable, no holds barred. This is beautiful. Crazy. A beginning. Betrayal. Addictive. Aggressive. Alive. This is something to be afraid of.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Fallout

“Why doesn't love come with an owner's manual?”
― Ellen Hopkins, Fallout

“Clear.
Cold.
Empty.

Like how I feel
right now. Love
is strange. One
minute you’re
jungle fever.
The next
you’re
Artic
winter.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Fallout

“It's just so hard to feel good, you know?" I do know. And more than that, it's just so incredibly hard to feel.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Fallout

“Innocence eroded into nightmare.
All because of very bad touch.
Love, corrupted.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Fallout

“Love is like that. I could crush her beneath the weight of confession.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Fallout

“My body
Healed quickly. But the wound
to my psyche was deep.
Wide. First aid, too little, too late,
left me hemorrhaging inside,
the blood unstaunched by psychological
bandage or love's healing magic.

Eventually it scabbed over,
a thick, ugly welt of memory.
I work to conceal it, but no matter
how hard I try, once in a while
something makes me pick at it
until the scarring bleeds.

In my arms, Ashante cries,
innocence ripped apart
by circumstance. Bloodied by
inhuman will. Time will prove
a tourniquet. But she will always
be at risk of infection.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Fallout

“I've Got A Little Problem
And I'm not really sure how to fix it.
Not really sure I need to. Not really sure I could.
Life is pretty good. But once in a while, uninvited and uninitiated anger invades me.
It starts, a tiny gnaw at the back of my brain. Like a migraine except without pain. They say headaches blossom, but this isn't so much a blooming as a bleeding. Irritation bleeds into rage, seethes into fury. An ulcer, emptying hatred inside me. And I don't know why. Life is pretty good.
So, what the hell?”
― Ellen Hopkins, Fallout

“The only thing about myself I know for sure is that I don't know anything.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Fallout

“Certain of misfire, my heart threatens to stop.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Fallout

“Possibilities

...in the closet
...itching
...to break out
...but afraid of
...the fallout”
― Ellen Hopkins, Fallout

“Always before, I just said no, left it solidly there. I waver now. I want to share everything with him. Want to know what he knows, feel what he feels, share the same space he's in.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Fallout

“So You Want to Know

All about her. Who
she
really is. (Was?) Why
she swerved off the
high road. Hard
left
to nowhere,
recklessly indifferent to
me.
Hunter Seth Haskins,
her firstborn
son. I've been
chocking
that down for
nineteen years.
Why did she go
on
her mindless way,
leaving me spinning
in a whirlwind of
her dust?”
― Ellen Hopkins, Fallout

“I need to capture my sprite with trembling hands. Except I could crush her. Wonder how many small things of beauty - flowers, seashells, dragonflies - have met such a demise. Wonder how much fragile love has collapsed beneath the weight of confession.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Fallout

“...Things happened
when you were little. Things you
don't remember now, and don't want
to. But they need to escape,

need to worm their way out
of that dark place in your brain
where you keep them stashed.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Fallout

“...I think the more
she has failed at things like relationships
and parenting, the more she has cut

herself off from feeling bad about those
things. And if you don't let yourself feel
bad, sooner or later you stop feeling

good, too. You insulate yourself. Build
up layers, like stacking paper, everything
growing heavier. And when the weight

becomes too much, those layers compress.
Become hard. Sad, really, to think that
Kristina has turned herself into cardboard.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Fallout

“The portal to pain is caring too deeply about anyone.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Fallout

“Love is strange. One minute you're jungle fever. The next you're Arctic winter.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Fallout

“No matter how much things change,
others never will.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Fallout

“Some secrets
are better left kept.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Fallout

“I might have been your zygote. Your fetus. Maybe even your off-spring. But I have never been your son. You have no idea what it means to be a real mother. You think nine months of discomfort and eight hours of labor gives you the right to call yourself 'Mom'? Well, bitch, you're delusional.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Fallout

“Aunt Cora says it's my aura. "I see them, you know. Yours is dark. Sort of like black coffee, although it fluctuates. Sometimes there are little flecks of gold. If you could make those coalesce, turn your aura more toffee than coffee, things would be different.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Fallout

“No, Home is somewhere else,
I don't know if it's a place
I've already been, or one
I've yet to find. But I'm pretty
sure the answer is tangled up
in Where I Came From.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Fallout

“They say, when facing the onslaught of tooth and claw, a creature's heart can simply quit.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Fallout

“I’m down to a taste a couple times a day. Keeps my head on straight. A thick stream of bubbles. Pop. Pop. Pop-pop. “Fine. Then I want to try it.” His head shakes so hard, it must rattle his brain. Don’t want you to. The bubbles become a low fizz. It makes my eyes sting. “Why not?” His eyes float up. He is crying too. Because I love you too much.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Fallout

“The relentless feeling of panic started there. In my parents' love-fueled hatred for each other. And me. I bet they hated me because I kept them together. Drove them apart. Reminded them of what they should be, and how incapable they were of being it.”
― Ellen Hopkins, Fallout