Recovered Quotes

“If you think about it, love and hate really aren’t that much different when you got right down to it. Both make you crazy. Both make you do things you never thought you would ever do, and both were so, so easy to get lost in.”
― Jay Crownover, Recovered

“There’s the kind of broken everyone can see. The kind that leaves a mess no one wants to get stuck cleaning up because it’s obviously going to be a lot of work. And, even if you try to get it all, you’re going to miss some of those sharp, jagged pieces. Then there’s the kind of broken no one can see. The kind that’s made up of hairline fractures and narrow little fissures that cover the entire surface. It’s the kind of broken that’s held together by some kind of miracle and pure strength of will. All it takes is one little bump, one wrong move, and that kind of broken shatters. There is no cleaning up that mess. There are too many pieces, and they scatter everywhere”
― Jay Crownover, Recovered

“I KNEW I was a mess. Unhinged and hanging on the precipice of becoming someone who was beyond any kind of redemption. I teetered on the brink of making bad choices every moment I was awake, but somehow, some way, I always managed to keep myself from going completely over.”
― Jay Crownover, Recovered

“Well . . . I’m going to ruin you, and you . . . you’re going to do your best to save me.”
― Jay Crownover, Recovered

“What if all of this is self-medicating gone horribly wrong? What if he got in too deep because the hole he was digging for himself never bottomed out . . . until he bottomed out?”
― Jay Crownover, Recovered

“Talking about it, going over all the details, it’s not going to change anything. Someone is still going to be dead, someone is still going to be paralyzed, and I’m always going to be the bastard who’s responsible.”
― Jay Crownover, Recovered

“I never wanted to be anyone’s first or their last. I just wanted to be a moment they would think about with fondness and a smile.”
― Jay Crownover, Recovered

“You should take the time to find something real that interests you, Cable. You should find the thing that keeps your mind occupied and soothes you when all those cravings and demons rise to the surface. If you have something that matters to focus on, then it won’t be as easy for your bad habits to clamor for your free time.”
― Jay Crownover, Recovered

“leaving me alone so I could discreetly sniff under my arm. I made a face and dropped my arm when I caught a whiff of the less-than-pleasant odor. I smelled like a drunk. I smelled like a bum. I smelled like bad choices and regret.”
― Jay Crownover, Recovered

“She offered me her free hand, and for a second all I could picture was grabbing it and pulling her under with me, letting the water cover us both and take us somewhere we would both rather be.”
― Jay Crownover, Recovered

“I was always waiting for the day he would finally try his luck, test the waters, even though he knew I was a shark that could tell he was bleeding out from a mile away.”
― Jay Crownover, Recovered

“Addiction takes and takes and keeps on taking. It’s the most greedy and selfish thing in the entire world.”
― Jay Crownover, Recovered

“Addiction didn’t care about the square footage of your house or the kind of car you drove. It didn’t care about your pedigree or your GPA. Addiction was an equal opportunity life-ruiner,”
― Jay Crownover, Recovered

“It’s not about saving them after they’re lost. It’s about getting to them before they lose their way in the first place.”
― Jay Crownover, Recovered

“I thought hating Cable James McCaffrey was overwhelming. Hating him had nothing on loving him.”
― Jay Crownover, Recovered

“Thank goodness I had made the right choice by picking the absolute wrong guy to love and perfect guy to hate.”
― Jay Crownover, Recovered

“I did everything right. I never misstepped. I was careful, controlled, and had all the plans. I was focused, attentive, and driven. I’d worked my ass off to get exactly where I was. I told myself nothing and no one was going to hold me back or slow me down. I rolled over everyone who got in my way and never looked back. I’d never had anything handed to me or had anything come easy. Including love.”
― Jay Crownover, Recovered

“I learned that my rock-bottom isn’t as low as some others and that my struggle isn’t unique. I won’t ever be recovered but I am in recovery, and it feels damn good.”
― Jay Crownover, Recovered

“All I could do was try. Even if I failed, at least I was trying . . .”
― Jay Crownover, Recovered

“I’m pretty sure when I get the hang of all these feelings, when I learn what to do with them, I could learn to love you, Affton Reed.”
― Jay Crownover, Recovered

“She loved me and hated me. I loved and hated her for that.”
― Jay Crownover, Recovered

“I can’t love another addict, Cable. I won’t.” She sobbed against my neck, and I brushed my lips against her forehead. “I hate Cable the addict, but I love Cable the recovering addict, even if he’s not always who you choose to be. You need to learn to love him, too.”
― Jay Crownover, Recovered

“If you think about it, love and hate really aren’t that much different when you got right down to it. Both make you crazy. Both make you do things you never thought you would ever do, and both were so, so easy to get lost in. I loved that she hated me . . . and I hated that I was pretty fucking sure I was falling in love with her.”
― Jay Crownover, Recovered

“You hated me back then and hated me at the start of this ride. Remember?” Her lips twitched. “Exactly. I hate you, Cable James McCaffrey. Now teach me how to suck your cock.”
― Jay Crownover, Recovered

“His thumb found that spot, the one everyone insisted was magical. They were right. It only took a little tap, a soft stroke, and my eyes crossed, and my toes curled.”
― Jay Crownover, Recovered

“You aren’t so bad yourself, McCaffrey.” He really wasn’t. He did bad things, made bad choices, tended to think bad thoughts about himself and everyone else, but he wasn’t bad. And the outside, well, that was better than good. I wanted my hands and mouth all over every single inch of him.”
― Jay Crownover, Recovered

“He was going to kiss me. He was going to touch me. He was going to taste me. He was going to fuck me”
― Jay Crownover, Recovered

“I was going to kiss her. I was going to taste her. I was going to fuck her. I was going to be her first,”
― Jay Crownover, Recovered

“I was, without a doubt, going to break her, and there would be no cleaning up afterward. My pieces and her pieces were going to be scattered from here to hell and back. There would be no putting either of us back together.”
― Jay Crownover, Recovered

“Tell me what you need me to do right now, Reed. I’m used to being the villain, not the hero.”
― Jay Crownover, Recovered