First Love and Other Novellas Quotes

“I tried to groan, Help! Help! But the tone that came out was that of polite conversation.”
― Samuel Beckett, First Love and Other Novellas

“I began playing with the cries, a little in the same way as I had played with the song, on, back, on, back, if that may be called playing. As long as I kept walking I didn’t hear them, because of the footsteps. But as soon as I halted again I heard them again, a little fainter each time, admittedly, but what does it matter, faint or loud, cry is cry, all that matters is that it should cease. For years I thought they would cease. Now I don’t think so any more. I could have done with other loves perhaps. But there it is, either you love or you don’t.”
― Samuel Beckett, First Love and Other Novellas

“But man is still today, at the age of twenty-five, at the mercy of an erection, physically too, from time to time, it's the common lot, even I was not immune, if that can be called an erection. It did not escape her naturally, women smell a rigid phallus ten miles away and wonder, How on earth did he spot me from there?”
― Samuel Beckett, First Love and Other Novellas

“She dragged me across the floor, stopping from time to time only to kick me. I didn't know our cows too could be so inhuman.”
― Samuel Beckett, First Love and Other Novellas

“But I did not yet know, at that time, how tender the earth can be for those who have only her and how many graves in her giving, for the living."

First Love”
― Samuel Beckett, First Love and Other Novellas

“As for my needs, they had dwindled as it were to my dimensions and become, if I may say so, of so exquisite a quality as to exclude all thought of succour.”
― Samuel Beckett, First Love and Other Shorts

“Look, she said stooping over her breasts, the haloes are darkening already. I summoned up my remaining strength and said, Abort, abort and they'll blush like new.”
― Samuel Beckett, First Love and Other Novellas

“The memory came faint and cold of the story I might have told, a story in the likeness of my life, I mean without the courage to end or the strength to go on.”
― Samuel Beckett, First Love and Other Novellas

“I had such horror then of these paltry perplexities that I always fell into the same error, that of seeking to clear them up. It took me a long time, my lifetime so to speak, to realize that the colour of an eye half seen, or the source of some distant sound, are closer to Giudecca in the hell of un­knowing than the existence of God, or the origins of protoplasm, or the existence of self, and even less worthy than these to occupy the wise. It’s a bit much, a lifetime, to achieve this consoling conclusion, it doesn’t leave you much time to profit by it.”
― Samuel Beckett, First Love and Other Novellas

“They never lynch children, babies, no matter what they do they are whitewashed in advance. I personally would lynch them with the utmost pleasure, I don't say I'd lend a hand, no, I am not a violent man, but I'd encourage the others and stand them drinks when it was done.”
― Samuel Beckett, First Love and Other Novellas

“I did not know where to begin nor where to end, that's the truth of the matter.”
― Samuel Beckett, First Love and Other Novellas

“It was December, I had never felt so cold, the eel soup lay heavy on my stomach, I was afraid I'd die, I turned aside to vomit, I envied them.”
― Samuel Beckett, First Love and Other Novellas

“Fortunately I did not need affection.”
― Samuel Beckett, First Love and Other Novellas

“One is no longer oneself, on such occasions, and it is painful to be no longer oneself, even more painful if possible than when one is. For when one is one knows what to do to be less so, whereas when one is not one is any old one irredeemably.”
― Samuel Beckett, First Love and Other Novellas

“It's all a muddle in my head, graves and nuptials and the different varieties of motion.”
― Samuel Beckett, First Love and Other Novellas

“أنا شخصياً ليس عندي ما أقوله ضد المقابر فأنا أتنزه بينها على سجيتي أكثر من أي مكان آخر على ما أظن حين أضطر للخروج .”
― Samuel Beckett, First Love and Other Novellas

“لا تزعجني إطلاقاً رائحة الجثث التي أشمها وتفوح من تحت العشب والتراب ... أفضل بكثير من رائحة الأحياء.”
― Samuel Beckett, First Love and Other Novellas

“كل شيء يدعو لجلوس القرفصاء .”
― Samuel Beckett, First Love and Other Novellas

“I didn't understand women at that period. I still don't for that matter. Nor men either. Nor animals either. What I understand best, which is not saying much, are my pains.”
― Samuel Beckett, First Love and Other Novellas

“Real scratching is superior to masturbation, in my opinion. One can masturbate up to the age of seventy, and even beyond, but in the end it becomes a mere habit. Whereas to scratch myself properly I would have needed a dozen hands. I itched all over, on the privates, in the bush up to the navel, under the arms, in the arse, and then patches of eczema and psoriasis that I could set raging merely by thinking of them. It was in the arse I had the most pleasure, I stuck in my forefinger up to the knuckle. Later, if I had to shit, the pain was atrocious. But I hardly shat any more.”
― Samuel Beckett, First Love and Other Novellas

“One day I caught sight of my son. He was striding along with a briefcase under his arm. He took off his hat and bowed and I saw he was as bald as a coot. I was almost certain it was he. I turned round to gaze after him. He went bustling along on his duck feet, bowing and scraping and flourishing his hat left and right. The insufferable son of a bitch.”
― Samuel Beckett, First Love and Other Novellas

“Boys my age with whom, in spite of everything, I was obliged to mix occasionally, mocked me.”
― Samuel Beckett, First Love and Other Novellas

“What mattered to me in my dispeopled kingdom, that in regard to which the disposition of my carcass was the merest and most futile of accidents, was supineness in the mind, the dulling of the self and of that residue of execrable frippery known as the non-self and even the world, for short. But man is still today, at the age of twenty-five, at the mercy of an erection, physically too, from time to time, it’s the common lot, even I was not immune, if that may be called an erection. It did not escape her naturally, women smell a rigid phallus ten miles away and won­der, How on earth did he spot me from there? One is no longer oneself, on such occasions, and it is painful to be no longer oneself, even more painful if possible than when one is. For when one is one knows what to do to be less so, whereas when one is not one is any old one irredeemably. What goes by the name of love is banishment, with now and then a postcard from the homeland, such is my considered opinion, this evening.”
― Samuel Beckett, First Love and Other Novellas

“As long as I kept walking I didn’t hear them, because of the footsteps. But as soon as I halted I heard them again, a little fainter each time, admittedly, but what does it matter, faint or loud, cry is cry, all that matters is that it should cease. For years I thought they would cease. Now I don’t think so any more. I could have done with other loves perhaps. But there it is, either you love or you don’t.”
― Samuel Beckett, First Love and Other Novellas

“I saw the mountain, impassible, cavernous, secret, where from morning to night I’d hear nothing but the wind, the curlews, the clink like distant silver of the stone-cutters’ hammers.”
― Samuel Beckett, First Love and Other Novellas

“Yes, there are moments, particularly in the afternoon, when I go all syncretist, à la Rein-hold. What equilibrium! But even them, my pains, I understand ill. That must come from my not being all pain and nothing else. There’s the rub. Then they recede, or I, till they fill me with amaze and wonder, seen from a better planet. Not often, but I ask no more. Catch-cony life! To be nothing but pain, how that would simplify matters! Omnidolent! Impious dream.”
― Samuel Beckett, First Love and Other Novellas

“It was in this byre, littered with dry and hollow cowclaps subsiding with a sigh at the poke of my finger, that for the first time in my life, and I would not hesitate to say the last if I had not to husband my cyanide, I had to contend with a feeling which gradually assumed, to my dismay, the dread name of love.”
― Samuel Beckett, First Love and Other Novellas

“What goes by the name of love is banishment, with now and then a postcard from the homeland, such is my considered opinion, this evening. When she had finished and my self been resumed, mine own, the mitig­able, with the help of a brief torpor, it was alone. I sometimes wonder if that is not all invention, if in reality things did not take quite a different course, one I had no choice but to forget. And yet her image remains bound, for me, to that of the bench, not the bench by day, nor yet the bench by night, but the bench at evening, in such sort that to speak of the bench, as it appeared to me at evening, is to speak of her, for me. That proves nothing, but there is nothing I wish to prove. On the subject of the bench by day no words need be wasted, it never knew me, gone before morning and never back till dusk.”
― Samuel Beckett, First Love and Other Novellas

“All imagination to be sure, I was already on my way, things may have passed quite differently, but who cares how things pass, provided they pass. All those lips that had kissed me, those hearts that had loved me (it is with the heart one loves, is it not, or am I confusing it with something else?), those hands that had played with mine and those minds that had almost made their own of me! Humans are truly strange.”
― Samuel Beckett, First Love and Other Novellas

“Wherever nauseated time has dropped a nice fat turd you will find our patriots, sniffing it up on all fours, their faces on fire.”
― Samuel Beckett, First Love and Other Novellas