Stutter Quotes

“Even when she was on her knees- filled with my darkness- she was still shining bright. My Siren’s song, my exposed nerve. She lured me in and made me feel. And then she left me to perish.”
― A. Zavarelli, Stutter

“My heart is a compass, and it always leads me back to you.”
― A. Zavarelli, Stutter

“She was the only antidote for the bleakness that lived inside of me. My goddess. My deity. I wasn’t a believer in any religion, but I’d make an exception in this case. I’d get down on my knees and worship at her alter every day if it brought her back to me.”
― A. Zavarelli, Stutter

“She made the beast rear its ugly head. Stirred fantasies in my mind I would have never otherwise entertained. Owning her wasn’t enough. Controlling her didn’t douse the inferno blazing inside me.”
― A. Zavarelli, Stutter

“I didn’t know what to say. What to do. I didn’t feel strong anymore. I felt like I couldn’t go on without him. He loved me fiercely. Obsessively. Rivalled only by the intensity which I felt for him. So why couldn’t we be together?”
― A. Zavarelli, Stutter

“Don’t deny me what’s mine, Brighton.”
― A. Zavarelli, Stutter

“It was Brighton. She made me fucking insane. Her beauty and absolute perfection dissolved any moral boundaries that may have existed within me.”
― A. Zavarelli, Stutter

“Was it cruel if someone asked for it? Begged for it, even? She always begged. Even now, I could hear her whimpering for me. Christ, those noises she made. A one-way ticket to heaven.”
― A. Zavarelli, Stutter

“I’m not letting you go, baby girl. You need to accept that.”
― A. Zavarelli, Stutter

“The last five years had been a series of carefully orchestrated events. Every move, every strategy had been poured over in painstaking detail before it was set into motion.
Pieces on a chess board.
A collision of fate and circumstance. I’d planned for every hitch. Every contingency. Except the one that blindsided me like a vat of acid to the face.
I fell in love with her.”
― A. Zavarelli, Stutter

“Cue the cruel and mocking laughter from the puppet master of this fucked up sideshow.”
― A. Zavarelli, Stutter

“Know what’s worse than cold turkey? Just a little bump. One tiny sip to take the edge off. The edges never went away, they only got sharper. Every addict would tell you. Gray areas couldn’t exist in a sober environment.”
― A. Zavarelli, Stutter

“I’d single-handedly go to war and burn their whole organization to the ground before I ever let them harm what was mine. And there were no two ways about it- Brighton would always be mine.”
― A. Zavarelli, Stutter

“She was the only antidote for the bleakness that lived inside of me. My goddess. My deity. I wasn't a believer in any religion, but I'd make an exception in this case. I'd get down on my knees and worship at her alter every day if it brought her back to me.”
― A. Zavarelli , Stutter

“Have you ever had one of those moments where you felt as though time itself had suspended? Where you had to drag your sorry ass out of bed every morning with a mental pep talk you knew was complete drivel? Even the simplest gestures robbed you of precious energy. Dignity notwithstanding, I took comfort in the robotic voice inside my head instructing me what to do. How to perform the most basic of human functions. Time to brush your teeth. Comb your hair. Should probably feed yourself something between shots. Gym? Meh… How about jacking off in the shower instead? Nada. Not even energy for that. Ladies, we had a crisis on our hands.”
― A. Zavarelli, Stutter

“Then life happened. And brick by brick, my sensibly constructed mortar kingdom disintegrated before my eyes. My reality check was that life didn’t play fair. Life took. And people took. And every day that I woke up empty fucking took… something. I was forged in the fire of blood and misery. The sadist inside of me created someone in his image. Or perhaps he only brought to life the monster always lurking there. I’d never really know for certain. But”
― A. Zavarelli, Stutter

“She was slipping through my fingers. A tiny dot in the ocean, I stood helpless on the shore and watched her drift away. I didn’t have a life vest, but I’d swim to her if she’d let me.”
― A. Zavarelli, Stutter

“How do you get someone to forgive the unspeakable? How do you even look at yourself knowing you almost killed the woman you love? I couldn’t tell you exactly, I’d been avoiding my reflection since it’d happened.”
― A. Zavarelli, Stutter

“The Montagues and Capulets had nothing on us. Star crossed lovers, were we doomed from the start? I”
― A. Zavarelli, Stutter

“There was an entire invisible rule book one must abide by. It involved bandwagons, fire and brimstone, horses’ mouths, and so on and so forth. All very secret society type stuff. I wouldn’t bore you with the details, and you probably wouldn’t believe me anyhow. But the next time you cross paths with a CEO richer than God, you look him in the eyes and tell me if you still feel the same. It was a cutthroat world, and I was just living in it. The competition was fierce, and if you thought the things I did were bad, you should see some of the other guys. I looked like the virgin fucking Mary in comparison.”
― A. Zavarelli, Stutter

“Did you know that science has actually proved swearing to be cathartic?”
― A. Zavarelli, Stutter

“I’d single-handedly go to war and burn their whole organization to the ground before I ever let them harm what was mine. And there were no two ways about it”
― A. Zavarelli, Stutter

“Devout worship for the creature who flirted with my darkest desires and begged them to come out and play.”
― A. Zavarelli, Stutter

“I needed a drink. Maybe a priest. Something to numb my blackened soul and vanquish this nightmare.”
― A. Zavarelli, Stutter

“Could the fallen ever really be redeemed?”
― A. Zavarelli, Stutter

“where did that leave me for wanting to corrupt something so pure? Surely, that would be the devil.”
― A. Zavarelli, Stutter

“She made the beast rear its ugly head. Stirred fantasies in my mind I would have never otherwise entertained. Owning her wasn’t enough. Controlling her didn’t douse the inferno blazing inside me. No, I needed more from her. I needed everything. Body, mind, soul.”
― A. Zavarelli, Stutter

“a new motto in life. Fuck anyone who gets in your way before they can fuck you first. Ruthless.”
― A. Zavarelli, Stutter