Protecting My Peace At All Cost Quotes

“I want to be loved for my truths, but I worry that they might be too heavy for anyone to bear. I long for the world to see me, but I’m afraid it might not like what it finds. I seek understanding but fear the cost of being fully known.”
― Zaishah, Protecting My Peace At All Cost: The Love I Deserve

“I built walls around my heart and blamed love for not f inding a way in. I clung to my pain and blamed the world for not understanding my suffering. I fed my doubts and blamed life for not giving me certainty. I kept my wounds open and blamed the air for not letting them heal. I silenced my truth and wondered why my voice went unheard. I carried guilt in my bones and mourned why it stung so much. Maybe it’s not someone else but myself that I need to forgive to finally find peace. Maybe I am the architect of my own suffering.”
― Zaishah, Protecting My Peace At All Cost: The Love I Deserve

“Before I surrender my heart, I must surrender my scars, my fears, my truths. Before I give my trust, I must give my doubts, my sufferings, my wounds. Before I share my laughter, I must share my sorrows, my struggles, my silence. Before I show you my strength, I must show you my weakness, my fragility, my vulnerabilities. But you only want my flowers, not my thorns.”
― Zaishah, Protecting My Peace At All Cost: The Love I Deserve

“I want understanding but also do not want to be understood. I want love but also my freedom. I want to grow but also maintain my boundaries. I want to be heard but also keep my thoughts to myself. I want to shine and be seen by no one. I want to share everything but also die with my secrets. I want to live it all, feel it all, and not be overwhelmed. And I want all of this so desperately that I fear wanting too much might leave me with only nothing”
― Zaishah, Protecting My Peace At All Cost: The Love I Deserve

“What being chosen feels like
I’ve given my heart away,
But I’ve never known,
What it feels like to be kept.

I’ve stood on the edges of hearts,
But never at the center.

I don’t know,
What it would be like,
To be the one they run to,
I don’t know how to be someone’s home.
What it would be like,
To be someone’s first thought,
To feel their certainty, the certainty of being wanted,
To know without question that you are the one they choose.

I don’t know how to be someone’s permanent.
I know how to love deeply,
But I don’t know how it feels,
To be the one loved back in the same way.

I know how to give love,
But not how it feels,
To be the one it stays with.

I’ve seen love bloom for others,
But I’ve never felt its roots grow for me.
I’ve been almost, nearly, and close enough,
But never the reason they stay for.

I wonder if love feels different,
When it’s meant for you,
And not just passing through.

I only know the cold of waiting,
Unsure if the warmth of being truly chosen,
Is something I’ll ever know.”
― Zaishah, Protecting My Peace At All Cost: The Love I Deserve

“I betrayed myself and waited for you, To the skin and bones, Even when I didn’t have any hope.”
― Zaishah, Protecting My Peace At All Cost: The Love I Deserve

“To love without being loved is, To give from an empty well. —I can’t love if I don’t feel loved.”
― Zaishah, Protecting My Peace At All Cost: The Love I Deserve

“Letting go isn’t the hardest part,
It’s convincing my heart to stop,
Waiting for your return.
It’s not the goodbye that breaks me,
It’s the hope that you’ll walk back through the door.”
― Zaishah, Protecting My Peace At All Cost: The Love I Deserve

“You tell me about your hopes, and I see them sparkling in your eyes. You speak of your dreams, and I see them reflected in your eyes too. But when you say you love me, I search your eyes for a trace of myself and find nothing.”
― Zaishah, Protecting My Peace At All Cost: The Love I Deserve

“Am I blessed or cursed to know what true love is?
I know when a man is in love with you. I know how his eyes soften when he speaks your name, as if you're his favorite word. I know how your laughter fills his soul, and how your silence can break his heart. I know how words feel like home. I know how he makes you feel seen. I know how he makes time for you, even in a world that pulls him in every direction. I know when you're not just a part of his day —you’re his peace. You’re his priority. I know how a man loves. I know how he listens, not just to your words, but to the feelings you don’t speak. He would go to the ends of the earth, he would break the world just to see you smile. I know when a man is in love with you. I know when love is real. You feel love in your skin and bones. I know what it means to be loved without being hurt.
But I also know when a man stops loving you—I know how it feels when the excitement in his voice disappears. I know how it feels when your name on his lips feels unfamiliar. I know how it feels when you start to realize the distance in the spaces between his words. I know how it feels when the distance between you grows wider with every passing day. I know how it feels when his eyes no longer search for you. I know how it feels when he takes that love away. I know how it feels when you're forced to bury your feelings. I know how it feels when your conversations become obligations. I know how it feels when you lose not just the man, but every right to love him. I know how it feels to feel like a stranger in the heart you once called home. I know when a man isn’t in love with you anymore. I know how it feels when his absence feels heavier than his presence ever did. I know how it feels when you're no longer a choice. I know how it feels when you realize that love shouldn’t feel like a burden, yet you carry it anyway. I know how it feels when love turns cold. I know what it is like to be suffocated by his indifference. I know the pain of being abandoned by the one you gave your all to. I know the weight of watching love fade, searching for where it all went wrong. I know the weight of empty replies. I know the weight of staring at your phone, expecting a message that stays unsent. I know the weight of waiting endlessly. I know the weight of watching the days pass, wondering if he'll remember you. I know the weight of pretending everything's fine when you're crumbling inside. I know the weight of convincing yourself that maybe tomorrow, things will change. I know the weight of holding onto hope. I know how it feels to be left with a love that only stings. I know when a man stops loving you.

How blessed I am with understanding of love, and how cursed I am to not be the one capable of love. Why do we have to find out how to love in a painful way?”
― Zaishah, Protecting My Peace At All Cost: The Love I Deserve

“What I couldn’t see before.
It’s not your leaving that hurts,
But your presence that you never gave.

—Knowing someone is present, but never truly there, Is a pain deeper than distance itself.”
― Zaishah, Protecting My Peace At All Cost: The Love I Deserve

“I was never just what you wanted, I am more than what you desire, more than flesh, I am everything you overlooked, yet always sought. I am the person with dreams, love, fears, and truth. You took what was convenient, But never the whole me, That you couldn’t understand”
― Zaishah, Protecting My Peace At All Cost: The Love I Deserve