If He Had Been With Me Quotes

“By the time the leaves and weather do begin to change in late October, they have tired of autumn and are thinking of Christmas. They never stop; they never wonder if they already have it all.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been with Me

“Die Sehnsucht in meiner Brust wummert im Rhythmus meines Herzschlags.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been With Me

“....zwei Scheiben und sechs Meter Luft zwischen uns.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been With Me

“I know what I am feeling. I know that it is real, and in this moment, there is nothing else in me but this knowledge. I’m in love with Finny.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been with Me

“I had somehow forgotten her. I had somehow forgotten that the world was larger than just us.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been with Me

“I am a virgin, and I cannot drive.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been with Me

“Sasha breaks up with Alex.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been with Me

“There’s real life and then there are books, Autumn,” Jamie says.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been with Me

“But there is Jamie now, and he wants to buy a house and raise children with me. He says I’m perfect. He says I’m all he wants. I can’t disappoint him.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been with Me

“I remember his tongue in my mouth. I don’t like it as much as I thought I would, but I’m getting used to it.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been with Me

“I never tried to be weird, and I hated being seen that way. It was as if I had been born without the ability to understand if the things I was about to say or do were strange, so I was trapped into constantly being myself.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been with Me

“And I love him. For all of my memory, I have loved him; I do not even notice it anymore. I feel what I have always felt when I look at him, and I have never before asked myself what it is exactly. I love him in a way I cannot define, as if my love were an organ within my body that I could not live without yet could not pick out of an anatomy book.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been With Me

“we are a force, woven, tied, and bundled together.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been with Me

“Late in the night, I hear footsteps in the hallway. I roll over and look at the door. It opens slowly.
"Finny?" I say. There is silence.
"Oh, Autumn," my mother says.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been With Me

“This is his moment of weightless suspension. He feels nothing, he thinks nothing; he exists, perfect and unscathed. He does not even hear the rain.
"Stay." I whisper to him. "Stay in the car. Stay in this moment."
But, of course, he never does.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been With Me

“Love is both a blessing and a curse, and I wouldn't trade my pain for anything.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been With Me

“If he had been with me, things would have been different, but then I wouldn't be who I am.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been With Me

“There is a thin line between love and hate, and it's easy to cross over if we're not careful.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been With Me

“We are all flawed, but it's how we embrace those flaws that define us.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been With Me

“Life is a series of choices, and it's the ones we didn't make that haunt us the most.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been With Me

“Love can fill your life with light, but it can also drown you in darkness.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been With Me

“Sometimes fate gives us what we need, not what we want.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been With Me

“Love isn't always only about being together, sometimes it's about knowing when to let go.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been With Me

“Sometimes the most painful lessons are the ones that teach us the most.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been With Me

“Finny used to ask me to go outside with him to save the worms on the sidewalk. It bothered him to see them drying and writhing on the pavement the day after rain.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been with Me

“Now that I’ve actually been to high school, I have no desire to be one of those girls with the ponytails and the pleated skirts.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been with Me

“A deluge of memories hits me. Us, such small children, sleeping curled together like baby rabbits. Older, we whisper secrets to each other at night. We place fingers over each other’s lips to stifle our giggles. Our despair when The Mothers said we were too old to sleep in the same bed. Finny signaling me with a flashlight from his window, and me taking the cup and string to my ear, “Can you hear me?” The love I’ve tried to hold back breaks its dam and flows over me, curling my toes and making fists of my hands as I breathe his name into my pillow. “Finny,” I say to the lonely dark.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been with Me

“Hello?” “Autumn? I’m sorry.” “Finny?” “Yeah, it’s me.” I fall back on my pillows and close my eyes. I feel relieved, but I’m too tired to try to sort out why. It’s just that it’s him, so it’s okay. “What was that?” “Some guys got ahold of my phone—I’m at a party—I guess they called you because you’re first in my phone—” “I’m first in your phone?” I feel the corners of my mouth turn up and hope he cannot hear my surprised pleasure. “Well, yeah. Alphabetical order. You know.” His voice trails off at the end. “Oh, right.” I rub my eyes and sigh. “I’m still half asleep.” “I’m sorry,” Finny says. “It’s okay,” I say. “Really.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been with Me

“I realize that there may never be another moment more perfect than this for the rest of my life.”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been with Me

“Sometimes I am disappointed with love. I thought that when you were in love, it would always be right there, staring you in the face, remembering you every moment that you live this person. It seems that it isn’t always like that. Sometimes I know that I love Jamie, but I don’t feel it, and I wonder what it would be like to be with someone else”
― Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been With Me