Thin Wire Quotes

“Sitting on the train I watch the scenery speeding by, notice a cobweb in the top corner of the window, undulating with a gentle breeze I can’t feel. I lean back in my seat and take my book out of the carrier bag. Turning it over in my hand, it feels warm. It feels how I want to feel; full of knowledge, full of the future.
The time I’ve spent staying in bed smoking dope I’ve been hibernating, recuperating and gaining strength. I’m weak socially, but being away from other drug users has made me resilient. It’s allowed my mind and body to heal and mend. As if the winter is over, I’ve come out stronger now. I’m on my own. I have the choice of what to do with my life.
I’m going to stay clean. I’m going to be the woman I can be.”
― Christine Lewry, Thin Wire: A Mother's Journey Through Her Daughter's Heroin Addiction

“Sitting cross-legged on her bed, I watch her take out her gear. She’s been smoking so much the room stinks of it. Over the last few weeks, I’ve seen her do it so often I’ve resisted the urge. It’s surreal, like I’m watching me from outside my body. My willpower is fragile at the best of times, but my resolve is always weaker in the evening.
I feel a dread and a revulsion for what I’m about to do, but there’s a stronger feeling, an unutterable longing. I crack.
‘Give us a line,’ I say.”
― Christine Lewry, Thin Wire: A Mother's Journey Through Her Daughter's Heroin Addiction

“That night I slept like a baby. When I woke the next morning I knew I was going to smoke heroin again. Everything that day was enjoyable: sitting on the bus, working all day – it all felt good. It was the best day of my life.”
― Christine Lewry, Thin Wire: A Mother's Journey Through Her Daughter's Heroin Addiction

“Why were the days so easy yet so difficult?”
― Christine Lewry, Thin Wire: A Mother's Journey Through Her Daughter's Heroin Addiction

“You can’t do it for them, no matter how much you want to or how hard you try. Throughout”
― Christine Lewry, Thin Wire: A Mother's Journey Through Her Daughter's Heroin Addiction

“We made a lot of mistakes, wasted time and money, but it was all part of the process, part of life’s journey.”
― Christine Lewry, Thin Wire: A Mother's Journey Through Her Daughter's Heroin Addiction

“Tony’s eyes widen. ‘Is she clucking again?’ He turns to me. ‘All she does is sneak off and do drugs or lay about ill. Hope you’ve had it out with her.”
― Christine Lewry, Thin Wire: A Mother's Journey Through Her Daughter's Heroin Addiction

“Really we are two families, and I am the only person in both. That shared DNA, that closeness, doesn’t apply to Tony and Amber. I am not sure whether the distance has always been there or whether it’s grown out of her uncontrollable behaviour, but it’s there and I don’t know how to change it.”
― Christine Lewry, Thin Wire: A Mother's Journey Through Her Daughter's Heroin Addiction

“God created the angels, with their natural propensity to good. Later, he made beasts with their animal desires. But God was pleased with neither. So he fashioned man, a combination of angel and beast, free to follow good or evil.”
― Christine Lewry, Thin Wire: A Mother's Journey Through Her Daughter's Heroin Addiction