Cells Quotes

“We wake up, breathe, live life often against our wishes and our better judgement. We console ourselves by telling ourselves this is no fault of our own but that doesn’t take away the reality of the pain, the streaming dreams, the utter shock of life, the shattered pieces of survival.”
― Scott C. Holstad, Cells

“If I killed myself now would I make the papers would anyone care I already know the answer to that besides it’s irrelevant”
― Scott C. Holstad, Cells

“I’ve wanted to die for a
long time and one day,
I’m going out like a
Texas lightning storm –
big, bold, beautiful,
deadly, dead and
done with.”
― Scott C. Holstad, Cells

“Sure, I’ve written about women and sex and madhouses, just like Bukowski did, but I’ve also written about many other topics, often utilizing other stylistic methods in doing so. Bukowski would probably have been annoyed with the rambling tone of my poems in Cells.”
― Scott C. Holstad, Cells

“They gave me killer pills that knocked me on my ass for a few hours at least so I wouldn’t have to hear the godawful screaming. I’m exhausted and my blood boils and there’s nothing I can do. There was another life that seems so long ago and I try to reconstruct images, events, people, all just dreams tethered to the knife in my soul. This is my cross, my dagger, my napalm, my dance of the dead…”
― Scott C. Holstad, Cells

“I look at the world like frost in a windowpane, confused, unseeing, and I wait for a solution which will never come. I see the world through eyes glazed over, searching for relief from the ungodly pain. Fuck the stigma. I just want normalcy.”
― Scott C. Holstad, Cells

“In the space of two mere weeks, I have come to know the meaning of life. I won’t share it with you, because we all have to find our own meaning. Camus was right, though. Sometimes, I feel just like Meursault.”
― Scott C. Holstad, Cells

“Moods invent the man.
I am a creation of
turbulence, a rider of
an ongoing
merry-go-round.”
― Scott C. Holstad, Cells