4.48 Psychosis Quotes

“Fuck you. Fuck you. Fuck you for rejecting me by never being there, fuck you for making me feel like shit about myself, fuck you for bleeding the fucking love and life out of me, fuck my father for fucking up my life for good and fuck my mother for not leaving him, but most of all, fuck you God for making me love a person who does not exist.
FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU.”
― Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis

“Sometimes I turn around and catch the smell of you and I cannot go on I cannot fucking go on without expressing this terrible so fucking awful physical aching fucking longing I have for you. And I cannot believe that I can feel this for you and you feel nothing. Do you feel nothing?”
― Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis

“There's not a drug on earth can make life meaningful”
― Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis

“They will love me for that which destroys me.”
― Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis

“You’ll be all right. You’re strong. I know you’ll be okay because I like you and you can’t like someone who doesn’t like themself. The people I fear for are the ones who I don’t like because they hate themselves so much they won’t let anyone else like them either. But I do like you. I’ll miss you. And I know you’ll be okay.”
― Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis

“Have you made any plans?
Take an overdose, slash my wrists then hang myself.
All those things together?
It couldn't possibly be misconstrued as a cry for help.”
― Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis

“Of course I loved you, you saved my life. I wish you hadn’t I wish you hadn’t I wish you’d left me alone.”
― Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis

“Built to be lonely
to love the absent.
Find me
Free me
from this
corrosive doubt
futile despair
horror in repose.
I can fill my space
fill my time
but nothing can fill this void in my heart.”
― Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis

“Embrace beautiful lies - the chronic insanity of the sane”
― Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis

“It is myself I have never met, whose face is pasted on the underside of my mind.”
― Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis

“I’m tired of my life and my mind wants to die.”
― Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis

“I dread the loss of her I've never touched
love keeps me a slave in a cage of tears
I gnaw my tongue with which to her I can never speak
I miss a woman who was never born
I kiss a woman across the years that say we shall never meet

Everything passes
Everything perishes
Everything palls

my thought walks away with a killing smile
leaving discordant anxiety
which roars in my soul


No hope No hope No hope No hope No hope No hope No hope”
― Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis

“- I won't be able to think. I won't be able to work.
- Nothing will interfere with your work like suicide.
(Silence)
- I dreamt that I went to the doctor's and she gave me eight minutes to live. I'd been sitting in the fucking waiting room for half an hour.
(A long silence)
- Okay, let's do it, let's do the drugs, let's do the chemical lobotomy, let's shut down the higher functions of my brain and perhaps I'll be a bit more fucking capable of living.
Let's do it.”
― Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis

“When depression visits
I shall hang myself
to the sound of my lover's breathing”
― Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis

“I hope you never understand, because I like you. I like you, I like you.”
― Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis

“I know. I’m angry because I understand, not because I don’t.”
― Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis

“I've never in my life had a problem giving another person what they
want. But no one's ever been able to do that for me. No one touches me,
no one gets near me. But now you've touched me somewhere so fucking
deep I can't believe and I can't be that for you. Because I can't find you.”
― Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis

“Please. Don’t switch off my mind by attempting to straighten me out. Listen and understand, and when you feel contempt don’t express it, at least not verbally, at least not to me.”
― Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis

“They will love me for that which destroys me
the sword in my dreams
the dust of my thoughts
the sickness that breeds in the folds of my mind”
― Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis

“But I am not here and never have been.”
― Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis

“the only thing that's permanent is destruction
we're all going to disappear
trying to leave a mark more permanent that myself.”
― Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis

“(A very long silence.)

- But you have friends.

(A long silence.)

You have a lot of friends.
What do you offer your friends to make them so supportive?

(A long silence.)

What do you offer your friends to make them so supportive?

(A long silence.)

What do you offer?

(Silence.)

-----”
― Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis

“please open the curtains”
― Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis

“Your disbelief cures nothing.”
― Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis

“the chicken's still dancing
the chicken won't stop”
― Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis

“But you have friends.
You have a lot of friends.
What do you offer your friends to make them so supportave.
What do you offer your friends to make them so supportave
what do you offer. "

...if I could remember any more of my lines I'd add them
so basically this is a preface to the whole play. I would like to quote the whole play. Currently my mind is afraid to remember the play.”
― Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis

“Here I am
and there is my body

dancing on glass”
― Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis

“I feel your pain but I cannot hold your life in my hands.”
― Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis

“I sing without hope on the boundary”
― Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis

“Watching me, judging me, smelling the crippling failure oozing from my skin, my desperation clawing and all-consuming panic drenching me as I gape in horror at the world and wonder why everyone is smiling and looking at me with secret knowledge of my aching shame.”
― Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis