Before You Suffocate Your Own Fool Self Quotes

“Appreciate the liars. When people don’t hide things, it means they don’t care enough to be afraid of losing you.”
― Danielle Evans, Before You Suffocate Your Own Fool Self

“She wondered sometimes if it wasn't all pretense—if, when she shut her eyes and wished restitution upon the whole wounded parade of humanity, she wasn't really wishing away the world that created war and illness so that she might have a world in which there was room to feel sorry for herself.”
― Danielle Evans, Before You Suffocate Your Own Fool Self

“It was easy to be somebody else when no one cared who you were in the first place.”
― Danielle Evans, Before You Suffocate Your Own Fool Self

“Don’t push too hard; your last chance to see a person the way you wanted them to be may come at any moment.”
― Danielle Evans, Before You Suffocate Your Own Fool Self

“There were moments when you knew things about what was inside of people you didn’t want to, knew how deeply they could disappoint you. There was love, and then there was suicide—and”
― Danielle Evans, Before You Suffocate Your Own Fool Self

“When I was very little, my mother used to say there was something of my grandmother in me, in how I tell stories the way I need them to be and not the way they actually happened.”
― Danielle Evans, Before You Suffocate Your Own Fool Self

“You know, you're too pretty for me to leave you on the couch like that," he said, pulling me toward him. I didn't know that, but I did understand then that there was no such thing as safe, only safer; that this, if it didn't happen now, would happen later but not better.”
― Danielle Evans, Before You Suffocate Your Own Fool Self

“Her boldness, which I'd always thought I'd been borrowing from her, had become mine in ways I didn't realize until she was gone. I didn't flinch around people who didn't like me; I didn't feel anymore like being myself was something for which I owed the world an apology.”
― Danielle Evans, Before You Suffocate Your Own Fool Self

“I didn’t know that, but I did understand then that there was no such thing as safe, only safer; that this, if it didn’t happen now, would happen later but not better.”
― Danielle Evans, Before You Suffocate Your Own Fool Self

“Still, she wondered sometimes if it wasn't all pretense—if, when she shut her eyes and wished restitution upon the whole wounded parade of humanity, she wasn't really wishing away the world that created war and illness so that she might have a world in which there was room to feel sorry for herself. Every day she felt herself losing things it was unacceptable to mourn.”
― Danielle Evans, Before You Suffocate Your Own Fool Self

“I want to wake Chrissie and tell her this as if it's a warning: Don't push too hard; your last chance to see a person the way you wanted them to be may come at any moment. One minute you have a parent, or a friend, or a lover, something solid, and physics tells you their resistance will always be there to meet you as you press yourself into relief against them. Then all of a sudden your mother is a fading outline in a thunderstorm, wet and weak and so far out of reach; or your lover who may also be your best and only friend is pulled so quickly into someone else's life that you don't even realize he's left yours until you're getting a save-the-date card; or your father is somewhere at the end of the world and even if you had a number for him, you'd feel wrong calling to tell him to quit collecting stuff when it's painfully clear you have nothing to offer to replace it. But I don't wake Chrissie because she's sleeping like a baby, and anyway, she isn't a baby and she doesn't need me to tell her what it is to watch somebody let you down by being human in the saddest and neediest ways, what it is to push at something that has long since given way.”
― Danielle Evans, Before You Suffocate Your Own Fool Self

“I read books, I ate when compelled, I sometimes wrote embellished accounts of my day in a leather-bound black diary. I was the sort of child who generally had to be coerced into playing with other children.”
― Danielle Evans, Before You Suffocate Your Own Fool Self

“We are safe, with our families, until we are not.”
― Danielle Evans, Before You Suffocate Your Own Fool Self

“By the time school started again, I had almost forgotten what I was missing. I wasn't lonely anymore; I was just alone.”
― Danielle Evans, Before You Suffocate Your Own Fool Self

“We were what we had in life, I thought, and I was not sad about it or apologetic for its corniness.”
― Danielle Evans, Before You Suffocate Your Own Fool Self

“couldn’t finish his sentence.”
― Danielle Evans, Before You Suffocate Your Own Fool Self

“He had been told so much and become so accustomed to his own opinion not mattering that at the critical moment he seemed not to know what his own thoughts on the matter were and”
― Danielle Evans, Before You Suffocate Your Own Fool Self

“brilliant in that completely useless way where he could tell you off the top of his head the architect of any office building downtown and the historic relationship between the toothbrush and cultural imperialism, but not what day of the week it was or what train to take to where.”
― Danielle Evans, Before You Suffocate Your Own Fool Self

“The money was such an obvious problem that I didn't even get to thinking about any of the others most of the time. It seemed wrong to me, that money should be the difference between a baby and not-a-baby. I had a thing inside of me that I could not afford, and Laura had things inside of her that she couldn't afford not to sell, and on the other end of it there were women spending tens of thousands of dollars to buy them because they felt their own bodies had betrayed them. Any way you looked at it, where there should have been a child, there was a math problem.”
― Danielle Evans, Before You Suffocate Your Own Fool Self