Double Cross Quotes

“Most people think happiness is about gaining something, but it's not. It's all about getting rid of the darkness you accumulate.”
― Carolyn Crane, Double Cross

“You think you're charging up that memory? Is that what you think? You are going to be so sorry when I dream about my experience of eating chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream yesterday. Now that was exciting.”
― Carolyn Crane, Double Cross

“Sometimes you have to be a bad person to save yourself, and it takes a little chunk out of your soul, but you do it anyway.”
― Carolyn Crane, Double Cross

“Without warning, Packard reaches out--I think he's going to touch my cheek, but he slides his hand around the nape of my neck and pulls me to him, kissing me warm and strong, lips soft, breath like coffee. The kiss takes me by surprise. My whole body wants to follow deeper into him, but he pulls away, and we're looking into each other's eyes, and the moment stops. And everything seems to fall out beneath me.
"Good luck," he whispers.
"Packard--"
He opens the door. "It's okay."
I stare at the open door. It feels like a closed door. And I leave.”
― Carolyn Crane, Double Cross

“A kiss with the right person simply can't be compared to the drudgery of sleeping with the wrong one over and over.”
― Carolyn Crane, Double Cross

“I feel strange, like there’s an unformed, unfinished, sad little emotion bottled up in me, and I need to fuck it away.”
― Carolyn Crane, Double Cross

“I can't say Ah now?"
"No," I say sternly.
"Even if it's purely innocent? A genuine Ah? Not even that?" He makes a pleading face. It looks silly on him; he's never been the pleading type.
He bats his cinnamon lashes once. "Not even ..."
I try not to laugh.
He keeps the face going and ”
― Carolyn Crane, Double Cross

“Do you have no sense of decency?"
He pauses, seems to think about this, then turns and walks out the door.”
― Carolyn Crane, Double Cross

“You have the most contact with Packard."
"No, I don't."
"Yes, you do," they say in unison.
"You just saw him," Helmut says.
"He had to deliver some gloves to me," I explain.
Helmut raises an eyebrow. "And he couldn't have sent them with one of his people?"
I don't answer. I'm thinking about those pretty gloves, clearly chosen to match that specific dress of mine. So thoughtful. Did he pick them out himself?
Helmut snorts. "And what was he wearing?"
"A dinner jacket," I say, "but just to blend in with the crowd."
"And did you share any food or beverage-"
"It wasn't a date."
Simon tips his glass into his mouth and chews ice loudly.
"It wasn't a date.”
― Carolyn Crane, Double Cross

“You know what happens when you give a kid a calculator instead of teaching him math?"
"I think you need my help." I cross my arms. "You know what happens when you give a kid a calculator instead of teaching him math?"
He tilts his head, his eyes fetchingly bright.
"Sure he can do math that way," I continue, "but then if you take the calculator from him, suddenly he can't do any math at all, because he's
learned to rely on the calculator. Your power lets you look at people and see exactly what it takes to make them tick. Or crumble. But without
your power, you don't get people.”
― Carolyn Crane, Double Cross

“Are you sure we shouldn't have the cops or more guys or something?"
"Don't you worry, buttercup," Francis says. "Anything more is extra time and a herd of elephants.”
― Carolyn Crane, Double Cross

“All I could think of was you. All I can ever think about is you. Why am I always fighting it? Always fighting thinking about you, fighting this wonderful feeling about you. This aliveness. This love.” I look into his eyes and smile like a madwoman. “I love you!” I can’t stop saying it. “I love you. Love, love love.”
― Carolyn Crane, Double Cross

“I’m thinking about how you sighed this little sigh when you sank into the feeling of us together. We both sank into that feeling together—I’ll never forget that.”
― Carolyn Crane, Double Cross

“Your skin was electric—I half thought there should be sparks.” He lowers his voice. “I know you felt it. You looked so beautiful.”
― Carolyn Crane, Double Cross

“Have you ever heard of anybody buying a vacuum cleaner at a vacuum cleaner store?" "One of the unsolved mysteries of the universe," Packard adds.”
― Carolyn Crane, Double Cross

“I feel panicky, like things are growing distant: the sun, the moon, my dreams.”
― Carolyn Crane, Double Cross

“At a stoplight, I reposition the arms on the bendable Gumby doll I glued to my dashboard. I make it so that his hands are on his hips. Worried Gumby. I like to change Gumby to reflect my mood.”
― Carolyn Crane, Double Cross

“Oh.” He stands and comes to me, enfolds me, crossed arms and all. “Oh,” he says simply. It feels good. Like home.”
― Carolyn Crane, Double Cross

“Just for the heck of it, I swing by his place—”
― Carolyn Crane, Double Cross

“I’ve never needed to see Otto so badly. He’s the person who makes it all make sense, my anchor when I’m adrift in doubt.”
― Carolyn Crane, Double Cross

“There is no such thing as freedom, Justine. Only prison walls that forever change shape.”
― Carolyn Crane, Double Cross