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lila wijaya
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i sometimes have a vendetta against goodreads for its capacities to gamify reading. i'm just moving on to the next thing and reading to portray this image of myself. then, i forget who i am bc i keep putting my ego into my hobbies and my competency - or the lack thereof - of bs skills like # of books read. i sit in the silence, questioning how to stop this cycle of validation and being perceived.
— Nov 30, 2024 08:44PM
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lila wijaya
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"i sometimes have a vendetta against goodreads for it's capacities to gamify reading. i'm just moving on to the next thing and reading to portray this image of myself. then, i forget who i am bc i keep putting my ego into my hobbies and my competency - or the lack thereof - of bs skills like # of books read. i sit in the silence, questioning how to stop this cycle of validation and being perceived.
— Nov 30, 2024 08:43PM
lila wijaya
is 70% done
i sometimes have a vendetta against goodreads for it's capacities to gamify reading. i'm just moving on to the next thing and reading to portray this image of myself. then, i forget who i am bc i keep putting my ego into my hobbies and my competency - or the lack thereof - of bs skills like # of books read. i sit in the silence, questioning how to stop this cycle of validation and being perceived. i am just a girl...
— Nov 30, 2024 08:38PM
lila wijaya
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i have an organic chemistry midterm in an hour and being in berkeley feels like im a cog in a machine and the never-ending expectations will one day turn me into a nice giant cockroach and that will be my impending fate.
i have a love hate relationship with this school.
— Nov 25, 2024 05:28PM
i have a love hate relationship with this school.
lila wijaya
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i swear kafka's daddy issues is bleeding through his works. "a thousand friends cannot replace father" indeed. well, i have my own daddy issues, and sometimes i wonder if i didn't find the gym, meditation, existentialism, and therapy i wonder if i would have ended up as sad as georg bendemann, his other characters, or even the man himself kafka
— Mar 31, 2024 04:50AM
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a rather interesting analysis on the metamorphosis! i've been thinking about family relations and what it means to define oneself while in consideration of such matters :3 taking kafka's stories with a grain of salt and finding a silver lining in understanding and lessons taken from his life/works
— Mar 23, 2024 04:51AM
a rather interesting analysis on the metamorphosis! i've been thinking about family relations and what it means to define oneself while in consideration of such matters :3 taking kafka's stories with a grain of salt and finding a silver lining in understanding and lessons taken from his life/works
lila wijaya
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perhaps, life would be a tad bit better as an insect. next time i meditate, instead of imagining myself as a flower or a river or focusing on my breathing. perhaps, i should just imagine myself as a disgusting vermin
— Mar 19, 2024 02:55AM
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P.E. wrote: "Maybe - and that's a big maybe - you can try and read for yourself in the first place, by ritualizing this activity. For instance, I tend to have a special place at home for reading, with teaware b..." thanks for the suggestion! i'll take it to heart to create some sort of reading routine to help me break away from patterns. i realized it's a bad habit with a lot of the hobbies that i have: tracking by reading via goodreads, running via strava, etc. perhaps, it's a way i could create my identity in the digital world. everything becomes performativ.e... very gen z of me i know~
on the other hand, my love for reading only came back recently. mandatory college and high school readings really made me think of reading as a chore and something to tick off on my to-do list, and i've been trying to get back to the groove to see reading as a hobby. reading classics for fun without overanalyzing passages and finding my own favorite genres in fiction :)
these days, what helps me most is just being away from any devices when delving into any sort of hobbies. i still love goodreads for what it is :)) at the end of the day - like you mentioned - it's a tool to connect with others, read reviews, and find books. it's just about how i use it! appreciate the reminder!
I don't know for you, I also tend to scribble the margins extensively, establishing a form of dialogue with the author, or at least a form of discourse toward the essay or novel I'm currently reading. I have found so far to be of great use to help me find more enjoyment and kindle reading habits.
Goodreads is here to help me organize my observations and draw the map of my readings, as far as the review function is concerned. Of course it helped me tremendously to find new avenues for my reading life, and more often than not challenge my limited worldview by confronting it with that of other users. GR can be a tool for your passion ideally :)