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…I’m sure you promised her forever
is that the same forever you promised me?

I hate the fall
it smells like you again
and I can hear your voice
float through the wind

whispering those three little words

it’s winter now
cold
and rainy
and you’re not here

you promised to love me
through all the seasons

maybe I was just not your weather

to love you
was to hand you a gun
and have you aim it
at my heart
and pray
you never pull the trigger

I gave myself to him with the skin peeled off
I let him see me for what was inside
I let him look at me raw

I let him memorize the lines that strung through the plans of my hands
I let him count the number of veins that kept my heart beating

and I’ll still love you if you told me
you didn’t wanna be here anymore

I think I’m the girl before the girlfriend
…
I don’t wanna be the girl who teaches you how to love
I want to be the girl who gets it

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