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Somehow, I wasn’t surprised he had heard me. That across mountains and hills and trees, my voice reached him.

Excuse me while I go cry in the corner

There was a time when the provocation would have evaporated on contact, dispersing against the unyielding wall of Arin’s focus.
A time before a dark-eyed Jasadi became the fastest blade under which Arin could bleed.
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How unbearably pathetic that the person whose advice I trusted most, whose counsel I wanted so badly, was the same one preparing to kill me.

angst!

For Arin, control was a cliff.
One step too far, and everything that made him who he was shattered on the rocks below. One step too far, and a beast would rise from his remains.
As a baker might measure out ingredients for the perfect dish, so Arin measured each move he made. He bided his time. He gathered information.
And when he struck, he struck to kill.

Already loving Arin so much more

“You made me food?”
“Yeah, it was no big deal. I was making something anyway.”
At that, Clyde bursts out laughing. “He was not making something else. He’s been nervous cooking since he got up. This man is so obsessed with you, he doesn’t even know what to do with himself.”

I don’t think he realizes how good he makes me feel in all the most simple ways. The way he mends my wounds without even trying.

Please Bash, I know you're a good loyal man trying to build a relationship with your son, but he's a douche,the kind who thinks he's a catch, but what he really is, is entitled, spoiled, condescending and self centered, he told Gwen to eat less and then was shocked she dumped him and didn’t come back for more, "she doesn’t know what she’s missing"... she does, that’s why she wants to miss it.
She wants you Bash!

The angst!! The yearning!!

“I know you don’t want to talk about it, but I’m going to anyway. Just because you got horny at fifteen and that kid has half your DNA, it doesn’t mean you need to let him treat you like shit while you constantly beat yourself up. And for what it’s worth, when doomsday hits, he’s not invited to my bunker. But you are.”
Clyde telling it as it is and already trying to get Bash and Gwen together is the best

I would have chosen him.
“Bash,I waited months for you to contact me. If I’d gotten those messages… You have to know I would have responded”
My voice turns almost pleading“I would have”
He looks how I feel.Sucker punched.
Without another word, he turns, yanks the door open,and storms out.
I stand there, frozen—shaken. I hear a loud, “Fuck!” followed by what sounds an awful lot like a fist going through a wall

“What appeal can reason have in the face of your tears?”

"the way he looks at you sometimes. Like you are a cliff with a fatal fall, and each day you move him closer to its edge.”
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Arin gazed at me a certain way, and I thought he saw it. My true face, hidden beneath the debris.
I wondered what it looked like.
I wondered why in a world ripe with monsters and magic, only he could see me so clearly.

It says a lot about how Arin feelings are changing that the cold, calculating, precise commander, that always goes for the most efficient course of action no matter how ruthless, let the rebel he has been chasing for 10 years and could have led him to the whole rebels group escape to go back and save the woman he wouldn't technically need anymore if he caught the rebel

“You didn’t run.If you had used your dagger to deepen the existing wounds, I would have lost consciousness and bled my last”
I hadn’t considered the enormous amount of trust Arin had shown by allowing me access to his wounds.He’d sat there,rigid,contemplating the methods of his own assassination.“It didn’t occur to me”I said truthfully.“I have to plan in advance for cold-blooded murder”
“Peculiar woman”

I turned to face him. This was the closest we had been without someone actively bleeding. I would be happy to rectify that.

I'm interested

A friend recommended this, our tastes sometimes overlap sometimes don't, but she really enjoyed it and I really feel like having a white haired mmc 🤫, so this book is the winner of the what to read choice.
Please be good please be good

I’m open to a change of mind if the book surprises me but I feel the 2 stars coming

So you're just gonna live for a month in the middle of nowhere with no cell reception with people you know nothing about... great.

P.S. I wanted to read a fantasy romance, but I went in circle about which one for so long and dnf almost immediately the one I tried, that I think I need a moment with another genre than I'll see if I'm up for the challenge to try another romantasy

The way the chapters are divided is criminal. Why the hell end a chapter in the middle of a conversation? And not even on a sentence that’s shocking or impactful, more like
“how are you?”
End of chapter
start of next chapter
“a bit down but thanks”
😑

Jumped right into this one without reading the first (I didn't feel like it), and this seems really cute ☺️​

As a form of respect for a classic I guess I’ll go with a political 3 stars, but please stop with the endless lucubrations that add nothing

“I can’t ever seem to get under your skin.”
Just fucking once, I wanted to know what it was like for this man to lose control.
“You don’t think you are under my skin?”
His voice set my heart on fire. Slowly, he threaded his fingers into my hair, tightening his hold at the base of my skull. I let out an audible breath.
“You don’t think I carry you wherever I go? You are unshakable. "

“I would go to war for you”
He was usually so composed, but there was something unfiltered in the way he looked at me now—a raw confession of devotion.
“I would go to war for you,I would fight endlessly to keep you if that’s what you wanted.”
I felt the threat of tears, I couldn’t ask this of him.
“I am not worth everything you would lose, Zahariev”
“You are worth it.But I’ll wait until you ask.”
🫠​

“Lilith deserves commitment.”
“I know what she deserves,” I said. “I’m just not sure she wants it.”
You act like this has to mean something, she’d said the night Esther died. Sex can just be sex.
“Maybe she doesn’t think that’s possible with you,” said Gabriel.
I ground my teeth. That was exactly what she thought, because it was true, but I would break every rule for her if she said she wanted more.

“Do you ever wonder why Zahariev drops everything for you?”
I didn’t want to go down this road.I knew what she was going to suggest.
“Zahariev freaking Zareth, the literal head of the most powerful family in Eden. The man probably has drugs to sell—”
“He doesn’t sell drugs”I said.
“People to kill”she continued.
I didn’t argue with that one.
“But you lose your key, and he’s here to break down doors for you?”

I didn’t like being told what to do, but that was why Zahariev was warning me. He knew my rebellious streak wasn’t a streak. It was just part of my personality.
“Yes, daddy,,” I said, my voice thick with sarcasm.
Zahariev’s jaw ticked, but the corner of his mouth lifted, eyes gleaming darkly.

The chemistry between them is 🤌😙🔥​