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"Can you talk, or do you need to cry?"
"Need to cry," I said like a child, and did.

FEELINGS HELP.

He embraced me, and said into my ear, "I'm going to fuck the shit out of you."
I lost my breath.
It was crude, it was unexpected, and it set me on fucking fire.

Yeah. No. Also, another hint about another frightening thing and wow I am NOT gonna survive this conflict.

Oh, crap. Yeah. I had a bad feeling about that from the start, and then the hints. That's how it's gonna come to light, isn't it? That's the significance. CRYING. NOT READY. NEVER.

THE LETTER. MY HEART. I WON'T SURVIVE THE CONFLICT. DOES THIS HAVE AN HEA??? I HOPE SO.

So, I'm having a hard time continuing this. Not because it's bad. Quite the opposite, actually. I'm seriously not sure I'm going to survive the conflict. Help me. I don't want to read it but I do at the same time. I'm gonna try to just push through and finish it quick. We'll see.

"I can't hold on to you. You're like that shooting star. Just a trail of fire in my hands." And the Oscar goes to Evan Wilke, for putting the first fine, hairline crack in the ruby of my heart.

I'm torn. I want to keep reading. But I also want to never read another word of it. The writing is truly flawless. It's perfect and gorgeous. But it's going to hurt later. A lot. And I'm not sure I can survive it.

"You kept it," I said. A long pause before he said, "It smelled like you." Everything solid in me evaporated, leaving only breath. I weighed nothing. Oh my God oh my God. This is SOOOOO GOOD.

WEHFBWEJHFBWEJHFB.

Well, this was interesting. I didn't plan on finishing it in one go, but here we are. 5:30AM and done. Cries. Review tomorrow. I just hope I can find sleep, somehow.

NOPE, I CAN'T HANDLE THE KISSING AWAY TEARS. NEVER CAN.

I CAN'T HANDLE AXEL RIGHT NOW. HE'S WAY TO FREAKING CUTE FOR HIS OWN GOOD. SO ADORABLE. HELP ME.

NOPE, NO SLEEP YET. THERE ARE MORE PRESSING MATTERS TO ATTEND TO.

THAT WAS ALL SO SWEET, GOSH I CAN'T.

Also, it looks like I'm staying up?????????

GREAT. JUST GREAT. I KNEW IT. OH GOD. I WANT TO GO TO SLEEP, BUT I WANT TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENS. IT'S LIKE 4:30 IN THE MORNING. I CAN'T STOP TALKING IN CAPS.

OMG IS THAT WHAT I THINK IT IS??? NOT EXACTLY THE TIMING I EXPECTED. I HAVE A HUNCH ON WHY IT'S HAPPENING NOW, THOUGH. OH, GOD.

God, okay, another time jump. That, to me, signals danger. I'm torn between wanting to just stay up and finish, and just going to sleep and finishing tomorrow.

Seriously can't decide. My Kindle is nearly dead, though. *cries* The trouble of e-books!

WOW OKAY THAT WAS MAYBE MORE PAINFUL.

JESUS, that was painful. Blubbering mess, I am.

And okay, that didn't make sense because "every time" doesn't mean much when it's only twice. WHAT I MEAN is I wish it happened more.

ALSO FEELINGS ARE COMING HELP.

Okay, I give. This is only the, what, second time I've seen the hero do this AND IT GETS ME EVERY DAMN TIME. SO. FREAKING. PERFECT. GOD BLESS.

Also, THAT was also extremely hot. Maybe hotter than the other, but oddly, it's still debatable.

"His words were something along the lines of, 'me Tarzan, taking Jane to tree house where she won't wear clothes and we will play bedroom aerobics for the rest of the days.'"

I CAN'T.

BUT THAT WAS SO MUCH HOTTER.

I do know one thing, even if they are best fucking friends, exchanging necklaces and shit, he won't be the one in charge of protecting MY Izzy anymore.

ALSO THAT WAS SEXY BEYOND BELIEF. GOODBYE.

OMFG I LOVE MADDOX SO FREAKING MUCH. I NEED HIS BOOK. PLEASE. I'M DESPERATE.

I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH LONGER MY KINDLE IS GOING TO LAST AND SHIT IS ABOUT TO HIT THE FAN OH MY GOD HELP ME.

Whoa, that's kind of a big time jump. .............. I want more Axel, please. Preferably from his POV. kthanks.

She was mine.
She is mine.
She will always fucking be mine.

"I don't know what you want me to say." More whispers. Seems like I might need hearing aids for this conversation.

lmao. I love that I can laugh in the middle of an intense situation. Oh, also, bless Axel's POV. Give me more, please.

OMFG I WAS HOPING THAT WOULD HAPPEN. I HAVE FEELINGS.

LMAO OMFG WAIT IS SHE REALLY GOING TO DO IT?? I'M DYING.