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“Don't you understand? The world ends with high explosive, not trumpets, and even if an angel ex-isted, it would be shot from the sky like an aeroplane” (72).

"Look at the world now. It's terrifying, isn't it? (…) Everything is changing so fast. Mother's frightened. In a way, it's easier to imagine the world's going to end. At least there's a certainty to it. End bam- done. But change—where does change stop? (55).

“Armageddon was a fire in the harbor, a box delivered on a cold day. It wasn't one great tragedy, but ten million tiny ones, and everyone faced theirs alone” (28).

WTFFFFFF

“That's not history— that's a story, designed to teach us who to hate and who to obey, what god to worship and what flag to fight for and what color eyes are the most beautiful” (183).

damn

“You know that history is mostly happenstance. Accidents piled on top of mistakes, a series of dice rolled in dim rooms by careless hands. It is not a lesson, until we learn it. It is not a story, until we tell it. And every story serves someone” (180).

“I loved you by then, or would soon, or always had. It was inevitable, foretold: When I look up, I will see the sky; when I fight, I will win; when I meet Owen Mallory, I will love him” (149).

“I am not sure which I prefer: To be taken for something I am not, or to fail at being what I am” (68).

“He didn't seem to understand that a man like me would never be wholly beyond suspicion, no matter how ardently loyal, while a man like him would never be wholly condemned, no matter how faithless. That I had always hated him, just a little, for the privilege of his deviance” (33).

“I only knelt for a while in the place where the woods had once been, but were no longer, until I understood what every person understands eventu-ally: that I had left home and could never return to it, and that there would never be a time when I did not miss it” (24).

“Is monstrosity what it takes to progress civilization? Why else was mankind given this capacity for unspeakable cruelty?” (382).

i basically never cry while reading, but i got to the scene at the end of chapter 33 and actually literally burst into tears

oh my god the YEARNING

i’ve literally had this book borrowed on KU for like 2 years now, but the show’s trailer release is FINALLY pushing me to pick it up

“If there was a heaven at the end of this, it must be filled with great variety, perhaps a multiplicity of intelligent species spread across universes. Yes, heaven would be as full of difference as Hell was of sameness” (87).

“We can't care about anything here. We can't make a difference- all meaning has been subtracted, we don't know where anything comes from or where it goes. There's no context for our lives. We're all white, equal ciphers, instances of the same absurdity repeated over and over. We try to scratch some hope or meaning out of it with our univer-sity, but ultimately there is nothing to attach meaning to. We're damned.”

this book is so stressful i can feel an ulcer forming

“Demons will squabble over contract terms until they wear you down. They're like corporate lawyers” (150).
lmaooo