Status Updates From Wolves vs. Hearts (The Hear...

brendon leaves with shane and ryan starts spiralling and freaking out he cannot handle it all aaasjwdf and then jon is like :o i see what's going on now :0

and ryan is like oh no its obvious or maybe its not that it's starting to seep through the cracks things have changed because he doesn't want to share brendon anymore aaaaasdjfrhwjqudj

making brendon laugh is why ryan does everything these days . oh boy .

ryan finally said 'i love you' he finally realised it/admitted it to himself, that he can love and that he can love a man specifically, he's not denying his gayness anymore oh this is heartbreaking

his heart feels heavy & his heart feels light & he feels weak

oh man bren & shane went on a stroll for an hour and 23 minutes ... ry cant handle it

eeeeek brendon's just arrived at the cabin

cabin chapters coming soon where ryan offers brendon a piece of his heart that he politely declines or smth like that is what he says in the prologue

ryan is like we've been spending more time together its nice and keltie is like we've hardly spent time together OH BOY .

and oh . no . the chelsea hotel . here it is on page 201. wow . already . ifehjdshdj

eek brendon is finally showing ryan he wants him and misses him and ryan is like ahahahah ilysm but i cant tell you that okay cool thanks ahaha g2g and spend time with my gf ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

not keltie being like have you got new cologne i like it and ryan is like eek gotta fix her appartment asap thats not new cologne...

and ryan being like i gotta thank whoever told joe to shave his chest hair lol

ry thinks bren became part of the film crew to see him more,, im not sure tbh. he will also see shane more. hmm .

ry also thinks brendon is completely utterly & madly .. IN LOVE W HIM (is what's left to be implied) but i think its ry that's in love with bren actually ...

eek bren lied to ry about working to spend time w shane making up for the missed anniversary & ry &shane have more in common than ry thought eeeek

'i'm a gay fag so i'm always having a good time'
'good for you'

oh yeah . sure ryan totally normal behaviour:

'there’s nothing wrong with him except for the list of two hundred and thirty-five items that i keep a log of in my head'

oh boy the pain is starting already,,, and it only get worse

in the first book the vibes are brendon rlly wants ryan and ryan is lying to himself that he doesn't super want him too

in the second book the vibes are ryan rlly rlly wants to be with brendon and brendon is just using him or lying to himself but i think ryan wants to be w brendon more here, than brendon wanted to be with ryan in book 1 . anyway it hurts.

maaaan if i thought over the tracks was painful ...
i know ive forgotten a lot of the bad parts in this eeek

and if i said this was a better story than the odyssey? pride and prejudice? war and peace???? THEN WHAT??

"It keeps me up at night, my love, ugly and angry and hungry and pining, it’s torturing me as we speak because he’s right here–right here. And he’s telling me that I can’t have him. And it hits me then–only then. It’s not worry on his face, concern for me or fear of getting discovered. No. Not at all. It’s guilt. That’s what it is."

I've got 10 days off! Ready to dive back into this world and fall into this rabbit hole.

I just finished the most intense and steamy sex scene of all the books I've read to date.♨️🧯🔥
The chemistry between these two is out of this world. Period.🔥🔥🔥

The ultimate expression of my love for a book is owning it in paperback.

I reread "Over the Tracks" two months ago when I was going through a book slump. I think it's time to start the second book.

Please, don't let me down.