Status Updates From Underneath

Shits depressing af so far

gotta finish by 1pm pst tomorrow

Don’t love

"You have just converted cruelty into power. How does it feel?"

The narrative abruptly changes into these numbered paragraphs and sentences. Like almost 300 of them and the last one a stream of consciousness—very disruptive and jarring but I’m hanging with it

Relentless.
The revenge on Janie, wow.

"There is no such thing as justice. You remember that, OK? The closest thing we can get is revenge."

"No sound comes out of Martha's mouth. Just chewing and swallowing, chewing and swallowing. Yes, she is chewing and swallowing everything Kenny is saying, every last crumb. Her eyes are composed. She looking away to a distant land, to a time long, long ago."

this is every bit as graphic and full-on as I thought it would be--maybe more. But I can't stop reading it

obvious CW for fatphobia and fat shaming
bullying, child death & murder (this is what the whole book is about)

I don't know why I'm reading this, it seems like too much for me, but I haven't been able to stop thinking about it since I read the synopsis and that it's based on a true story.