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"She steps toward me and hugs me tight. I close my eyes. There will come a time soon—any second—when she’ll pull away and this will be over. In my mind, we keep ending, ending. I try to stay here, now, for as long as we can...
We stay and stay.
Until she lets me go.
“See you soon,” I say, but the words come out thick with despair."

the double combo of losing a grandparent and losing your first love is insane

thank fuck i didn't finish this book between 2020 and 2023

“That night at the beach,” Mabel says. “And the days after, until school ended and all through the summer . . .”
“Yeah?”
“I thought I’d never love another person.”
“I thought that, too.”
“I guess we should have known better.”
“I don’t know about that,” I say.”

this is really important to me btw

“She peels an orange, separates it in perfect halves, and gives one of them to me. If I could wear it like a friendship bracelet, I would. Instead I swallow it section by section and tell myself it means even more this way. To chew and to swallow in silence here with her. To taste the same thing in the same moment.”