Status Updates From If I Was Your Girl

i was expecting this to feel like a typical American high school novel. and it does, hoo boy does it ever, and i don't always enjoy that. but it's threaded through with the same devastating internal narrative i've been living with for as long as i can remember. and i can't stand to put it down for very long. i have a feeling this may be the hardest "easy read" of my life.

The flashback nature of this is already making me think that tears are going to be shed. But Amanda's voice is so natural and I am in love.

I absolutely love it till now. If I had the time I wouldn't stop reading.

pls dont become a love triangle..

Getting harder to put down!

It's not what I thought it was going to be!

The See Rock City barn!!!!!!! We had a birdhouse that was modeled after it!!

Tried to squeeze in a few pages last night! I'm not too far into it yet, but so far so good.

andrew is such a sad person from so much abuse from everyone that was suppose to love him or that needes to love him...so sad....he just want to be accepted....

I knew something like that was going to happen.

For as long as I could remember, I had been apologizing for existing, for trying to be who I was, to live the life I was meant to lead. Maybe this would be the last conversation I would ever have with Grant. Maybe not. Either way, I realized, I wasn’t sorry I existed anymore. I deserved to live. I deserved to find love. I knew now—I believed, now—that I deserved to be loved.

ohh no

“You ain’t sick, hon,” Mom said. She kissed my cheek and hugged me so tight I thought I might break a rib. “That’s joy.”

Oh, spero di no

oh no ohno

Virginia smiled at me, warm and wise. “You can have anything,” she said, “once you admit you deserve it.”

“[...] queer people in the South are addicted to the closet,” she said, furrowing her brow and digging in her camera bag for a different lens. “Hell, even the straight people have enough skeletons in their closet to fill a tomb. Everybody’s too afraid of going to hell or getting made fun of to be honest about what they want and who they are, so they can’t even really admit what they want to themselves. It’s sad.”

flannel shirt, Chloe!

“You’re right, I know. The world’s waiting,” Chloe said, parting the final wall of corn to reveal the concessions area at the end of the maze.

“See,” I said. “We found our way.”

Chloe smiled wanly. “Somehow.”

I remembered how angry he had sounded when he told me that lives like mine weren’t good, couldn’t possibly be good. I felt the scar above my ear and thought about how warm and tingly my lips still felt from Grant’s kisses. I prayed that Dad had been wrong.

oh no, little andrew :'(

Eh, già

“Stop,” Bee said. “There are enough people waiting to crap in your cereal without you doing it for them. You’re talented.”

Spero di aver capito Bee

Mi sta piacendo, per il momento.

Got the audio book cause it makes my life easier but I follow along with my hard cover as well. I gotta say, the prose is simple but really emotional and it hits me hard. I like how...plainly everything is written. It's good.

This book is amazing, its going to break me.

The flashbacks that Amanda has are just really sad

Didn't see that coming

This poor girl. How hard this must be for her.