Status Updates From Alexandra Feodorovna Diarie...

"william must be coming soon on his official visit to ernie. i must say i would not like to be in his (ernie's) place! nothing i hate so much as those visits and dear william does fidget about so awfully!"
this is the kind of tea i wanted from that book about nicholas, kaiser wilhelm and king edward. all their letters abt each other would have been so interesting to see!

interesting that alix dislikes monasteries, i wonder what she thought when ella became an abbess

"surely, life in this world is not one continual sorrow?"
girl get ready

"I don't know what it is, but I feel so depressed all these days, I can scarcely speak for fear of crying and I give sharp answers - it makes me so furious with myself [...] sweety, does it not frighten you to think what a creature you have chosen? You must cure me from these moods, I am a nuisance, I am sure, to everybody, tho I try to hide it." someone get this girl on zoloft stat!!!!!

its so sad when nicholas talks about his sick dad bc i know he will be dead before the year is over!! how sad

its so fun seeing some of the pictures they mention in their letters!!

ok wow the tone of their letters really changed after seeing each other... even more pet names than before! that sounds sarcastic but i really mean it

the worst part abt reading letters is that there is so much buildup to them meeting again... which i dont get to hear abt!! bc they dont write letters when they're together obv

its nice to know that women have always thought guys look worse after a haircut. alix is always telling nicholas not to get one and it makes me laugh

i allow myself one hour of reading this and its always the best part of my workday

i keep telling myself im putting this down for the day but i keep reading!! i cant help it!! but im really stopping now i swear

i can only read a little bit every day bc their love is truly so sickening (/pos) but for real they are so in love that it's painful and crazy to know that they basically remained this in love for the rest of their lives

if i were just a little crazier i would try to reorder all the letters to be in order of when they were received

i know i should finish the young empress before starting this but i dont want too!! i am too excited to start this. i have been flipping through and reading bits of it all weekend and now im ready to really lock in