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"an m&m cookie being referenced as MC having "never used to eat garbage like that" is diet culture nonsense, please stop, yall. statements like this encourage disordered eating." — 8 hours, 15 min ago
"an m&m cookie being referenced as MC having "never used to eat garbage like that" is diet culture nonsense, please stop, yall. statements like this encourage disordered eating." — 8 hours, 15 min ago
Hypnagogia
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So this was the start of it. And already I was anxious for the end. I flinched again. How was that possible? Flinching at my own thoughts in my own head. I didn’t want them to go, I just… didn’t want to engage with this situation myself. I
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As someone with social anxiety and a constant flow of negative self talk running through my head often? This is too relatable.
“Sometimes it’s hard to feel real. It’s hard to even feel trans because people don’t believe us, but I know who I am.”
― Dear Mothman: A Novel in Verse
― Dear Mothman: A Novel in Verse
“How can I want something so badly but become so paralyzed every time I think about taking it?”
― Eliza and Her Monsters
― Eliza and Her Monsters
“Adam smiled cheerily. Ronan would start wars and burn cities for that true smile, elastic and amiable.”
― The Raven King
― The Raven King
“When Adam kissed him, it was every mile per hour Ronan had ever gone over the speed limit. It was every window-down, goose-bumps-on-skin, teeth-chattering-cold night drive. It was Adam’s ribs under Ronan’s hands and Adam’s mouth on his mouth, again and again and again. It was stubble on his lips and Ronan having to stop, to get his breath, to restart his heart. They were both hungry animals, but Adam had been starving for far longer.”
― The Raven King
― The Raven King
“What people never understand is that depression isn't about the outside; it's about the inside. Something inside me is wrong. Sure, there are things in my life that make me feel alone, but nothing makes me feel more isolated and terrified than my own voice in my head.”
― My Heart and Other Black Holes
― My Heart and Other Black Holes
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