Anita

“This is what I never knew about loss—it’s also about what you gain. You carry a weight that you never had before. It’s never behind you. It’s alongside you.”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Just Last Night

“I will never have a friend like her again. Not only because of our affinity, the sheer timescales. You can't make new old friends. Doors in your life, open and closing.”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Just Last Night

“You usually say old people are a comfort to each other, but that’s what Suzie and I were. I can see that so clearly. The secret formula, each other’s comfort and joy. The eternity of the silence overwhelms me. The line between us buzzes with monotonous static. A line never to be busy again. The only word I can think of that comes close to how I feel is desolate.”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Just Last Night

“Sometimes my friendship with Ed feels amazing and beneficial, because it’s good to know I can feel that way with someone, and to see him glow with adoration in return. Other times, it’s like endlessly overperforming in an interview, for a job where the position has already been filled.”
― Mhairi McFarlane, Just Last Night