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The TMI Thread
Sorry. I didn't mean to be insensitive.
You weren't being insensitive, it's okay.
Jackie "the Librarian" wrote: "I feel your pain, Britt. *sigh*"
Partner? PARTNER? We don't need to steeenking partner!
I just found out how birth control works. How come no one told me that my body was going to trick my hormones into thinking I'm pregnant??
Read what you can Britt, be informed about what you are taking.
Well, not just Britt, everyone should.
Well, not just Britt, everyone should.
I've been on it for two days, and it's making me feel like shit, so I might not be on it for long.
My TMI - I'm still pretty broken up about last Monday (when I last spoke with the guy I thought was "the one"). He's been a good friend (and a not-so-good friend on the rare occasion)... and before him, I never, ever made the decision to cut a guy out of my life. I did with him, though. Before we hung up, I told him we could stay friends. When I woke the next morning, I let him know it'd be too difficult to stay friends with him. He said he understood and wished me the best. I just can't stand the finality of it all.
That's my TMI. I feel like an emo dork about now.
I feel like an emo dork about now. You rock, Heidi. And you made me laugh by making me think of you dressed all emo.
RandomAnthony wrote: "And you made me laugh by making me think of you dressed all emo.">:F
I'm wearing khakis and my navy striped boatneck 3/4 sleeve tee... I do NOT look emo. I only FEEL emo. Maybe the dresswear is why I'm considering myself to be an emo dork.
Whatever. I know you're wearing tons of eyeliner right now!
RandomAnthony wrote: "Whatever. I know you're wearing tons of eyeliner right now!"NO. Makeup for the past two weeks (otherwise I'd look like Tammy Faye).
It's ok. I won't tell anyone about your Fall Out Boy posters.
So my mom just found out how birth control works...great.
Heidi, I am sending you hugs as well. It is hard, but in some ways it is easier to just cut and run. Especially if you have feelings for the guy and he doesn't feel the same or vice versa....why put yourself through that. Did you see Brokeback Mountain? I lived that. After 13 yrs. together, my ex came out of the closet and totally devastated my life and screwed up my daughter. I wish I never had to speak to him again, but he is my girl's father.... anyway, that was 9 years ago and it is still hard for me to relate to him because he has never been totally honest with me. It is better to lay your cards on the table and let them play out, than to bluff and fake your way through. What have the last 4 yrs done for you? What could you have achieved if you knew where you stood with this guy?
I am totally okay with it because I share way too much of myself anyway.
When I was a little boy there was a time when my mom had to keep checking my butt for worms or something.Hey, whole world -- did you hear that?
LOL Oh Phil, that made me snort in my coffee. (You've taken care of that problem now haven't you?)Okay Heidi, here's unsolicited advice because I went through the same thing several years ago. I totally fell for this guy Ben, he was my "perfect" guy in every way. I couldn't believe I'd met him & we dated for about a year. I knew he was the one, and I'd been looking for a loooong time.
Long story short, he eventually gave me the "I love you but not IN love" line and we broke up. I obesessed for at least 6 months about him, waiting for him to call. Finally, he called & asked me out for my Bday and we went and had a blast. At the end of the night I kissed him and it was bliss, just like it used to be, but it dawned on me that he was never going to feel that bliss with me. And I wanted someone who would feel the SAME way about me as I did him.
I told him I could never see him again, which broke my heart all over again. But it was the right thing to do! Six months later I met the guy who I eventually married, and he is exactly what I've been looking for AND I'm exactly what he's been looking for. It has to be an equal pairing, or else it's painful. The thing is he's a LOT like Ben in so many ways, but better. I think sometimes we find a match so close that we'd be happy to never explore further, but I believe there is/are those people who do match us and are better for our happiness, we just have to not give up (or obsess about the wrong one). Looking back over the last 10 years, I know that Ben & I would have been miserable & prolly divorced by now.
You are brave & you are doing the right thing even though it feels horrible. This is corny & cliche but the song that got me through my tough time was "I thank God for unanswered prayers" (partly cause Ben was a country nut) and it shows that there are amazing people & things waiting for us that we don't even know we want until we get over what we think we want now. **Big Hugs!**
Thank you everyone for your support and encouragement. And for sharing your deeply personal stories, Ms. Petra, Misha (I read it before you edited, so I got the gist of it), and Sher. I don't imagine your experiences were easy for you. In a way, you've given me the bit of perspective I've needed. My coworker/friend (a counselor) just gave me the exact same bit of advice/encouragement (minus the Ben story) that you gave, Sher. Who knows... I may wake tomorrow with a huge smile on my face that I can't wipe off - we can be optimistic, right? I've got a bit to process over the next however-long-it-takes. I just need to be patient with myself, maybe?
I'm loving the virtual hugs.
OH, and Phil... ewww.
Misha wrote: "The conclusion I've come to is that I just have to focus on my own life and finding a way to be happy on my own, and then when the right person does come along, it'll just be icing on an already de..."well said Misha.
Phil wrote: "When I was a little boy there was a time when my mom had to keep checking my butt for worms or something.Hey, whole world -- did you hear that?"
My wife went through a period when she was obsessed about the idea that my kids had lice. They didn't. Never did. But you work in public schools too long and you could definitely get paranoid.
It's so hot here I pretty much live in my underwear when at home with no one around.
RA, you aren't the only one. When I'm home alone, I don't see the point in wearing pants. When I'm here with my mom, I don't see the point in wearing pants.
Misha wrote: "The conclusion I've come to is that I just have to focus on my own life and finding a way to be happy on my own, and then when the right person does come along, it'll just be icing on an already de..."And that's the advice I give to others when they come to me with their relationship problems. I'd like to think I typically live by this. However, I think love makes us stupid sometimes.
Thanks for the virtual hugs. :)
RandomAnthony wrote: "It's so hot here I pretty much live in my underwear when at home with no one around."Me, too! I don't think the dogs mind it so much. When the roommate's home, though... I'm cursing him in my mind for having to wear pants. But I'm cursing him in a nice way because he's been a good friend and listener(and his girlfriend has, too).
That was...intense. Kill my libido, my ass.
Phil wrote: "When I was a little boy there was a time when my mom had to keep checking my butt for worms or something.Hey, whole world -- did you hear that?"
i had a tapeworm once. i was endlessly fascinated by it.
janine wrote: "i had a tapeworm once. i was endless..."Tapeworms (and botflies) fascinate me, too! Fortunately, I've never had one. I don't think I'd want one, either. Have you seen this? (a tapeworm story/illustrated - don't click if you're squeamish)
I don't get people who would consider putting one in themselves on purpose, though. They even sell them online for people who want to lose weight! That's just bizarro.
that was a great story, especially the pulling it out part. im so glad mine was never that big.
Heidi wrote: "However, I think love makes us stupid sometimes. "
Some of us are stupid even without it.
Some of us are stupid even without it.
Gabby81 wrote: "Are you kidding me, how things like that can be fascinating....though the story was quite amusing :). "I have NEVER been able to turn my head when watching a youtube video of someone pulling out a tapeworm (there's one video of a person pulling the tapeworm through an incision in the stomach) or a botfly. It's like watching Jerry Springer or Geraldo - I know I shouldn't WANT to watch it, but I just can't tear my eyes away from it.
Heidi wrote: "Gabby81 wrote: "Are you kidding me, how things like that can be fascinating....though the story was quite amusing :). "I have NEVER been able to turn my head when watching a youtube video of some..."
exactly!
WHERE IS GRETCHEN!!!?! She and I have had this exact same discussion before now. I just can't remember where or when. She'll agree with us, Janine. :)
I had a dream that I knew how to walk in high heels. I wish I did 'cause he has a thing for them.
At one of the camps where I ran the barn, the horses showed up wormy one year. One of my barn assistants was an aspiring vet and we spent a lot of time following the horses around and examining their poop. It was educational. Textbook come to life.
Gabby81 wrote: "Speaking of educational, how many of you enjoyed catching earthworms by your own hands and dissecting those while doing high school practical classes :)I am not sure you enjoyed that much as watc..."
i think i went to a different school, because we didn't do anything like that. i had already experimented enough at home though. dead animals, slugs, worms you could cut in half and would still be alive.
Gabby81 wrote: "animals,slugs, worms...i think you did not spare a single poor creature at home ( beside humans off course )....Here, those practical classes are only for students opting for biology as major."
most of the animals were already dead. cats like to leave mice by the front door, and some other animals they only like to kill, not eat.
OH!!! We didn't have to catch our worms in high school biology. I couldn't dissect the frog, though. That smell made me nauseous. Plus, our froggie had eggs in her. :(I have a thing with puncturing skin. I'm okay with whatever comes out of the body after it's been cut, but actually seeing the skin getting pierced or punctured makes me lightheaded and feel like I'm gonna pass out or vomit.
Gabby81 wrote: "We did frogs and cockroaches as well Heidi :). I used to hate dissecting cockroaches and those were the toughest among all."Cockroaches?!! EWWWW... that's seriously gross. I think I'd get the shakes just thinking about the crunching sound they would make when you'd cut into their exoskeleton. VOMIT VOMIT VOMIT!!! GRODY!
i remember pillbugs make excelent crunching sounds when cut with a knive. as do the skulls of mice when cracked between a cat's jaws.
This was all in school? Catjaws and cockroaches and all?
Heidi wrote: "OH!!! We didn't have to catch our worms in high school biology. I couldn't dissect the frog, though. That smell made me nauseous. Plus, our froggie had eggs in her. :("
In junior high, we had to dissect a frog, a fetal pig, a worm, and a sheep's eye. But not all on the same day.
During the summer - for kicks - we'd fry insects under a magnifying glass using the sun's rays for ignition.
In junior high, we had to dissect a frog, a fetal pig, a worm, and a sheep's eye. But not all on the same day.
During the summer - for kicks - we'd fry insects under a magnifying glass using the sun's rays for ignition.
Gabby81 wrote: "Janine aka "ruthless doctor of dead creatures" does not need a school to do that.But yes , cockroaches, frogs and worms, we had all of those in high school."
now you're making it seem like i'm a (potential) serial killer. i just liked to explore and was curious about all creatures, living or dead. seeing my father slaughter a hare was better than watching tv.
We dissected sheep's eye and fetal pig. I did really badly at the practical exam on the pig. There was one on each workstation with a pin pointing to something we had to identify. But that was the spring that I couldn't use my right hand, and so the teacher's solution was to walk around the stations with me and record my answers for herself. Her hovering next to me at every station made me so nervous I forgot everything. I'm sure I passed, but I didn't do well.
Gabby81 wrote: "janine wrote: "Gabby81 wrote: "Janine aka "ruthless doctor of dead creatures" does not need a school to do that.But yes , cockroaches, frogs and worms, we had all of those in high school."
now y..."
you didn't need to do that, i just had to comment on it.
now everyone can read it in the quotes.
Dissection? Never did it. I took chemistry.
I was up for an hour reminiscing.He added up my attributes instead of discounting me for my flaws. Boys only do the latter. We pass a pretty girl. I could never look like that or pull off that skirt. Reply: Watch what you say. You're beautiful. He's sometimes fatherly at dinner, but he can't help it. He feels my arm, and he tells me how he loves the smoothness of my skin (Thanks, Buffalo Bill) and how my color contrasts with the color of his skin. He holds my hand. His hands are so warm. Why are your hands warm? He's always loved my eyes and my lips. But he wants me for my mind. Wait, honey, don't I get a kiss? No one's ever wanted to kiss me before. I turn around, expecting his cheek, but he offers me his mouth. I take it; this is long overdue. He tastes of the beer he drank with dinner, the sweat on his upper lip, and his lust. So much lust. He lingers while I pretend to fumble in my pocket for my keys. We want more time, but we can't change who we are. Goodbye. We must do this again sometime.
I miss him.
*sigh*