fantasy/dark fantasy medivialish setting ; mc uses fear to kill

[Andrew]

Couldn't fit my "plot" in the topic header so sorry about that but I just don't have any concrete memory of this to actually form a proper sentence

I honestly feel like this series was wiped off the face of the earth
Because it seems to even be removed from overdrive where I originally read it


1 mc might have started with a darker hair color but started turning white as series progresses I think
2. dark fantasy
3. theres a snake that sorta just chills inside the mcs body
4. Mc kills by literally making people's worst fears come to life and kill them
5. might be a witch but I think they used a different name in it
6. Another character is a dude with beasts things/wills/souls inside his body
7. Has a medieval era setting
8. Several books to the series
9. Protag/mc isn't a good person
10. Lots of massacre scenes? (Maybe?)
11. Mc uses knife
12. Book 1 mc starts in a circus/carnival/theater/ something and is dirt poor
13. I think mcs hair is white
14. It's not the throne of glass/whatever that series is called
15 title I think sort of uses maybe 3 three words or two words in it (could be wrong on this one)
16. I think mc is on the cover of certain versions
Of the physical books
17 mc name may start with a A or C I can't remember which one or if it's even either but my instincts are screaming those two letters
18. Some romance... But I think the mc wants to kill the love interest..
19 ... Love interest dude is prince/king can't remember...
20 mc left her homeland
21 I think the first book might've came out after 2000