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~ǀ Hєαя Ƭнє Rєνєявєяαтιηg Ƒσσтѕтєρѕ Sуηcнιηg Uρ Ƭσ Ƭнє Ɓєαтιηg Of Mу Hєαят....~{Lori's Journal}
So...a proper introduction...
I guess I'll call this journal UnZipped for now, cuz I'm unzipping my brain & letting you see inside my mind...
ENJOY THE RIDE. There will be twists & turns & drops & bumps..
Anyways, I'm Lori, if I haven't already mentioned that No, not like The Walking Dead character. But if you are a TWD fan, you must hug me right now, Fellow Walker-Slayer. *HUGS*
But Loretta's not my real name, some of my friends on here know my real name, but Loretta/Lori is what my Internet name is. I might tell everyone my real name later. So moving on...
I am a hugger, OK? You must accept my many loving embraces. (That wasn't meant to sound creepy. I hug people I care about.) :D
Um..a little about me...
I'm 13.
I am Puerto Rican-Italian. (You got a problem with either of those, please talk to the sizzling hot frying pan aiming for your face right now.......................................Just Kidding! Maybe.)
I am a martial artist & I currently hold a green belt in Taek Kwon Do. I don't think I'm that strong, but for some odd reason, the hole in the wall I accidentally made in my parents' bedroom this summer begs to differ. It WAS an accident, OK?! A moment of anger overtook me. Thank God that barely ever happens.
I have 3 older brothers & 1 older sister (CUE your eyes widening, probably), who are all in their 20's. Even though they're all older than me, I couldn't ask for better big brothers & a big sister. THEY ARE AWESOME. Absolutely crazy, yes, but also AWESOME. It runs in the family. We're all martial artists, so we're gonna take you down! 4 black belts & 1 green belt....
COME TO MY FAMILY GATHERINGS. YOU WILL BE FED. & OVERCOME WITH FUN & CRAZINESS & LAUGHTER. :D
I have a dark side too though. Some of you have seen it. I barely ever let it show. It's bad. But I have a feeling it's gonna come out a lot in this journal. You might be surprised.
MUSIC IS MY LIFE. I am a singer & song-writer & pianist, & it is the best thing in the world <3 <3 <3 I've been singing since I was 3, song-writing since I was 10 (I started doing it seriously at age 11), & piano-playing since I was 6, though I haven't gotten my hands on a keyboard in a while. *hands feel keyboard-less*
Oh, yes, my ProPic is a pic of me, if you were wondering.
So, that's a part of my life. I'll unleash the rest later...MUHAHAHAHAHA. Or "UnZip" the rest...hehehehe...yeah, yeah, bad pun, I know :P
*waves*
I guess I'll call this journal UnZipped for now, cuz I'm unzipping my brain & letting you see inside my mind...
ENJOY THE RIDE. There will be twists & turns & drops & bumps..
Anyways, I'm Lori, if I haven't already mentioned that No, not like The Walking Dead character. But if you are a TWD fan, you must hug me right now, Fellow Walker-Slayer. *HUGS*
But Loretta's not my real name, some of my friends on here know my real name, but Loretta/Lori is what my Internet name is. I might tell everyone my real name later. So moving on...
I am a hugger, OK? You must accept my many loving embraces. (That wasn't meant to sound creepy. I hug people I care about.) :D
Um..a little about me...
I'm 13.
I am Puerto Rican-Italian. (You got a problem with either of those, please talk to the sizzling hot frying pan aiming for your face right now.......................................Just Kidding! Maybe.)
I am a martial artist & I currently hold a green belt in Taek Kwon Do. I don't think I'm that strong, but for some odd reason, the hole in the wall I accidentally made in my parents' bedroom this summer begs to differ. It WAS an accident, OK?! A moment of anger overtook me. Thank God that barely ever happens.
I have 3 older brothers & 1 older sister (CUE your eyes widening, probably), who are all in their 20's. Even though they're all older than me, I couldn't ask for better big brothers & a big sister. THEY ARE AWESOME. Absolutely crazy, yes, but also AWESOME. It runs in the family. We're all martial artists, so we're gonna take you down! 4 black belts & 1 green belt....
COME TO MY FAMILY GATHERINGS. YOU WILL BE FED. & OVERCOME WITH FUN & CRAZINESS & LAUGHTER. :D
I have a dark side too though. Some of you have seen it. I barely ever let it show. It's bad. But I have a feeling it's gonna come out a lot in this journal. You might be surprised.
MUSIC IS MY LIFE. I am a singer & song-writer & pianist, & it is the best thing in the world <3 <3 <3 I've been singing since I was 3, song-writing since I was 10 (I started doing it seriously at age 11), & piano-playing since I was 6, though I haven't gotten my hands on a keyboard in a while. *hands feel keyboard-less*
Oh, yes, my ProPic is a pic of me, if you were wondering.
So, that's a part of my life. I'll unleash the rest later...MUHAHAHAHAHA. Or "UnZip" the rest...hehehehe...yeah, yeah, bad pun, I know :P
*waves*
Sometimes I just stare at the dang ceiling when I'm supposed to do schoolwork. The ceiling seems more interesting than my schoolwork. You cannot deny you've never done that before in your life-time.
Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And the worst part is there's no one else to blame
Be my friend, hold me
Wrap me up, unfold me
I am small, and needy
Warm me up and breathe me
Ouch, I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found
Yeah, I think that I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe
Be my friend, hold me
Wrap me up, unfold me
I am small, and needy
Warm me up and breathe me
Be my friend, hold me
Wrap me up, unfold me
I am small, and needy
Warm me up and breathe me
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And the worst part is there's no one else to blame
Be my friend, hold me
Wrap me up, unfold me
I am small, and needy
Warm me up and breathe me
Ouch, I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found
Yeah, I think that I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe
Be my friend, hold me
Wrap me up, unfold me
I am small, and needy
Warm me up and breathe me
Be my friend, hold me
Wrap me up, unfold me
I am small, and needy
Warm me up and breathe me
~I've loved, I've hated, I've laughed, I've cried, I've won, I've lost. I'm still fighting battles, & I'm definitely planning on winning. But my story is not yet over. The rest is still UNWRITTEN.~
I think I'm crazy...am I crazy? I feel crazy...like BAD crazy.
Am I crazy? Can someone help me with this?
Am I crazy? Can someone help me with this?
Crazy isn't bad...O.o
But what's wrong, dear?
But what's wrong, dear?
I don't even know...it's like everything in my life is going up & down: school grades, friendships, family issues, my thoughts...IDK what's happening...
I think that's just the time of life you're at. A lot of people feel that way. If there's something you want to talk about we can pm if you'd like :)
I want to buy a big box.
Fill it with frosted sugar cookies.
& eat all of them.
To my heart's content.
Without gaining any weight.
& even end up losing weight.
But that can't happen.
But I wanna do it anyway.
Fill it with frosted sugar cookies.
& eat all of them.
To my heart's content.
Without gaining any weight.
& even end up losing weight.
But that can't happen.
But I wanna do it anyway.
Exactly.
Yo, Teen Vogue, y'all are experts at inventing ways to make young girls feel bad about themselves. Can y'all become experts at making weight loss cookies?
Yo, Teen Vogue, y'all are experts at inventing ways to make young girls feel bad about themselves. Can y'all become experts at making weight loss cookies?
~What I Don't Get: Part 1~
Looks. OK? Looks. I don't get our dang stupid society. Like if you aren't 5'4, weigh 85 pounds, have perfect long hair, have clear skin with no acne or blemishes on your whole body, are perfectly hairless except for your hair & eyebrows, & don't have blinding white teeth, you're automatically ugly. That's stupid & a lie.
I don't understand the whole Miss Universe thing. You have to have pretty much no meat on your body & look extremely sexy (though painfully stressed, but those poor chicks have to hide it) in a thong bikini. OK, so me & my older sister were watching Miss Universe & I was making this rant to her, when I saw something that caught my attention: The clips of the first few Miss Universe contests. The girls had a ton of meat on them. They had non-revealing bathing suits. They were kind to each other. They were all beautiful inside & out, no matter what. Fast Forward to today's beauty contests: Total Opposite. & what does anyone do about it? Nothing. It just keeps getting worse & worse as the time goes by.
Now, I'm not insulting any of the Miss Universe contestants or their bodies or personalities. I'll respect their decisions & what they wanna do, cause it's a free country (countries???). I think they're all gorgeous women. But what message are these beauty contests sending out to girls? Young girls could watch Miss Universe or MTV or read Teen Vogue & be like, "All those girls are pretty, & everyone likes them. I look nothing like them. I guess I'm worthless.
IT'S NOT RIGHT!
Society: Be Yourself
Society: NO, not like that!
& then there's bullying about looks too. Honestly, I think bullying an innocent boy or girl based on the way they look is one of lowest levels a person could stoop down to. They don't fit the correct standard, so they try to find short-cuts to escape the pain & to try to reach those standards. I've been through all these things before...I know.
So...how can a person judge another person based on how they look? It's horrible.
Looks. OK? Looks. I don't get our dang stupid society. Like if you aren't 5'4, weigh 85 pounds, have perfect long hair, have clear skin with no acne or blemishes on your whole body, are perfectly hairless except for your hair & eyebrows, & don't have blinding white teeth, you're automatically ugly. That's stupid & a lie.
I don't understand the whole Miss Universe thing. You have to have pretty much no meat on your body & look extremely sexy (though painfully stressed, but those poor chicks have to hide it) in a thong bikini. OK, so me & my older sister were watching Miss Universe & I was making this rant to her, when I saw something that caught my attention: The clips of the first few Miss Universe contests. The girls had a ton of meat on them. They had non-revealing bathing suits. They were kind to each other. They were all beautiful inside & out, no matter what. Fast Forward to today's beauty contests: Total Opposite. & what does anyone do about it? Nothing. It just keeps getting worse & worse as the time goes by.
Now, I'm not insulting any of the Miss Universe contestants or their bodies or personalities. I'll respect their decisions & what they wanna do, cause it's a free country (countries???). I think they're all gorgeous women. But what message are these beauty contests sending out to girls? Young girls could watch Miss Universe or MTV or read Teen Vogue & be like, "All those girls are pretty, & everyone likes them. I look nothing like them. I guess I'm worthless.
IT'S NOT RIGHT!
Society: Be Yourself
Society: NO, not like that!
& then there's bullying about looks too. Honestly, I think bullying an innocent boy or girl based on the way they look is one of lowest levels a person could stoop down to. They don't fit the correct standard, so they try to find short-cuts to escape the pain & to try to reach those standards. I've been through all these things before...I know.
So...how can a person judge another person based on how they look? It's horrible.
But I believe everyone in the world is beautiful or handsome. They'll deny it constantly & say it's not true, but that can't change the truth.
I love you all. You're all so amazing in your own special ways, even if you don't believe it.
Don't listen to the jerks.
Listen to your happiness.
You're all beautiful and handsome.
(view spoiler)
I love you all. You're all so amazing in your own special ways, even if you don't believe it.
Don't listen to the jerks.
Listen to your happiness.
You're all beautiful and handsome.
(view spoiler)
I'm burning, OK?
You left me to burn.
It hurts.
I love you.
You used to love me.
We were happy.
I know you had to end us
It wasn't anyone's fault.
I acted like it was OK.
It's wasn't.
It's not.
We're still best friends.
But...
Have you forgotten about me?
You act like it.
I'm still in love with you.
I think you're too blind to see.
I wish you could still be in love with me.
You left me to burn.
It hurts.
I love you.
You used to love me.
We were happy.
I know you had to end us
It wasn't anyone's fault.
I acted like it was OK.
It's wasn't.
It's not.
We're still best friends.
But...
Have you forgotten about me?
You act like it.
I'm still in love with you.
I think you're too blind to see.
I wish you could still be in love with me.
Missing someone...seriously sucks.
ἀℓℓἱℯ ↯ωσя∂ѕ нσω ℓιттℓє тнєу мєαη ωнєη уσυ'яє α ℓιттℓє тσσ ℓαтє↯ wrote: ":( are you okay?"
I'll PM you...
I'll PM you...
I just wish things could be different right now...the way they used to be.
Tired. But happy, actually. You?
I love those pictures lori....
Azalea wrote: "I love those pictures lori...."
:)
:)
Azalea wrote: "I really needed those :)"
Looks like they're helping both of us :)
Looks like they're helping both of us :)
So...my name's Loretta, I prefer to be called Lori :D
I'll write my ACTUAL introduction in a couple minutes, due to the fact I'm doing homework.
Raise your hand if you hate homework *raise 2 hands & a foot*.
Be back in a while.