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Page 100 of my journal. ^-^Only took, what, a year and three months?
Sweet.
I'm super chill right now.Weird 'cause this is day three(?) and it's usually when I'm all panicky and weird, but not now.
Hm.
Hey, i'm not complaining.
More dramatic shit happened while I was gone yesterday.
My mom's company was sold.
Think I;ve mentioned before she's a nurse through telecommunications.The company she works for has officially been sold. Changed hands.
under new fucking management,
Happened while she was on a trip with her friends over the weekend.
She's been with this company for almost seventeen years, and it changed names and stuff over the years, but now it's COMPLETELY DIFFERENT shit.She might lose her benefits.
She might get a huge pay slash too.
... She's talking about quitting.
I'm scared, this IS NOT good. She's most of our income.My dad's in retail. Makes enough, by all means could pay our bills still, but gas and stuff is gonna get tight if mom leaves her job.
Junior year isn't happening if she quits.
I mean not unless I paid for everything, and that would take like all I've saved.
She went to see her friend about something, and I'm going to Norman with her later.I have to go.
Ayah ~Addicted~ wrote: "I'mso sorry."Thanks love.
Okay, so she's NOT quitting.I guess that's good.
There's a meeting tomorrow morning to discuss recent 'changes' (and i'm just sitting here like "Hey, dicknuts, how's about you let a brother know when you're SELLING THE FUCKING COMPANY") and we just go from there.
But her job is still THERE, 100%.
So. No more freaking out. If shit happens, it happens. if not, great.
*sigh*
I'm looking at some farmhand positions, some I could start as early as April, so maybe the school thing's no big deal either.
We'll see.
Crossing every finger.
On a lighter note I managed to take a REALLY good pic for Facebook so my family will stop saying "Smile! You look so mad in your picture!" on my posts and in IMs and shit, and tbh i'll probably use it here 'cause it's neck-up and doesn't emphasize a gender.Right now my FB pic is Darcy for anti-animal cruelty month and my cover is Misty, but that ends tomorrow so i'm switching my cover back and using this new pic for my profile.
Haul from Barnes and Noble:Ready Player One.
Catacomb (CATACOMB bitches!!! Will probably DEVOUR it this weekend!).
Mistborn: The Final Empire.
20th Century Ghosts (sooo psyched about this. It's Joe Hill's story collection!).
I've been sleeping like a rock for a week, which in theory is good, but it's making me really spacey and fatigued during the day.I'm gonna try and stay up tonight. I added White Night to my currently-reading on Friday and I've read like eight pages. :/
I really want to read it but I've been too unfocused, so i'mma try and get into it tonight.
Also shutting my computer off at nine from now on, I think the screen glare might be messing with me.
Okay. Freakout time is OVER. Mom's job is still there and as far as we know, it'll stay the same. For now at least. Which is all that matters.
I'mma post some stuff today, I MEAN it, and hopefully get some of my long-neglected art stuff done too.
Take a good look at me now. Do you still recognize me?
Am I so different.... Inside?
This world is tryin' to change me. And I admit, I don't wanna change with it.
And I admit... I can't go on like this.
Any.... More....
Erase this monster I've become.
Forgive me for all the damage done.
It's not over. Say it's not over.
I'm beggin' for mercy, i'm only the monster you made me.
I'm better alone now.
See, i'm torn from my mistakes.
And I stopped believin' that I could ever make things change.
How much can I take, when I know that it hurts you?
How long can I wait, when I can't go on like this any... More...?
Erase this monster I've become.
Forgive me for all the damage done.
It's not over, say it's not over.
I'm beggin' for mercy, i'm only the monster you made me.
'Cause who I am, isn't who I used to be.
And i'm not invincible.
I'm not indestructible.
I'm only human.
Can't you see... The beauty in me?
Take a good look at me now. Can't you see I've changed?
Erase this monster I've become.
Forgive me for all the damage done.
It's not over, say it's not over.
I'm beggin' for mercy, i'm only the monster you made me.
Erase this.
Erase this.
Erase this monster you made me.
Feeling a little less mellow today. Not that my mellow from yesterday didn't get blown to fucking pieces, but today I never even had it.
*sigh*
Confession: I had a little yesterday.Not a lot, didn't feel a buzz of any kind, but I thought it would chill me out a little.
Didn't.
Just made my head hurt.
So because of my interest in horror fiction, my mom decided that, for a little extra credit in English, I could read Frankenstein, The Turn of the Screw, and Dracula (along with my other assigned books, of which I still have six). If I finish them and get decent papers written, I don't have to do essays on my other assigned books, I can just check them off my list and be done.0_0
That's... Actually smart. Like something a decent teacher would do if a pupil really showed interest in a certain genre.
She's trying. I should really be grateful.
But oh my FUCK, FRANKENSTEIN? DRACULA? BY MAY 27TH?
... Shit.
Can I just chill with Harry and ignore life for a little while?
Really? I thought his 'business associate' was more your speed. ;)
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Oh right *eyeroll*
Art is happening today.My break from DA was supposed to be about me having time to get everything done, not to dick around and do nothing.
I did some stuff, it's not my best, but i'm still gonna post it on Thursday, and i'm using what free time I can get today to work on... Something I should've fucking finished a LONG ASS time ago. Then I can start on 7 men and I can get my groove back, hopefully.
Here's to hoping I still remember how to hold a pencil, and i'm still semi-capable of drawing while sober.
Due for publication:Final Teacher/Apprentice one-shot, Judgment Day.
Kyraa/Thomas one-shot.
Harry/Marcone/Kyraa one-shot.
Kyraa/Molly/Harry one-shot.
^ Followed by a Dresdenverse hiatus.
Parts the seventh and eighth of If I Could Run.
^ Each half-done at this time.
God damn you, Dresden, you DO NOT have permission to give me feels like this. Make me laugh and blow shit up, that's all I ask!
Ayah wrote: "istalkeddoug"WHAT THE FUCK?
How was it an accident???
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Ayah wrote: "butdatsmiletho"Wait...
Unless you're talking about a cat smiling, you clicked a different Doug.
Ayah wrote: "I WAS STALKING YOU AND IT JUST CAME UP I HAD TO CLICK"Oh my God. XDD You have a wee little obsession with this man, don't you? You know he's like forty-eight, right?
And as queer as a three-dollar bill.
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Ayah wrote: "I become obsessed with older men easily"Is one of them a crime boss? *bat eyelashes*
Ayah wrote: "… oh. Man. I got happy."I'm honestly a little relieved. He works for the government and the idiot shouldn't even HAVE a facebook page. I hope it's not THAT easy to find.
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Is one of them a crime boss? *bat eyelashes*"
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Lauren Dylan Danielle [last name I will not say in public]
Do you ship ME with JOHNNY?
YES! XDI'm sorry I'm sorry i'm sorry I can't help myself.
Are you gonna sit there with a straight face and tell me you don't ship my fabulous self with any literary characters?
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*mumbles*
Only like twice I swear
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I've got a headache. It's either from hand sanitizer sniffing, loud music, stress, annoyance, or a mix of them all.