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Esther
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Sep 15, 2023 07:13PM
i hate it here
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miraculous ladybug is the most ridiculous "kids" show i've ever watched, but you will never catch me skipping an episode. i just finished season 5 and idek what to do with myself
i have a younger sister that i love very much and my mom doesn't understand that just because i had bad childhood experiences doesn't mean i want the same for my sister. just cuz i was forced to wear something i hated so i would be "appropriate" doesn't mean im not gonna support my sister when she says she doesn't want that. my sister and i may fight more than we compliment each other, but i want her to be soo happy. my mom wants to treat us equally, but for me, that whole concept should be thrown out the window when she just wants to treat us equally bad.
it was my birthday a bit ago, so happy bday to me. it was quite boring but beggars cant be choosers, just thankful to be alive and have friends
got the flu about a week ago. dropped my phone in the snow and couldn't find it for a good 15 mins. yesterday was the first time this week id gotten more than 2 hours of sleep. everything has been great
merry christmas and happy new year. christmas was better this past year cuz i exchanged gifts with friends. new years was about the same
i like someone who likes someone who may or may not like someone, and i want it all to stop right now
i don't know how to let myself be friends with people who so obviously prefer each other's company over mine. everything honestly feels like a form of self sabotage
im nobodys first choice, im nobodys best friend, nobody wants me more than they want someone else. how am i supposed to be ok knowing im never preferred to the person standing beside me
"i pray you are released from the hold Satan has on you""back to sender, you're a bastard and an ingrate"
"well years ago you wanted to disown your own daughter"
"you are a liar. God will judge you accordingly"
literally just sounds like...
"you're so smelly, take a bath"
"not if you don't take one first. oh, and you're ugly"
"at least i didn't trip and fall on my face yesterday"
"shut up, thats not true"
yet somehow, the people arguing aren't 5 years old
you can leave if you want, that's fine. but i just wish you told me first, so i wouldn't always be looking to my left wondering where you went
im too lazy to get a therapist so ima just keep raw dogging life and come back here when i eventually break down and wanna cease existing
ive been back for less than two days, and the nonsense has already resumed cuz why have the police been called multiple times

