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"That's fine. I don't mind it. I just want to get away from here altogether."Kalona said softly as she gently clutched onto him.
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He held her gently, kissing her head. "I know.. I know." he murmured, then let her go finally, wondering what was to happen next.
She gazed up at him smiling small."How about we just wait it out and go from there?"Kalona said softly just hoping if she waited it out with, Hunter perhaps her being tempted from drugs will be gone and so forth.
He nodded, "sounds good..." he said before the doctors came to do their stuff. He again had to wait a while.
Kalona couldn't help but sigh in frustration as she was already getting fed up with doing this crap they kept giving her day and night. All these tools and pain was killing her and not helping her as they suspected it would. She just glared at the doctor as she tried to struggle this time till they gave her shot that knocked her out as she just fell still as they worked on her again. Mentally she was cursing and doing all kinds of things to just hate the doctor and the nurses altogether.
(should we skip till she's out?)
((I was just about to ask the same thing. :x It's fine by me.))
((okayyy))After a few more days of going through this same, horrifying routine, the doctors ran some tests and checked up in her, to see if she was reacting to the treatment. The results proved to be positive and she was free to go home. She was instructed to rest and drink lots of water and keep a balanced diet, avoiding sugary or caffeinated things. She wasn't allowed any kind of medication either for at least a month and obviously no drinking or smoking or any of the sort either. All she needed to do was get the hang of it. She was allowed to get back to dancing in a few days but only enough so that she didn't exert herself too much.
On the other hand, Hunter needed to keep up the gentle act. He was afraid that if he started being himself again, she would be tempted to take the drugs again, and that would totally ruin both of them and all that hard work would go down the drain. He had to keep an eye out for her just to check what she was eating and in case she started to sneak in some drugs of any kind again. He made sure to go with her whenever she left home, just to make sure she doesn't buy anything of the sort.
As for his job, Hunter told them he needed some time off. Just for a few more days and that he would make up for it by coming in on weekends, after all this was over. He was one of the best workers they had so they couldn't afford to not agree with his conditions.
In the current moment, Hunter was preparing a meal in their small, shacked up kitchen. Pasta was easiest to make. They had already had it a few times before but it was one of the only things he could cook and it was quite cheap as well. He made sure she had fruits and everything and covered a full balanced diet.
((Yep.))Kalona was home early on a saturday as well as him being home. She went over and behind him as he was making lunch and wrapped her arms around his waist as she rested against his back."Surprise."She whispered in his ear as she snuggled against him with a gentle smile. She didn't know why she wanted to come home early from dance but she knew she missed him a lot and sooner or later they were going to move away from here and go somewhere else. Just the sound of it made her feel better then ever. But also the fact that she had to be on a stupid diet kind of irritated her as well so she tried to deal with it the best way possible.
Hunter stood in front of the stove, watching the pasta as it boiled. He wasn't great at cooking. He only did it when he absolutely needed to or in this case, when he thought was the better option. When he was younger he used to know how to cook much better. He would make things like soup, fried fish, apple pie... He and his sister loved the apple pie the most. He hadn't cooked much after that though. He never needed to. They would usually just order out or fix a sand which or something of the sort. Cooking was something they never even found time to do because of the arguing and the work and getting sick and everything of the sort. He started chopping some vegetables to add.. Maybe some mushrooms too? He sighed. There was not much in the fridge to add, in the first place. He just chopped whatever there was and put it to the side to add later when the pasta was boiled. He started on the sauce. He whipped up some white sauce and made sure it tasted... Well, not like crap. Food just had to not kill you, right? The taste hardly mattered...
He smirked a bit when he heard her come through the door and attach herself to him from behind. "You're back early.." he murmured. At this moment, Hunter felt like a fucking housewife. He held it in though. He wanted to scream and shout and break things and burn the building down to the ground and rip people's heads off their bodies. He was so angry. He was always angry. Even when he was happy, he was angry. Even when everything was going so well, he was angry. Even when he seemed to be the nicest, most caring person in the world, he was always. So. Fucking. Angry.
Keep it in, Hunter he told himself firmly, in his own head and keep your shit together.
"I'm making your favorite... Some more pasta! Yay." he teased, as he continued to make it, waiting for it to boil. He knew she was probably tired of eating the pile of cardboard that he called pasta. He was glad she was home early, though. He needed her not to strain herself too much. Plus it was a Saturday and she should've stayed home in the first place. "How was your day?" he asked, turning around to face her, letting the pasta finish up boiling.
(where'd you go)
((Sorry chicka. I was trying to get back to you last night because I've been busy applying for a job and doing things with my mom and just thought of a new idea for a rp. But I'm replying now.))Kalona giggled at the sound of his words after she put her bag by the couch."I got tired and my head was hurting a bit from dancing a lot. I needed a break. And besides I missed you, Hunter. Like a lot."She said softly before she gently fell asleep against his back. It was rough on her the last several days and she didn't mind it but the routine of eating the same old crap was getting really annoying and stupid as is.
[ Sorry for the short response. I'm a bit with writers block. ]
(okay cools)"Oh, well that's nice I guess.. I don't blame you for being tired.. You do need a lot of rest." he murmured. "Would you like some now? It's almost your lunch time." he waited for her response but she was quiet. He looked back and realized she fell asleep in this very odd position. He took hold of her and gently picked her up, then laid her down on the bed, pulling the covers over her after. He kissed her forehead gently for a moment then turned off the light. When she slept, he let her sleep. She needed it to finish her recovery.
Kalona just tossed and turned in the bed but tried to focus on sleep itself. It apparently didn't work as she softly groaned and gasp from a nightmare. She felt slightly scared but it got worse as she screamed in pain as she saw someone trying to force her to have drugs and sex at the same time. She didn't want it but it apparently didn't work as no one answered her.
Hunter was used to all the nightmares. He was always there for her when she had one, just to make her relax and calm down. He heard her faint screams and rushed back, slipping in next to her. He held her gently in his arms. "It's okay, shh." he murmured in her ear. "I'm right here. You're okay." he promised as he whispered sweet things in her ear to calm her down and not ruin her sleep.
Kalona gently held onto him for her own sake. Just so she wouldn't go completely insane or anything of that sort. Though when she heard his voice she rested her head against his chest and smiled small as she knew he was there for her till the bitter end and would help her through this recovery even if it might kill her or so.
Hunter held her her, stroking her hair softly, rocking her gently and slowly letting her rest against him. He kissed her head and rested in that position, lying down with her in his arms, feeling tired too. They could get lunch when she would wake up.
Kalona purred softly from the feeling of him stroking her hair but it felt so relaxing and soothing yet at the same time. Though at this very moment she just felt better and she didn't know why. Maybe for the fact he was holding her and just trying to give her relief to her nightmare? Maybe but quite honestly she didn't know at all. Though in her sleep she whispered something to him such as,"Hunter can we just move away from the city already? It will make the recovery easier for me. It doesn't have to look that nice but I can't take living anymore at all. It doesn't help me of any sort."
Hunter was already half asleep, barely listening to what she was saying. He didn't have anything to say to her. Where would they go? What would they do? He had a feeling moving would only make things worse. But hw had promised her that they could move.. He just didn't know how or where to begin. They had no one and nothing. He just gently stroked her back and sighed before falling asleep next to her.
Kalona could tell just by falling asleep beside her he had nothing to say. The only thing he did was stroke her back. He didn't get why she said she needed to get away and clearly he didn't want to listen. She needed to get away for the obvious reason: drugs were always done in the cities so it would be easy if she wanted to do drugs again. So, Kalona did the most probably stupidest thing to do get out of bed and walk into the bathroom and lock the door behind her as she went and just sat in the tub crying her eyes out.
Hunter woke up after a while and groaned when he saw had not next to him. He muttered something under his breath. He started to look for her around the place, realizing she was in the bathroom. He could hear her crying and suddenly got angry. "Kalona, what the fuck. Get out of there." he called through the door. "Stop crying and come out so that I can shove the friggan pasta down your throat. You need to eat! Get out of there, already!" he knocked, impatiently.
"I don't want to eat and your not going to force me to eat, Hunter! Just leave me alone. You don't understand anything right now or what I want or what I need. Just your needs. I mean I saw from a mile away you were trying to hold your anger in but I don't give a shit anymore! Just leave me alone or I swear I will do something about it!"She said rather yelling through her tears as she tried to keep herself in check but it was becoming harder and harder every second of the hour.
"Why are you doing this to me?" he yelled, pain in his voice as tears sting his eyes. He leaned on the door, falling down onto the ground. He couldn't take it anymore. "Don't you see? I'm doing everything I possibly can for you, to make you better!" he couldn't believe she was threatening him, especially right now when he was so emotionally vulnerable and had done so much for her already, dedicated all his time, gave up days of work just so he could take care of her. He was trying as hard as he could but she wouldn't cooperate. She wasn't being good for him, even though he was killing himself to be good for her. "What do you want from me.." Hs asked, his tone dying down. He was just so tired of all this shit, it was too fucked up. "I can't do this anymore, Kalona.. I just can't."
She heard his words and bit her lip hard as she gently got out of the tub and gently crawled to the door and unlocked it for him to come inside. Kalona felt either so sad because of what she made him feel or guilty for everything he did for her and she never did a thing for him. Kal wanted to say sorry but was sorry good enough at this moment in time or was it a big mistake? She didn't care anymore. Kal gently pulled him inside and on top of her as she gazed up at him. Kal couldn't help but laugh in nervousness as she just gazed up at him and nearly blushed scarlett."I'm stopping this right now. It's my fault and I shouldn't have done this at all. Just forgive me please? I'll forgive you for holding in your anger when you had every right to throw it at me."Kal said breathlessly as she kissed him hard and felt the tears that stung his lips as she was trying to hold back her own tears as well. When she let go though she gazed up at him with a gentle smile."No matter what, Hunter I'm going to be by your side and I know you will be by mine. We can do this I know we can because I love you and I know we can do everything in our power to make it all perfect!"She said through tears that stung her eyes and slowly started to trickle down her own cheeks.
Hunter was just so tired of everything. He didn't know what to feel at the moment. He was too tired to feel anything. He had worked up so much energy trying to do everything he could for her, he just didn't know how to keep doing this, how to keep living on like this, when it was so against his nature. He let her do whatever it was she wanted with him. He had been doing so much looking after this past week, he needed some taking care of right now. He couldn't take care of two, grown, broken people, all by himself anymore. He needed her to cooperate. He let her kiss him, not kissing her back in return, again, just tired. "You keep saying that.." he murmured, closing his eyes against her. "that we can do this and that we will be there all the time. But that's not what's happening. We're falling apart, don't you see? It's easier to say these things than tl actually do them."
"Don't say that. It's not going to keep happening to us. we can pull through this, Hunter. Don't turn you're back and say "no" when we can do this. Please just hear me out? I don't want to lose you to another person. I just can't lose you. Whatever it takes I don't care because I will do that. If you need something I'll do it. You say it I'll do it. I promise I can be there for you when you were there for me. I just...want forever. But fuck it since we can't have it! I guess I should shut up and be the stupid person I am."Kalona said softly glancing the other way as she couldn't help crying and trying to keep herself together.
Hunter wiped his mouth with his hand and rubbed his eyes. He brushed the tears away from her cheek with his thumb, making her face him again. "I know.." he murmured. "Just be happy.. Eat your food.. Get better. That's all I want for now. I can't do this alone anymore and I need you to help. I can't just sit at home and wait to take care of you all day. I need to work, make money, get out of the house. I can't afford to keep worrying about you." he sighed and got up. "Come on. Freshen up and I'll heat you dinner for you." he muttered before getting out and heading to the kitchen.
Kalona nodded as she slowly got up and took several deep breaths and fixed her hair a bit."He's right you know, Kal. He's always right and you need to realise that sooner then later."She muttered to herself after she got out of the bathroom and went to stand in the kitchen with him."How about you go to work tomorrow. I'm planning to stay home anyways and sleep in. I just think I need it right now."Rosie said softly.
Hunter was in the kitchen, scooping spoonfuls of pasta onto two plates, glancing over at her when she arrived. He then looked at her seriously. "Okay. I'll start tomorrow. But you have to promise me that I won't have anything to worry about. Please." he stopped for a moment to show her how serious he was, then continued to heat their plates.
"I promise to my utmost desire to do so. And besides I just want to sleep right now. I feel lately every day I wanted to sleep because of this stupid recovery thing."Kalona said softly as she went to sit on the couch and waited just hoping she didn't fall asleep once more.
Hunter waited as the bowl spun around in the microwave. He took it out and put in the next. When they were both done he set them on the table with forks and a pitcher of water and two glasses that he filled to the brim. She was supposed to do a lot of hydrating. "Come on babe." he called to her, pulling out her chair for her.
"Coming."She said as she tried to not be in a daze but it was hard as she felt she was sleep deprived or maybe just thinking to much. She tried to shake her head out of it but couldn't as she grasped onto the chair once she got to the chair."S-Sorry I think I'm just not paying any attention right now."She said softly as she sat down on the chair and put her head in her hands so her head didn't spin a whole lot but gently held onto the cup of water trying to not shake it as she tried to drink swiftly but gently as well.
He hovered over her for a bit, helping her get seated and watched her for a moment ad she settled down. He kissed her head softly, leaving his lips to lie on her soft hair for a moment, watching her struggle even with water. "It's okay." he said finally, softly, almost like a whisper. He then sat down next to her, starting with his own food. "Well," he started in his normal voice after a moment. "We have dessert to look forward to. Ice cream and fruit salad." he smiled a bit, trying to cheer her up. And himself too, for the matter. If she was happy, he'd be happy.
Kalona smiled small as she gently held onto the cup of water still and slowly drank it it small gulps but it was when she felt his lips on her hair she shivered slightly and felt the cup in her hand fall. She thought it was glass but at the moment she didn't know or could tell. Kal merely sighed softly and hoped she didn't get a mark from the glass and luckily she didn't as it was some type of plastic. But later when he mentioned of dessert she couldn't help but grin."The sound of ice cream sounds lovely."
He sighed and picked up the glass "Careful." he murmured, putting it back on the table. It was fine and there was no water spill since she had already drank it all up. He squeezed her hand a little. "That's what I thought. But fruits are a must." he reminded and finished up his pasta, glancing at her now and again to see if she was doing alright. He put his dishes in the sink then brought out the dessert which was just untidily chopped up fruits and a small bucket of strawberry ice-cream from the local supermarket.
Gtg. Something came up so I won't be on for more then a week I assume but I'll be back soon I hope! ]
(whaaat. I hope everything is okay with you..)
{ I'm back. I'll be on but not like 24/7 of that sort. c: Is it okay if we can time skip to them already moving some where else? Not trying to be rude but I thought it would be okay with you. >~< }
(yeah, totally. I hope everything is fine with you!)
{Eh it's okay just had some mental issues to deal with to be honest. Still a bit shaky but nonetheless I'm better. Could you start pls? c:}
(urghh.. I have no idea how to start. Where will they move? Where will they stay? All that.)
{Hm perhaps the surburbs like outside of Chicago? For example they move to IL and I can start that they have a house by the lake or they live in CA and somewhere near the lake/ocean? I'll start. Just tell me where would you think it's best to start off with? Btw I gtg in a few.}
(anything that's gold with you, honestly. Just keep in mind their financial status. They have almost no money. And okay.)
[Hm townhouse it's cheap but I think financially good o. o ]
[Sorry for the lateness but I'm replying now as we speak! ^^ ]Kalona just arrived home around ten to almost eleven o'clock at night from her dance class and practicing or so she told, Hunter. To be honest she was hanging out with some friends she made in the dance class such as her guy friends by the name of, Joey and, Michael and then her girl friends as well which were, Rachel and, Violet. They were enjoying themselves as they had a few drinks but not to the point of drunkenness like, Rosie did that night. But usually someone would have to drive her home and, Violet/Joey had to drive and stay with her till she got back home to, Hunter. It took about an hour to a half an hour but when she finally got home she waved to her friends and turned around to face, Hunter and smiled with pure bliss."Good to see you to, hunter. You look better then ever right now."She breathed before she got into his arms and fell against his arms from sleep and being drunk way to much this time around.
Hunter was at home, still completely jobless. He just spent time on the internet, searching for jobs, doing whatever. This made him more angry. He was at home all day, with nothing to do, and always worried. This whole thing was a mistake. They should have just stayed. They wouldn't be in such poverty there. What made him even angrier was that she was out there partying with her new friends or whoever and lying to him even though he made her promise not to be so careless like she had been for the past few years. "I look good, but you look like crap right now." he muttered, taking her to bed. "You're so drunk. Look at you." he shook his head, swearing under his breath. He left the room then and went outside just to get away from her and from everything.
Kalona mentally glared at, Hunter because even though she was half-asleep she could still hear him. Though when she spoke she stated it half asleep still,"Why don't you stop arguing and just appreciate that I'm bringing in money for us. Leave if you want to! You seem like you don't care to begin with as is!"She said and tried to throw something before he left but couldn't and just cried into the pillow as she cried herself to sleep.
Hunter was infuriated. He was done with being the nice guy he tried to be earlier. Everything just made him so angry. Because she was bringing in the money made him feel emasculated and her pointing it out to him just made him feel worse. "I don't need your fucking money." he muttered to himself as he walked off, to nowhere. He found himself at a gas station, buying a pack of cigarettes. He smoked them all standing near the swing set at a park. It was only a couple hours later he came back home, lying down on the couch, unable to be in the same room as the woman he loved but hated.
Kalona slept for hours on end till around maybe four in the morning that she got up and went to the bathroom and left it open as she turned on cold water in the sink and splashed her face but glanced at the mirror and sighed softly."What am I going to do with myself and him? I know I love Hunter but it's like...I just don't know right now."She muttered as she fell to the ground and just sat there and slept all the way to early morning.
