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A Solivagant on the Inselberg
But look at all the light it throws.
We have some Christmas fest tomorrow....... I wish my parents would let me skip school. I don't want to go.
And I often wonder whether I'll come back if I do.
Two of my friends are participating in the cake decoration contest today, so look who's getting some cake today :D I don't even like cake, but I'm going to try some of theirs no matter what.
People at my school: Catalyst for my self-harming and suicidal acts.
I got the cake even though they couldn't give it to us for free. It wasn't that costly and the money apparently goes to charity. And we helped them sell the rest of it, but now I feel sick.
Maybe I'll call S when I'm in the bus. I'm feeling really down today.
I just took an IQ test and it said that my IQ is 132?And I took a quiz to see which Shinee member I am, and I get *drumrolls* Kim Jonghyun!
Well, I kind of saw that coming because it wouldn't be the first time I've been compared to him. My best friends used to say I was a little like him, too.
Speaking of which, I'm talking to S right now :D Kind of multitasking on my phone, but damn I miss S and H!
The bus came early to pick me up!!!! What the?!?! Where are half the people?!
I'm sitting a little away from my friends again so that they can ignore me more easily. Thank goodness this isn't class! Besides, I have better company than them behind.
I do realize I'm talking to myself, but I'm going crazy so I don't care.We are all covering our faces and sitting in this auditorium because we're actually supposed to be watching from a classroom, but we came here. And my Botany teacher is up here to supervise.
You should see us right now! xD
They let us go. No classes today! Why on earth did I even come then?????
I'm so annoyed right now I could jump in front of a train.
Books to Review List
• Thirteen Reasons Why
• All the Bright Places
• Speak
• Undone
• Before I Fall
• Everything, Everything
• The Book Jumper
Okay, that's a lot! So I'll be off to write them now because I want to finish them in 10 days!
Hallie wrote: "Now you're one good friend!!!! Well, they think I'm better than them because they keep scoring lower than me in Math (I don't understand how anyone can be worse than me!) Uh I don't know.... My fri..."Thanks! XD Aww :( That sucks. Just try not to fret about them too much. Most people would say if they're jealous, that's their problem, but my alternative that I would do is offer to help them with it :) And no you're not bad at all! Stop lying about yourself!!! Yeah :/ Thankfully my current friends aren't like that, but I've had way more "friends" in my life than friends.
Oh good! Hallie you are very sweet! They are telling the truth!
Today was my last day of school!!!!! :D I have a project due at midnight that I have to complete online, so that's fun, but after that I'm free. OMG! I can't believe it! I can actually write!!!!!
I also gave a bunch of extra sweets out to teachers and peers- and enclosed a note to Mr. Knox telling him that I look forward to his class the most. I told him I was serious too. Wonder what he thinks...
Anyway, if all goes according to plan, I'll write a bunch and be able to ask him about submitting to the literary magazine after I get back from break!!!!! :DD
Enough about me, I'm sorry today was a bad day :( Are you done with school?
Alia [permanent semi-hiatus] wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Now you're one good friend!!!! Well, they think I'm better than them because they keep scoring lower than me in Math (I don't understand how anyone can be worse than me!) Uh I don't ..."No, I really am bad. I did try to help them later, so I guess I can quit being so hard on myself. I make asinine mistakes: at the end of the page, the number is 5, and when I turn the page, it's 15. Once I multiplied 5 and 10, and got 15 *claps* Genius, right?
Nope! I'm going to find out who it was, but I think whoever got my name is the actual sweet person. Her tone in the letter I received gives that vibe.
Yay! Today is my last day! I didn't have any classes yesterday, and I think the registered Catholics have a mass today, so the rest of the day will be relatively free, too. Yes for writing!!!!!!! Sadly I'm not that free because I have study, but at least I don't have to deal with the drama at school.
You're so sweet! The only person I'm giving a gift to is the angel I got in the game. I didn't even wish my teacher even though the whole class shouted together. I'm pretty sure he will be pleased! :)
I really don't mind hearing your tales :) They are much more intriguing that mine.
Alright, I woke up late in the morning, had to eat breakfast that tasted like paper, spent the first two hours annoyed because one of my friends didn't come and the other forgot to bring my notes (how am I going to study?! I'm never going to forgive her for this!), spent another two hours alone flipping through the pages of my Physics book, had two slices of bread for lunch and some pineapple my friend forced me to finish even though she was the one who bought it.Yeah, my day is going great!
My Secret Santa is C?!?!?!? What?!?! I never expected that!
So I was literally shivering because I was afraid to guess who was my secret Santa, and then my teacher called out my number. Who wants to know my reaction to it?No one? Yeah, I knew it, but I'll tell anyway.
Hallie here said, "Crap!" And then she walked to the front. Hopefully no one heard me, but I think they did.
And then since I knew it wasn't the person I initially suspected, I just said the name of my mum because there are two people with the same name, but it wasn't them. They said C, but she didn't come today. Her friend got up and said that she had given her the gift to me and gave it to me. Ugh I couldn't thank her.
However, the next person to be called was my angel, the girl right after me in alphabetical order. I had just settled into my place and she guessed someone else, and I'm like, "Wrong!!!" But when I got up and went to give the gift, my class went crazy. What was that about?!?!?!
Anyway, I think I got chocolates :/
Finally, a real smile!
My school let us go early again so my friends from the bus and I went out to eat. Something I've never been able to do with my own friends. They kind of forced me into it, and even made sure they weren't leaving me out of the conversation. I was, as usual, walking behind everyone and they kept saying, "Hallie, come in front! Let's talk! Don't be alone!"
They put a smile on my face for the first time today :)
The best part was when my classmate (let's call her L) who comes in the same bus as me said that she wanted to entertain me, and another girl (D) said, "All Hallie does is read books! You know, she loves V." The second L heard that, she turned around to face me with the most hilarious expression! Her jaw dropped and her eyes are almost out and- I mean there were five of us standing in the middle of the street laughing at her.
V is another friend who comes in the same bus as us, and she is a bookworm and a writer. Of course I'd love her! I'm pretty sure I've mentioned her before (the person who said that she was glad I existed), so well..... Once L got belted by V because she just said the word suicide. Oh dear, that was epic! xD And once L tried to ask whether it was easy to shift from science to Humanities to someone, and V was all like, "How can you decide your future based on someone else's experience? Everyone has different capabilities. Are you fine work being average?" Uh yeah, she's an overachiever xP So L is kind of afraid of V now. But I'm me, so V is actually someone I can relate to and look up to.
Then we spent an hour eating - half of which was spent deciding what to eat and splitting the bill. But it was good! Everyone were shocked that another girl and I wouldn't eat the pizza because we didn't like it. So the next time we go, they are trading pizza for pasta just for the two of us!
And we're finally back to the bus even though we told the owner to come an hour ago. He did wait for us, so yay!
I'm really glad I went with them instead of the subway. I would have reached early, but I really enjoyed the time we spent.
If only I could do this again.
Wish I had people who wrote emotional posts when I die.
If not now, then maybe tomorrow. If not tomorrow, then maybe a few days later. But I will die; that I can assure you. After all, I all just a pathetic mortal. (Not implying that mortals are pathetic, but that this mortal here *points at self* is pathetic)
Hallie wrote: "Alia [permanent semi-hiatus] wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Now you're one good friend!!!! Well, they think I'm better than them because they keep scoring lower than me in Math (I don't understand how anyo..."Okay, everyone makes those mistakes. I do, and I'm sure that the students who do better in math than I also do that every once in a while. Last year, I dealt with that by coming in for extra time with my test. This year, the tests are shorter and they don't contain as many huge/annoying numbers (find factors of 129? Ugh) so I just complete it quickly and check my work until the bell rings. Yes, you should stop being so hard on yourself. It's really nice of you to help them too :) Some people just think "I'm better, and that's the end of it."
Lol I just thought of a problem where we had to calculate the combined area of two rectangular rooms. I multiplied both lengths and widths, and then I multiplied the areas together rather than adding them 😂 So you're not the only one!
So it was C? She sounds nice :)
I'm so happy for you!!!!!!!!!! 🙂 Especially because you didn't get Thanksgiving in England. I had four weeks between Thanksgiving and Christmas break but woah, they were intense. At least I made it! Aw man :( *uses Obliviate on Hallie's teachers to make them forget about the work over break* I suppose that's an improvement. Oh, I'm going to get Plutonium running too!!!! :D
I don't blame you- I only gave these out because my mom accidentally ordered extra boxes of Christmas cookies and needed to do something with them. We also bought stuff on our summer trip, and that required a home as well. That's okay. I hope so! You can never tell with him though. XD I waited until lunch to deliver it, lest he embarrass me in front of the class. My classmates would think I was trying to become teacher's pet. À lot of them only know me for my inhuman attitude about school, so they wouldn't get that I actually mean it.
Aww thanks :) I try to only tell the good ones because this is your journal and not mine. I could rant all day and name all the ways that last year was much better than this year... or complain about Mr. Z even more than I do IRL... but eh, might as well make myself feel better instead of worse. And keep you out of my own blah stuff.
I'm so glad you enjoyed lunch!!!! Before Christmas is a great time :D You should be glad! Heh don't be too embarrassed XD I danced in the hallway yesterday quite literally after my friend and I finally discovered her missing pencil pouch.
I had a good experience with a friend too... probably the most nerve-wracking note to deliver besides Mr. Knox's was to this girl who I want to become closer to sometime. She's a fun person, but an introvert and a bookworm too. And she's very academically competitive without being a show off. Anyway, I told her that I'd like to hang out more. When I got to Math, which we have together, she sat next to me because the person I'm assigned to sit next to was traveling. That was so nice! She didn't have to do it at all! So I'm holding out hope :)
Alia [permanent semi-hiatus] wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Alia [permanent semi-hiatus] wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Now you're one good friend!!!! Well, they think I'm better than them because they keep scoring lower than me in Math (I don't unde..."I do it every single time. I was even more horrible when I was little because once I did something so stupid and argued with my mum that I was right for the rest of the day. She was exhausted from trying to make me understand xD For me, that looks normal even when I'm rechecking it. 1 + 1 = 11. No matter how many times I stare at it, it's right in my head until I get my marks. Well, I candidly think they are better than me, and I scored higher only because they sleep in class and I sometimes try to pay attention.
Hehe don't ask me the number of times I've made mistakes like that because I've done in it in almost every single Math test I've attended in my entire life xD
Yep, she is a pretty sweet girl! :) Everyone likes her. But we never really talked much, so explains the word 'sweet' in her letter.
I've cursed England so much because we don't have Thanksgiving! xD I only have a little more than a week, but holidays are still holidays :) *watches keenly in hopes that the spell worked* Yay!!!!! Still have to finish my character xD
Ohhhh!!! That reminds me, why has my dad not bought anything yet? xP My brother and I need to steal some cookies before he goes and gives them to his employees. Haha that is true! Sometimes they just build up the wrong facts about you when your intentions are truly different.
You're free to share whatever you want here! :) So you don't have to worry that you're hijacking my journal if you ever want to rant. Hmmmm I'll just head over to your journal for the rest of your stories!
I didn't have lunch when I was supposed to, so this was good :D Hehe that was me when I found out I qualified the first round of the Magazine committee's auditions xD But hey, finding a missing pouch is something to celebrate!
She sounds like the kind I admire a lot! My friend is more of an extrovert, so basically she initiated the first conversation (which was 'Who reads books?' I was the only one other than her!) Oh that's great! I hope you get to get closer as friends! :)
Okay my friends want to meet up on Christmas because we weren't able to hang out that much last week.
Hallie wrote: "Wish I had people who wrote emotional posts when I die."Maybe 'people' is asking for too much. Perhaps one person who wrote emotional posts when I die?
Why do I keep googling the creepy stuff?
Hallie wrote: "Wish I had people who wrote emotional posts when I die."No dying
Hallie wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Wish I had people who wrote emotional posts when I die."Maybe 'people' is asking for too much. Perhaps one person who wrote emotional posts when I die?"
i will when you die at a ripe old age of 537 of natural causes. then i will write lots of gushy stuff about you
So I guess no posts whatsoever. I'm not surprised.
About to go to bed, but no you're not going to die Hallie. I saw the saddest movie ever (Titanic) today and guess what, Corvus's creator cried during a movie! When she didn't do so for her own character :/
I guess I just felt plain depressed then.
I'll see you in the morning.
shall i sing you a lullaby?
Goodnight Alia! I'm will die someday. I don't have a Philosopher's stone.*opens mouth to speak but then realizes that she never cried while watching Titanic* Oh don't beat yourself up for that! You were definitely pretty sad for Corvus, too. Sometimes you don't need tears to be sad.
Haha Maggie! xD Please do. I'll record it and listen to it if I can't sleep tonight xP
lol i don't even know how to do that on my computer, but if i figure it out i will send it to you!
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Lol xD I just got one! So I wrote one and passed it, too, because I'd feel bad if I didn't send one. It says I'm silent and sweet xD I can't stop laughing at the sweet! I wonder who this liar is!
I don't understand how anyone could like Math! How?