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A Solivagant on the Inselberg
Again, I'm not laughing at people suffering from depression. If I were I would agree wholeheartedly with your point, but I see no issue with ridiculing the assailant. I understand that depression isn't a joke, but undermining it, in my experience, has made it easier to overcome. When it is taken less seriously as a concept it holds a little less influence over your life as opposed to when you obsess over it. I understand that this by no means will solve the issue, but it lessened its impact for me to take a "wow, isn't this ridiculous" viewpoint when I frequently suffered from it in order to make steps towards solving the causes of the problem rather than dwelling on the problem itself. However, I can understand the way you see it, and respect your views on the matter.
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You "understand depression as a joke". And what's that supposed to mean (BTW I didn't sleep yet)
I still don't agree with your point, but since we're dropping it anyway, have a good day :)
And I'm swearing like a sailor.....
I have a feeling Iz isn't very happy with K. Yeah, I'll stay away. Who are these people again?
Hals I love this time zone!!! Can I stay in it so I'm better able to talk to y'all XD
Balance? What's that?
One of the issues I've been having these past days is unsteadiness. Whenever I walk or stand, I lost balance and nearly fall, and it is never caused by anything. I'm just walking and suddenly I lose my balance.
Problem is that when this happens, I usually hold on to something and people look at me like I'm some clumsy idiot that never looks where she is headed (which I candidly am), but when I can't find an object that isn't steady enough for me to grab, I substitute that with those things called human beings - ironic because Hallie hates being around human beings. So that just annoys them more and I feel terrible. My mum thinks it could be low blood pressure or something, but how can I have a low blood pressure with the amount of salt I eat?
Even worse was when I went to a store with very valuable merchandise, I was freaking out because when I was younger, I accidentally walked into something and..... Alright, I'm not really happy with that memory. But thanks to that incident, I knew I should be careful there, but Ms. Unsteady Feet here could not walk straight. Fortunately - very, very fortunately - that didn't happen again, but I sure need to do something about this unsteadiness.
The question is what?
Sorry for this asinine and trivial stuff, but I don't have much to do and I'm tired of talking to myself.
I just found the perfect scene that's relatable in Modern Family (Season 4, Episode 11).All the older cousins and running around wrapped up in their own thoughts, and the youngest there, Lilly, comes up in a uh..... Well, she was obviously all by herself, and she says, "Is anybody watching me?"
At my dad's house, that's me.
Please, please, please kill me! Or I'll have to do it.
Dang, did you forget your password or something?
Personal Survey Time!
Stolen from Tumblr
When you were younger, did you have a swing set or a playhouse in your backyard?
No.
Is your mall nice?
Well, I don't like malls, so I don't care.
What are you listening to?
The football match.
Do you burn incense?
No.
Do you smoke weed?
Not yet.
Do you like to post song lyrics for your Facebook status?
I don't use Facebook, but if I did, I would.
Do you have a Sonic near you? If so, what’s your favourite drink from there?
No? What a Sonic?
Will you be voting in the presidential elections next time around?
Well, we don't have a presidential rule.
Do you go to the gym?
No.
Do you like Kid Cudi?
No. What even is that?
Does being in love make you nervous?
I wouldn't know.
Have you ever made a mistake in letting someone go?
No.
How do you feel about chocolate-covered strawberries?
Ew!
How do you decide if you can trust someone or not?
Oh, simple! I take one look and think: 'Nope. I do my trust them.'
What was the last important thing that you thought about?
I'm not sure. University?
Did the last song you listened to hold any special meaning?
Yes.
Do you and your last ex hate each other?
I don't have an ex.
What’s irritating you right now?
Everything.
Who was the last person you gave up on?
Myself.
Have you ever been so quiet that nobody noticed that you were there?
Story of my life.
Did you ever stop having feelings for someone and then started having those feelings again for them?
No.
Do you stay home when you are sick or do you still go out?
I wish to stay home, but I still end up going outside.
Do you expect to be married in the next two years?
I hope to never get married ever, so there's your answer.
What’s your current boy situation right now?
Say what?
Do you hate the last guy you had a thing with?
A thing with???
What’s your relationship with the person you last texted?
Let's see.... The last person I texted was K, and my relationship with her is.... Well, she's a friend.
Do you think that you’re a good person?
No, I doing.
Have a best friend?
I guess. I don't know..... My friendship with everyone is kind of complicated and messed up.
Have you had more than 3 boyfriends at the same time?
No. I didn't even have one.
Do you have any plans for the weekend?
Seeing as it's nearly over, I'm not sure what to answer, but no.
Are you in a good mood right now?
Quite the contrary.
What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
My birthday and Sweetener.
Do you like your hair?
No, I hate it!
What’s your most valuable memory of the first month of this year?
Actually, nothing.
Were you single for your last birthday?
Yes.
How’s your love life?
Non-existent.
Could you date someone taller than you?
Yeah, why not?
What’s the closest black thing to you?
My skirt and hair?
Are you happier now or a month ago?
Neither now, nor a month ago.
Have you kissed someone with braces?
No.
Do you ever wonder how other people see you?
Yes, but I already know how they see me.
Does anyone have feelings for you right now?
No.
Will this weekend be a good one?
It's nearly over, and it sucked. Next weekend? That will most likely suck, too.
Who’s your favourite redhead?
I don't know. Anne Shirley. Lindsay Lohan.
Does anyone disgust you?
Majority of the earth's population disgusts me!
Is there someone that you used to talk to every single day but you don’t now?
A lot of people. My brother, H and S....
When was the last time you were sunburned?
Candidly, that never happened to me.
jellybean wrote: "Dang, did you forget your password or something?"Nope. I remember the password and email, but I'm not receiving the authorization email now. Long story behind why I need it.
Technology sometimes, am I right?Hallie: “What’s a Sonic? (In the survey)” Me: “This is a major point on why you should come to America!!”
Hallie wrote: "Personal Survey Time!Stolen from Tumblr
When you were younger, did you have a swing set or a playhouse in your backyard?
No.
Is your mall nice?
Well, I don't like malls, so I don't care.
What a..."
stealing this
jellybean wrote: "Technology sometimes, am I right?Hallie: “What’s a Sonic? (In the survey)” Me: “This is a major point on why you should come to America!!”"
Yep....
I'm more than fine here! *looks up Sonic on Google* A drive-in? Another reason why I'd rather stay here!
Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Personal Survey Time!Stolen from Tumblr
When you were younger, did you have a swing set or a playhouse in your backyard?
No.
Is your mall nice?
Well, I don't like malls, so I don'..."
Stalking your journal to see your answers :)
But but, drive-ins are amazing! And their smoothies OH YEAH! I can’t believe Europe doesn’t have Sonics!
Meh. I wouldn't like being there. They might have them, but I've never seen one.
Holy crap! My school's summer fest is on my birthday! Nooo!!!
And yep, K, B and Iz are fighting :/
Personal Survey Time!
Stolen from Tumblr
Since I'm pissed and I need something to pass time with.
Have you ever received anesthesia or morphine?
Yes to anaesthesia, and no to morphine.
If you could try an illegal drug, with no negative consequences whatsoever, which one would you choose?
Just one? I'd like to try all of them.
How much have your aspirations changed since you were a kid?
Well, when I was a kid, I wanted to become a scientist, and now I want to stay away from the subject.
If you had to choose which video game to be in, which would it be?
Well, I don't really know any video games.
Between the two, would you rather live in a place where it’s only night or where it’s only day?
Night.
Is there anyone that makes your skin crawl?
This list is going to be endless.
What’s a band/artist that you enjoyed before, but no longer like anymore?
Hmmmm..... Katy Perry
What consecutive ages (13 to 14, 14 to 15, etc.) do you think you grew up the most emotionally/mentally?
I'm not sure.... I think 14 to 15.
In your eyes, when do you stop considering a person a friend?
When they stop meeting my requirements as a friend.
Do you like it when people are affectionate with you?
I guess?
Have the past few days been bad, good, or neutral?
Bad.
Are you more likely to rant or vent in real life or on Tumblr?
Tumblr, Goodreads.
If you had to be an actor/actress in a movie, what genre of the movie would you be best at?
Horror.
In your opinion, does the world make people cruel or do people make the world cruel?
The latter.
Are people more likely to tell you to tone it down or to speak up?
Both actually, but mostly speak up.
What’s the last thing that you procrastinated?
My moderator responsibilities.
Out of fire, earth, water, wind, light, and dark, which element appeals the most to you?
Water.
What’s one thing that you wish was real?
Magic! No actually something else.
Is there anything (show, comedian, etc.) that you constantly quote or make references to?
Not really.
What’s your favourite colour on a vehicle?
Black.
Do you usually have to make yourself get over someone or does it just happen naturally?
I've never had to do that.
The last pain that you experienced, was it physical or emotional?
Both.
What was one of your favourite songs as kid?
Twinkle Twinkle Little Star xD
Have you ever had the wind knocked out of you?
Uh....
When’s the last time you tried to get revenge, if ever?
One minute ago.
I know I'm am ugly, worthless, stupid girl. I don't need reminders.
On one end, my friends and fighting, and on the other, my parents are fighting.
Would me dying stop them from fighting?
But me dying will enable me be free of this shit.
Altruistic deeds don't get you anywhere.
Sorry, but I'm not enjoying this blame game.
Wanna know what I realized yesterday?If my family was going somewhere and we met with an accident or something, I'm the only one they won't treat.
Even if I met with an accident alone, I'd still not be treated.
you would if I was there and I'm sure lots of others feel the same
I feel the same way Kitty does, if I was there I would treat you first above everyone else.
Let's be pragmatic: You're not going to be there. None of you are. Besides, I'd actually prefer if you treated them first.
12 year old Hallie's 'I'll never use swear words like that aloud' resolution will soon be shattered.
it's personal
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The thing is people rarely want to stay depressed. It's awful. So they want to come out of it, too. That's why they need support and understanding about depression, not sympathy because of the same. They want to be taken seriously due to the fact, but if they are taken seriously in general (in all aspects they hope to), there are lesser reasons to be depressed. So I don't think anyone is solely dependent on it.
That said, I personally will not entertain depression being taken lightly on this journal, so while you are welcome to discuss any other subject, this will be the end of it. This probably seems like a chance for me to claim victory by not giving you a chance to defend your own point, but it's my journal and I candidly have no energy for this.