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He nodded "its alright, you don't have too tell me." He murmured.
Sh nodde and huddled in the corner closing her eyes
He watched her concerned
She cried silently no makingAny sound
He wanted to comfort her but didn't know how.
She stayed there for the longest time before pulling herself together
He pulled her into his arms.
Wage laid he head in his chest,"remember she I told you mark rsped me when we were in the school nursery and I needed his file?"
His eyes widened and he looked down at her "what?"
"Twins.....it was a closed adoption but I know one of them Is in Texas...I don't know about my other baby..."he mummerd
"oh... Jade I'm so sorry." He held her close.
She hugged him,"I barely looked pregnant and my dad or anyone ekes ever found out when I wore baddy clothes so it wasn't the worst thing...I had to give them away
"did you want to?" He murmured.
She not her lip shaking he thread,"for a little bit I thought I did, I could never provide for them and the families I found really wanted them but thn I saw them, I breast fr them m. They were so small and beautiful and of I could have taken it back i would've
"do... Do you want to see then?" He asked gently.
She closed her eyes,"it was a closed adoption. The families are really rich, I wanted them to have everything I couldn't give them but they also have there parents that wound let me near them.."
He frowned "what? But that's... Jade I'm so sorry."
"It's not your fault, they'd be confused of a stranger anyway...they were born anorexic and the parents kept me around to breast fees them till they gained weight.'they were the smallest,Prettiest things you have
Every seen."she said softly,"they were do inn lent and a they cared about getting food and me cleaning there
Diaper"
He sighed "i wish i could have seen them. Did you name them?"
She shook her head,"the couples did, voilet and Emma. I wish I could show then to you..."
"its alright." He kissed her head "maybe in a few years you'll marry someone and get all that back " he murmured.
She shook her head,"I will always have twins out there that I don't know what happened to, no one can change that"
"I miss them"she mummerd Closing her eyes,"it's why I didn't want to go to theme as...if I saw my baby girl I would want to talk to her...I can't do that. I should feel anything for them they don't even know I exist
"they're only babies sweety. They don't know anything." He murmured gently.
"Almlst pne now"she told him,"I'm not sure how they look,Identical ofcurse but I really want to, they'd be. Calling those couples mama and dads by now, that place would be there girl me and they probably had whatever They needed
"wait... Were they separated?"
She nodded,"I wanted them together but both of them only wanted one child as there own and I couldn't objec much or they'd go to someone else and I needed them to take mine just as much as they needed me to feed there kids"
He sighed "so they'll never know they have a sister."
She nodded,"unless of purse they see each other. That's the only way they'd know they're adopted
He nodded "maybe that will happen someday." He smiled "then they'll come and find you."
L"yea right"she scoffed,@theyd hate me
"no they wouldn't." He frowned.
"I separated them then gave them away. Who loves a parent like that?"
"you didn't really have a choice. You're still so young, jade."
"Don't make me any less of a whore"she replied
He glared at her "you are not a whore!"
"Yea I am, it's one of the reasons I hope they never find out they're adopted. I love through being called that by everyone but I would never want my kids to think that "
"he raped you, that doesn't make you a whore!"
"It does to everyone ekes so it actually does
He sighed "jade, you are not a whore. Forget about everyone else."
She refused to answer,"I don't know where Emma is but voilet is in Texas"she said quietly
He nodded "i know..."
"If I see voilet I'll want to talk to her...I can't do that, it's why it's a close adoption I can't try to see them again
"but eventually they will find out they were adopted and try to find you." He murmured, kissing her head.
"And hate me for giving them up. By the time they're old enough we will have kids and what am I suppose to tell them!?!"tears slipped out of her eyes not realizing she had just told him she wanted babies with him
He held her close, noticing what she had said but didn't comment "alright, alright. I'm sorry." He kissed her forehead "just tel them you didn't have a real choice."
She looked away,"I..I just..I..."she shook her hrs unable to speak