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“The thing about hearts is that they always want to keep beating”
― Elizabeth Scott, Living Dead Girl

“I do not fall. I fell so hard so long ago there is nothing left for me to land on. I just
keep falling and falling and falling.”
― Elizabeth Scott, Living Dead Girl

“The men were afraid she could no longer do her job. They were afraid that she'd never been able to do her job. That every mistake she'd ever made was because she was a girl, and not because she was human.”
― Claire Eliza Bartlett, We Rule the Night

“I thought living dead girls couldn't feel pain, thought I was emptied out but I'm not, I'm not.”
― Elizabeth Scott, Living Dead Girl

“I have been smashed and put back together so many times nothing works right. Nothing is where it should be, heavy thumping in my shoulder where my heart now beats.”
― Elizabeth Scott, Living Dead Girl

“Ray has never come out and said it, but I know from years of listening to him dream that his mother did to him what he does to me.

Held him down, rubbed him raw, broke him open. In them, he cries and begs her not to touch him, that he doesn't want to go inside her, that he is a good boy, he really is.

I let Ray have his nightmares, watch him thrash and listen to his voice squeak with fear. I lie there and watch him and wish he was trapped back there, with her and had never broken free.”
― Elizabeth Scott, Living Dead Girl

“I want him to take her tomorrow. I want that little girl here now, where I am. I want her to be Ray's love, to bear it. I don't care that TV and the preacher at church say that children are treasures or little miracles or special.

They are flesh and blood like the shell around me, a thing waiting to be molded by someone's will, and Ray wants that job. I don't care if he takes it. If he takes everyone and everything, every child from every place. I just want him to leave me.”
― Elizabeth Scott, Living Dead Girl

“Once upon a time, there was a girl. She lived at 623 Daisy Lane. Her parents were named Helen and Glenn and she had a room with blue walls.

She had a computer and a desk and nail polish that she could wear to school. She would put on eye shadow in the school bathroom with her friends. Blue to match her eyes.

She was almost ten. And right before her birthday, she got sick and had to stay home and missed the big trip to see the aquarium, but her friends said it sucked and there weren't any dolphins and her parents said she never ever had to go there.

She had her party and ate cake and ice cream and then... and then...

And then that's where the story ended. Even then, in the beginning, when I tried to pretend, I couldn't.

Nothing waited for that girl after she missed her trip. Nothing I could see past her room and her parents and they didn't fade, never faded, but froze, never moving.

What had been became what was and a story only works when you know the ending. When the people in it don't seem like pretend. When you can think about that girl and how she was once upon a time, and see her.

When you don't already know the story is a lie.”
― Elizabeth Scott, Living Dead Girl

“No one ever found out what was happening inside me. How the pain was eating me away. No one ever came to my rescue, or stood up for me.”
― Julie Anne Peters, By the Time You Read This, I'll Be Dead

“Sometimes, at the end of everything, the only option you have is to make it worse.”
― Alison Rumfitt, Tell Me I'm Worthless

“And the world comes crashing down around them. Maybe they'll be okay. Do you think they'll be okay, in the end? I think they will be. I have to think they will be.”
― Alison Rumfitt, Tell Me I’m Worthless

“Every spot on the planet has something in its past that is worth haunting about.”
― Alison Rumfitt, Tell Me I’m Worthless

“I don’t really allow myself to get close to people on an emotional level because my insides are all riddled with maggots, which is very frightening for people to see, especially up close, especially when they are, you know, inside you, in more ways than one.”
― Alison Rumfitt, Tell Me I'm Worthless

“Fascism, like desire, is scattered everywhere, in separate bits and pieces, within the whole social realm; it crystallizes in one place or another, depending on the relationships of force. It can be said of fascism that it is all-powerful and, at the same time, ridiculously weak.”
― Alison Rumfitt, Tell Me I'm Worthless

“I have to know that there are people who would understand if I talked to them. I have to know. I have to believe that my trauma is relatable, if controversial, that there are people who would listen to me and go, it’s okay Alice, it’s completely okay. You are so fucking normal. Everything you’ve experienced is normal.”
― Alison Rumfitt, Tell Me I'm Worthless

“I turn to my right, to see a window. Outside, the world is a great white expanse. I climb up, clumsily, onto the window ledge. I peer up out and see that above me, the tower stretches up still further, but I can see its point. And below me, I can see the ground. I can see a garden of beautiful flowers. If I jump, my body will fall into that garden and decay. I will be eaten apart by worms and little insects. I will be fertiliser.”
― Alison Rumfitt, Tell Me I’m Worthless