“October end.

time and time again
people have continuously
let me down
i have often been subjected
to some sort of emotional
mistreatment or punishment
due to the selfishness
of others
and yet i find myself
pushing the limits
going above and beyond
for the people
who don't love themselves
enough
to appreciate me

my heart is damaged
in a way that i can't describe
with words and any feeling
i've had is gone like silence

in the night
i'm numb
eager to feel more
of nothing
eager to forget
those who have
forgotten about me
this life is painful
my life

nothing hurts more
than doing so much for people
who make you feel
like what you do isn't enough”