If Only I Had Told Her
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We have to go back in time and fix this,
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Time travel is not an option.
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need to tell Finn that he can break up with Sylvie over the phone. That’s the solution. But it’s already done. He’s gone.
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Death is so final. Over. Done. Finn.
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was frozen, staring at everything and nothing,
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like I’m drowning.
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There’s no medicine for this pain.
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I won’t be able to tell Finn that he was right about Alexis.
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Is she in love with him too, or is she an honest-to-God sociopath?
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He’s dead now. Finn’s dead. But he can’t be.
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Finn is never coming home again.
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He won’t get to be with Autumn.
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The thing is I’ve always hated Autumn.
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I’ve always understood why Finn was so into her.
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He was so certain that she loved him. And he’s dead now.
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I wish Finn was able to feel something, anything.
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How everyone loved him.
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“It’s going to be like that for a while, okay?
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This is too horrible to take in all at once. Do you understand?”
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Finn had been declared dead on the scene.
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would give anything in the world for another run, another sniff of sweaty Finn.
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I wonder why Autumn can’t be alone.
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I get the answer when I see her.
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I guess I don’t have any lingering doubts about Autumn’s feelings for Finn. Her face is so swollen from crying t...
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“I was asking about Sylvie.”
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She says her name
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“Autumn, Jack, I love you both so much, but if I see your faces right now, I’ll cry. I have to go. I have to go. I have to go…”
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Not like Autumn and I knew Finn.
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I don’t know if she loved Finn anywhere close to as much as he loved her, but she loved him. I believe it now.
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Autumn, he’s been in love with you for as long as I’ve known him.”
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“Like, fairy-tale love?
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“You were the biggest, most impossible dream for him.”
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“Finn loved you,”
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“He was coming back to you. You can be certain of that.”
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Finn Smith in a morgue.
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The body that is Finn and not Finn, because Finn is gone.
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“You were a good friend to him.”
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“I was trying to make it not real by not believing it, and screaming worked…for a while.”
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“Autumn will be okay, and so will you. We all will be.”
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“Life can be and often is fiercely cruel,” she continues.
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I can’t see myself, but I don’t make choices or feel any emotions. Everything I do is automatic and remote.
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wish I could tell Finn how seeing the foosball table makes me want to fall to my knees and sob, because he would think it was funny and make a joke about the times he kicked my ass on it.
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Nothing feels as it should.
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Finn is dead.
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My sense of detachment is gone, replaced entirely by a quiet horror. I’ve hung out with Finn and Sylvie so many times in this underground room. Is that the source of this new yet familiar feeling?
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“Sylvie could see he was dead when she came to.”
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It’s still the day of Finn’s death.
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“Sylvie told me that when she saw his face, she wished she had died too.”
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It seems so obvious now; it matters which people you spend time with, and it matters how you spend your time, because you don’t know how much you have.
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Everyone they love will die too, and no one can stop it.
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