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“Is there going to be arguing like this the entire six hours?” CJ asks, shifting into reverse. “Because if I’m asked to pick sides, I’m with little bro. Every time.” “What.” I place my hand on the dash and lean forward as we back up to turn around. “You’re not siding with me on anything? I just got out of the hospital, dick.” “Sorry, Jake.” CJ shrugs, not looking the least bit sorry. “He’s nicer than you are. And last I checked, you’ve never made me a scarf.”
“It’s not goodbye though,” he says, keeping his voice quiet so we can at least pretend it’s just the two of us in this conversation. “We’re never saying goodbye. This is just… this is I’ll see you soon. Because you will. You’ll see me on the first visit day and every one after that. And then every chance I get to see you, I will. I’ll drive to you, and hey, I can do that since my boyfriend is letting me borrow his car until he comes back. I’ll visit whenever you want me to, Jake.”
Aww
“I’d drive six hours one way just to spend an hour with you.”
Awwww
He shuts his mouth and stares at my phone screen when I show him my own Drive pulled up, and the only folder I’ve created so far. With his name. “Do you think I’d risk losing any of those selfies you’ve sent me?” I ask. “I always back up my shit. Well. The important shit, anyway.” “We both do.” “Looks like it.” “See. This is why we’re fucking soulmates, Jake. And best friends.”
Aw
“Tell me you love me,” he says. “I love you.” It feels like the easiest thing I’ve ever said.
“I love you,” I say, holding his face now, our foreheads touching. “I love you too.” I wipe his tears away with my thumbs. “I’ll call every chance I get,” I say. “And I’ll visit you all the time,” he promises. “Keep going to meetings. And talk to Dean and my brother if you’re feeling like… just please stay alive. Okay?” My voice breaks. “You have to, Felix. Please.” “I will.” He sniffles and catches a few of my tears. “Four years, Jake.” “Four years.” “I’ll see you later, right?” I kiss him once more, savoring him and this. Then I pull back and tell him, “I’ll see you later.”
Aw :(
I asked you to marry me and you said no because you wanted to ask me (or some cute shit like that) and we’re married now. We’re happy and we fuck CONSTANTLY. You enjoy taking it up the ass almost as much as I do :)
Aww hahaha
Oh, and we have kids. Charlie and Cassie. Remember them? You’re a firefighter now. And you love it. You’re happy.
Our tragedy was really great, wasn’t it? Tell my big bro I’ll miss him. Riley too. I’m sorry I couldn’t be as strong as you are. Please beat this. Do it for me. I’ll be really fucking pissed if you don’t. I love you (forever) Felix
No way
“I really fucking hate you right now,” I say, wiping at my face. Then I look over at Felix as he steps around one of the graves, and he freezes after hearing me. “What? Why do you hate me?” “I can’t believe you let me read this.”
OMG
“It was awful to write. Especially since you were gone and I couldn’t see you after I wrote it. I can’t imagine reading something like that from you. But I guess it was a good exercise. Really made me think about everything I’d be losing or missing out on. You know?”
Omggg i thought
“And I saw my dad’s grave.” He rolls his eyes. “Beloved husband and father. Can you believe that shit?” “Did you piss on it? I would’ve.”
Same
Felix’s smile is slow and shy. “You love me how I’ve always wanted to be loved. You make up for all those years, Jake.” He kisses me. “And I’d still say yes. Just saying.”
“I’m not proposing to you in a cemetery.” “Technically, we’re in the parking lot surrounding the cemetery.” “It’s still fucking creepy.” “Creepy or romantic.” “Creepy.” “Or—
Hahahaha
Dunks. Short for dunking. Companion to the word donut. As in dunking a donut. Yep. We have a St. Bernard named ‘Donut.’ One guess who chose the name.
Lol
The fire station I am now employed at.
Yayyy
I stayed in Tennessee for a year after I completed rehab. That was the hardest year of my life.
Damn
Today, I am eight hundred and twenty-seven days sober. My name is Jake Tully and I’m an addict. And I’ll always be an addict. I’ll never beat this. But I’ll keep going to meetings, and I’ll talk to my sponsor (who I’m going to ask to marry me), and I’ll fight this until I win. We are going to win.
Awwww yayyyy
Six Hundred And Thirty-Three Days Later (Four Years Total) Dear Reader, We did it :) Jake + Felix Tully <3
YESS
