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Jahquel J.
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August 4 - August 5, 2025
I was jealous. He had been giving me the third degree about everything in my life, and within seconds this woman had gotten him to smile and joke with her, and now he was being secretive about who she was.
“Why didn’t you tell me that you were getting released? I could have gotten everything ready for you… I am your girlfriend.” He shrugged. “They were already on top of it. What the fuck you want me to do? Burn the clothes and have you rebuy everything?” “That’s a thought.” I folded my arms.
I couldn’t shake that there was something off between me and Capp. We spent a long time apart, so it was normal for things to feel different. This didn’t feel different though, it felt like something was off between us. Clearly, it was only with me because when he was on the phone with Alaia, he seemed fine.
I felt so low when he spoke to me like I was some random chick that called him. It was his tone when he said my name. I carried his ass for nine months and fucking tore because he was a big ass baby. “I don’t give a shit if you’re in the middle of something. I’m your mother and I’m calling to talk to you.” Capella laughed. “Kendra, I’ll hit you back.”
I never had a life or friends because Zayne kept me in the house. As much as I wanted to be friends with his other wives, they all hated me for whatever reason. I mean, I didn’t want to be his wife so I figured we could have each other’s backs. Except, none of them liked me or tried to get to know me.
Capp was a big guy and towered over most people. Not only was he tall, but he was muscular, too, nice, and thick. I could tell from his shoe size that the man was more than blessed between his legs. I could probably fit both of my feet inside of his shoe and still have room. His tattoos covered up his body like a second skin.
Capp was a big guy and towered over most people. Not only was he tall, but he was muscular, too, nice, and thick. I could tell from his shoe size that the man was more than blessed between his legs. I could probably fit both of my feet inside of his shoe and still have room. His tattoos covered up his body like a second skin.
“I told you that you didn’t have to come all the way over here.” He helped me stand up, dropping a soft kiss on my head. I don’t know why that small gesture made me feel so whole. I’ve never had this feeling in my entire life and within five seconds he had made me feel that way.
I stared at him and noticed the love bites on his neck and felt jealous. Why in the world would I even get jealous when he wasn’t my man, and I was sure he was just being nice by helping me. I was thinking too much into the little comments he made. He was joking with me.
“Then why you crying silently. I don’t like that shit, Joy.” “Joy?” Each time a tear slid down my face, he reached up and wiped it away. “Your name means joyful and happiness.” “That’s funny because I’ve never felt those emotions in my life. How do you know what my name means? I don’t even know what my name means.” “You will.”
“Here’s your grits, hun. Your food will be out shortly.” She turned toward Capp. “Hun, are you sure there’s nothing that I can get you… it’s on the house.” She winked. I don’t know why the hell she did that because I could see how irritated he had become. She was insinuating that he wasn’t eating because he couldn’t afford both our meals when he just explained why he wasn’t eating.
People often thought Ramadan was about us Muslims fasting from food. You fasted from all different things, sex being one of them. It was the time for us to grow spiritually and become closer to Allah. As much as I was shoved into this religion, I had fell in love with certain aspects of it.
“Would you want your wife to wear one?” He messed in his beard. “I would want my future wife to do whatever she was comfortable with doing. The only thing I require is for her to dress modest.”
I hadn’t spoken to my mother or brother in years. He made money off the backs of innocent women and girls and put that money on her books. She wasn’t a fool to his dealings and encouraged them when I still lived in Yaya’s house. I’m sure he probably went to visit her, and they spoke about how they would sell me off, and then split the money. My mother, if I could call her that, was never a parent to me.
Cappadonna reached for my hands and put them into his as he rubbed my hand with his thumb. “When my sister-in-law introduced you to me, I remembered your name. I had one of the guards look up your name. Next day during chow, he told me what your name meant… sounds crazy as shit, but I couldn’t forget you from that day. No bullshit either.” “Why though?” “When I looked into your eyes, I saw how lost you were. How in pain you were, and I didn’t even know your story. I still don’t know your story, but something is telling me that when I learn it, that I’m going to want to paint the city red.”
Capone always joked that I had this weird thing with people. I could always read somebody within five minutes of meeting them. I knew if you were full of shit, or you were solid. When I met Alaia, I felt pain in my chest that I had never experienced before. I’ve had my share of pain, yet the pain I felt when I stared into her eyes was a different kind of pain. One that I had never experienced. Her eyes told a story that I knew would make me want to turn the country upside down. It was crazy that her name literally meant joyful and happiness, and that wasn’t the first emotion I experienced from
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She turned her ass around and made her way up the steps, stopping between each landing. Meanwhile, I had made four trips, and I was done before she finally made it up the stairs. This apartment building wasn’t good for a pregnant woman. It made me mad thinking of her carrying all those laundry bags down by herself.
There were no pictures anywhere around the apartment. This could have been anyone’s apartment, and I wouldn’t have known because there was no personalization anywhere. Pictures, art, or even fridge art.
“Hey Taz… um, the electricity is off.” She nervously fiddled with the end of her hijab, while focusing on a permanent stain on the linoleum floors. “What the fuck do you want me to do about it? Maybe you should have thought about that before you brought some random nigga to my crib that I’m now paying for.”
“I’m sorry, Taz… oh now you sorry,” he mocked her. “I’ll be back to the city in a few days… I’ll handle it then. You need to be packing because you moving into my crib anyway. Maybe some time in the dark will make you realize your priorities and this family… and Zayne bragged that you were the easy wife.” His little ass had the nerve to scoff.
I’ve never prayed so hard for something in my life. I was praying that this nigga decided to pop up here and puff his chest out. I wanted to pick him up by the neck and slam his ass into the fucking fridge until he was in the freezer without me even having to open the doors.
“Look me in my eyes when I’m talking to you… give me that respect, and I promise you’ll never want for nothing.”