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“Bitch got better luck getting Ronald McDonald to try a fucking Whopper.”
It was Tasha’s fault that her son was dead, and she knew it. I was used to seeing Tasha always dressed well with makeup and her hair done. The Tasha I had seen the other day was a shell of her old self. She looked tired and worn. Grief would do that shit to you. Guilt did, too.
Jaiden’s birthday was coming up and he was turning seventeen. I could tell he was depressed because his life had changed so much. He went from having basketball as an outlet and he didn’t have that anymore. No matter how much I tried to take him out back and shoot hoops on the basketball court, he never wanted to do it.
I don’t know what I would do without Jo. She had been here for every step of the way, and I loved her for it. I probably would have had a mental breakdown without her. Between her and Capone, they kept me sane and had my back.
her found family 🥹
My body was frozen as he reached his hand around the glass and stroked my cheek. “Tell him it was way too easy for me to touch what is his… Make sure you tell him Blaze spared you… this time.”
NOW is the time to quit that fucking job
I saw my supervisor watching us from the office and decided it was time for me to clock out - for good. There was no way that Capone was ever going to let me get on another bus.
you damn skippy
I needed this more than anything right now. Being in bed with Jaiden was exactly what I needed. “I miss her,” Jaiden broke our silence.
my poor baby
I walked into my warehouse in Canarsie with the devil in my spirit. I was closer with the big man upstairs, but he needed to close his eyes for the shit I was about to do.
we bout to kill some niggas
Niggas thought they could touch my fucking baby? They had me fucked up and because I had been on some calm shit, they must have forgot who the fuck I was.
AND WILL
“She’s the one?” “For real. I love her, Capp.” “I can tell with the way you look at her. You ain’t never looked at Ella like that and she gave you two kids.”
he loves himself some erin baby
I looked over at Erin at the machine. She was talking to a woman wearing a hijab. They were laughing so I turned my attention back to my brother.
who’s the mystery girl?
“Um, hey. You left your lip balm over by the machines,” the woman Erin was talking to came over to us. Erin looked up from her Cinnabon she was eating. “Oh, thank you. This is my favorite one, too.” Erin took the lip balm and looked at both me and Capp. “This Alaia.
she seems like sweetheart—i hope to see you again alaia
Capp followed her movement through the visitation room before I snapped my fingers in his face. “You straight.” “Yeah.”
ooop he likes what he sees
she keeps talking about what she saw on animal planet LAHSSKSJJE
“Yeah, she perfect for you.” “I’m already knowing. I want to pop the question.” I hadn’t told anybody that I was ready to ask her to marry me.
MARRIED?! erin done hit the jackpot!
“When you know you know. I know I want her to be Mrs. Delgato, Capp.”
MRS. ERIN DELGATO 🤏🏽🤏🏽🤏🏽🤏🏽
The bell sounded letting us know the visit was over. I stood up and dapped my brother while he came around to hug Erin. He kissed the top of her head, as he did with my mother and Capri. It was his way of welcoming her into the family.
capp loves erin already 🥹🥹🥹
CHAPTER 13 ELLA
*huffs* YOU AGAIN
I pressed the call button to allow me access into Capone’s house. Every time I had to press this call button it pissed me off to no end. There was no reason I should have had to press it. I was his child’s mother.
child’s mother or not you still need to respect other people’s boundaries
She was beautiful and every time I saw her, besides the day we first met, her hair was always laid. “Hey Ella, come in.”
mmhmm can’t never call my bitch ugly
I just knew he was giving her some good dick. Better dick than he had ever given me. When a man was in love, the dick he gave you was out of this world. As much as I hated to admit it, Capone was never in love with me, and it hurt.
boo hoo
“How was the flight in?” “It was good. Naheim surprised me, I didn’t know we were even coming here.” “My boy is a good man,” she smiled.
if only you knew
The small windows we had to spend time wasn’t enough for me to recognize all the changes my husband had gone through. I felt neglected and crazy because I knew there was someone else.
“Now that you are done with law school you can give your husband some babies.” She flipped whatever she was cooking on the stove.
TUB we don’t know bout all that
I didn’t want to end up a single mother, and I damn sure didn’t want to be like Ella’s ass. She was a great mother and all, but I saw how sad she was being a single mom. She was so stuck on my brother that her ass was damn near standing outside the house with her nose pressed against the window looking in.
literally 😂😂😂
Erin came downstairs, hugging my parents. “Good morning, Mr. and Mrs. Delgato.” My mother paused before hugging her. “We spoke of this. Mommy,” she corrected Erin right away. “Good morning, Mommy,” she smiled and took a seat beside me.
she is so loved by the family UGH I LOVE IT
“The smell of those eggs… they just made me feel dizzy.” “Or nauseous?” My mother turned around with her hand on her hip, and I looked over at Erin. “You pregnant?” I whispered.
BABY DELGATO ON THE WAY
Capone looked over toward me. I could never lie to my brothers because they were like blood hounds that could sniff out a lie. “The eggs made her nauseous,” I blurted.
she can’t hold water for shit 😭😂😂
yeah.yeah: my bed still smells like you.
SKDHSJSDJSJ who is this sneaky link omg!?!?
Naheim sat his plate down and pulled me into his lap. “I love you, Mrs. Browne.” “I love you, too.” I smiled, feeling guilty. I should have used my words instead of getting wrapped into what I had gotten myself into. In my defense, it wasn’t like I went looking for something. It just kind of fell into my lap, or maybe it was I kind of fell into his lap and kept riding it.
nah sis an eye for an eye
I bent down and kissed her ear. “That pussy juicier… I know I planted my seed in you.”
whew chile
Since Blaze wanted to prove that he could touch Erin whenever he wanted to, I showed him that I could touch and kill his people because I was that nigga. Bet his ass wish he didn’t come on that bus and approach my baby.
I held her chin. “You know you my heart, right?” “Yes.” “That means this baby was made in love. Nothing changes between us, okay?” “Okay.” She smiled.
the reassurance >>>
It wasn’t healthy how much I loved this woman. There wasn’t anything that I wouldn’t do for her, including taking a life.
The message bubble had turned green when I sent a text to Tasha asking if she needed more money.
WHY THE FUCK—i’m done
I called the number real quick and it said the number was no longer in service. I felt a mix of relief and then sadness. Relief because that meant I didn’t have her over my head anymore. I could focus on my marriage and right the wrongs that I had done.
thats if she even wants to stay married to you after she finds out what you did
It was time for me to come clean to her before our anniversary tomorrow. I wanted to start over on a clean slate. Everything in the past was over with and we could focus on our future together.
perfect timing 🙄
“What do you mean, Capri?” She cut into her salmon and took a bite, closing her eyes to savor the flavor. “Nothing.” “Stand on your shit,” I encouraged. If we were gonna have the marriage, then the hard conversations came with that shit, too.
oh you should be the last person talking about standing on business
“People always talk about how men talk a good game when they on the inside. They promise you the stars and the moon, then they get out and it’s the complete opposite. I never believed it because of you. You were different from the other men in there. Except, you got home, and you did change. You weren’t the same Naheim I fell in love with.”
capri baby 🥺
She slowly brought her gaze toward mine and I could see how broken she was. How tired she had become of my distance and unfaithfulness. Despite being as careful as I have always been, Capri knew. I sat and gaslit her when she asked me about the other women I was fucking. I wished Tasha was the only person I could say I fucked. There had been others.
OTHERS?!? oh fuck off naheim
“Were you fucking other bitches behind my back?” “Yeah.” Capri gulped, not expecting my response. She bit back her emotion as she stared at me with daggers in her eyes. Her hand wandered over the knife and then she put it in her lap. “Why?” “It was stupid reasons, Muffin. I felt like I wasn’t good enough for you, and I had too much freedom too quickly.”
pathetic just pathetic!
I don’t know why I reached across the table and tried to touch her, because she snatched her hand back so fast like I was on fire. “Capri, come on.” “You bring me to my favorite place on earth the day before our anniversary to tell me you fucked other bitches.”
thats beyond fucked up cause he had plenty of opportunities to tell capri what he’s been up to while possibly working it out. THE GASLIGHTING??? fuck him
“You miss the chick that would give up everything she had going on to drive six hours to see you almost every weekend. You miss the woman that made everything about you when you got home. You miss that woman, Naheim. It was cool talking to me about school, my dreams, and aspirations, but it was another thing to get out and witness that it wasn’t just talk to me.” She was right. It was easy to fuck around with bitches that didn’t have shit going for themselves. Bitches who thought you were the main character, the nigga that had money. Capri intimidated me.
IT’S NOT OUR FAULT YOU HAVE A SHITTY EGO
All I had to do was open my mouth and tell my wife how I was feeling. Instead, I took to fucking bitches because that was what made me feel like I was the man.
insecure ass
I didn’t know where this left me and Capri. What I did know is that I wanted my marriage, and I was willing to do whatever to make sure we fixed this.
ain’t no working shit out
My favorite thing was to listen to the sound of his heartbeat. I used it as my personal sound machine whenever I fell asleep on him. I could smell the rum on his beard as I snuggled up closer to him. We spent the day on the beach talking about everything. After the shock of ten positive pregnancy tests, we needed to talk about our future. I knew I wanted to be with Capone, I was just scared.
SHE’S PREGGO OMGGGGG
It didn’t take a genius to figure out what had gone wrong. I slapped Naheim in the back of the head, and he jumped. “The fuck, Erin?” “I just know what she’s about to tell me isn’t good.”
EXACTLT THANK YOU ERIN! HIT HIM AGAIN
“I knew he was fucking around on me, and I chose to ignore it.” She scoffed. “A month after we got married, I found a piece to a condom wrapper in his pants. We usually send the laundry out to get done, but me trying to be the wife, I decided to do the laundry. What do I find? A fucking piece to a condom wrapper. You would have thought I would have run. Nope, I stayed because I was giving him a chance to get out his zoomies. He spent years in prison, you know.”
capri don’t try to find any leeway for him. it don’t matter how long he was locked up, he should’ve remained loyal to you
I could tell she was so broken. She trusted Naheim to do right by her and he fucked her over. He broke their vows and her heart in the process. I wanted to kick my foot in his ass and twist it, that was how mad he had me.
shit do it
“How can I be so mad at him when I'm sleeping with someone else, too.” I removed my hand from her and looked at her shocked. “Bitch, what?” “And the fucked up part is I think I may be in love with him.” I stood up and started pacing around the pool.
not capri being in love with her lil yeah yeah SKDHSKSJSJDJ
