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“I only got one fucking seed… stop fucking playing with me!” I barked. She crawled over toward where I was standing and held onto my leg. “C…Capone… I swear... that night. He’s yours,” she stammered. “Don’t take my baby away from me, please.”
nah bitch an eye for an eye—your son literally tried to kilo someone else and NOW you thought it was a good idea to tell capone—with a gun to your son’s mouth—that timmy is his son?
My heart was beating a million miles per second, fucking scared that I would have to tell my baby that her brother died while with me.
lord i hope he doesn’t die
“They so heavy, Capo… let me take a nap real quick,” he coughed and my chest tightened.
no baby keep them eyes open 😭
Jaiden had managed to stay awake the entire ride to the hospital so that was a good sign, right?
i’m taking that as a small victory
The phone rang for a bit before she answered. “Jaiden, you better be dying to call me when you know I work tonight,” she answered groggily.
we’ll see about that…
“Baby, I need you to be strong for me right now… ight.” I held her shaking hand as I looked away before staring her in the eyes. “Jaiden and Joie got shot on the blo—” “No, Capone… you’re lying to me,” her voice was shaky as she looked me in the eyes, praying that I was playing a cruel trick on her.
erin 😢😢😢
I was a secure nigga and knew what I brought to the table, but seeing my baby seeking comfort from my brother-in-law hit a nerve that I didn’t know existed.
as much as i hate naheim this is not a time for a bravado contest
I was in a fucked up position because Erin would want to tell the police. It wouldn’t be too long before they came sniffing around wanting to know what was going on and who was involved. She walked over toward me and grabbed my arms.
because if timmy is really his kid he’s gonna want to either surrender him or take him out himself
If the moment hadn’t been so high stressed, I would have smirked because she fell in line. Erin was used to running shit and didn’t know how to allow someone to lead. She was going to let me figure this out and find the solution.
she tightened the fuck up 😂
“Tasha told me that Timmy is my son.” All the color drained from Naheim’s face when the words left my mouth. “You fucked Tasha?”
oh days the nigga that was getting brain from her not too long ago shut the fuck up!
Trilla had to be behind this and knowing that Jaiden was running with Timmy, he had gotten involved. Even with me not watching for Timmy often, I could always spot when a boy was ready for this life and wasn’t about this life. Timmy and Jaiden both weren’t about this life. While Jaiden realized that shit early on, Timmy had no choice but to pretend to be about this life. His mother was pushing his ass into it.
both trilla and tasha are about to put that boy in a early grave
Erin and her family were like family to me, and I always looked out for my family.
yesssssss
2007
oooo we’re getting a flash black
It was either sink or swim and a nigga was about to be Michael Phelps in this shit.
“Capone, you don’t remember me? I work for Trilla… I cook his work.” I laughed and snapped my finger. “You the young bitch that cook the best shit.” She rolled her eyes, pissed that I had called her a bitch - again. “My name is Tasha.”
oh lord tasha’s bitch ass
“You heard about me and know I would be an asset to what you’re trying to build over here.” “Yeah, well, I don’t need the beef with Trilla. You his bitch… ain’t you?” “I’m nobody’s bitch. I fuck who I like, and I happened to like Trilla at the moment. He can’t afford me, so yeah.” She shrugged, messing with the diamond tennis necklace around her neck.
that we do know from your track record
“Like you said, you’re not a case worker. Let me show you what I can do… and then you can decide if I’m worth it.” I smirked. “Bet.” Tasha shimmied out of her skirt and showed her perfectly shaven pussy.
oh so she’s like that? i mean…she gotta do what she gotta do but come on now! don’t make it that easy
Yeah. One time and then it was time to get to the money. Tasha could cook work and she had some fire ass throat. That was a deadly combination, but I had always been the type to take on a challenge. Fucking with Tasha was a sure way to elevate what I was trying to do. She wash my back and I wash hers – simple enough.
yeah not simple when she’s claiming timmy to be yours!
I felt guilty because this had been my fear all along and it had come true. Maybe it was my fault because I put it out into the universe.
nooooo baby it was not your fault
I cleared my throat. “It’s alright, M.” The respect in his eyes told me that he appreciated me not saying his name in front of them. I may have not been involved in the streets, but I was smart enough to know certain things.
she may not participate in the streets but she got street smarts
“What can I help you with?” “Hopefully you can help us figure out who hurt your brother and his girlfriend. Is your brother gang affiliated?”
why do they always assume a young black shot being gang affiliated
It was hard trusting Capone because I didn’t know what his plan was. He asked me to trust him, and I was struggling because I wanted Timmy to pay for it. I warned Jaiden about him, and he should have listened to me. I could smell the envy oozing out of Timmy’s pores every time he came around.
From their lax composure I wasn’t holding my breath that they would take this case seriously. To them, this was a regular day with a Black boy from the hood being shot. If I didn’t already know who was responsible, I had no faith that these bozos would have found him.
they don’t give a fuck about us
He has a long recovery ahead of him. He was shot three times. Twice in the leg, resulting in his femur shattering. Once in the hip.
oh my god not three times!
All Jaiden had dreamed about was going to the NBA, and now there was a chance he might not be able to ever play.
damn you timmy
“Jaiden, I’m here,” I whispered, not expecting him to be awake. His eyes popped open, and tears fell down his face when he looked me in the eyes. I wanted to be strong for him, but I couldn’t be because I started to cry. They were only letting one person in at a time, so I had to be strong for the both of us. “I’m sorry, E,” he croaked, his voice low and hoarse.
don’t cry don’t cry don’t cry
In the short time since she had been living with us, I had grown attached to her. Like a little sister I never asked for. It was clear that she meant a lot to Jaiden, so she meant a lot to me.
i knew she was gonna love joie
“Jo, please don’t tell me that she passed.” She entered the room quickly. “No, God, no. She’s out of surgery and in recovery. They have her on a ventilator and she lost the baby.”
not the baby omg she’s gonna be so crushed
The doctor says that they have her on a ventilator and in a medical induced coma. She was shot in the chest and the stomach, Erin.”
goddamn i’m sorry but fuck tasha timmy gotta go
“You have nowhere to place the blame so he’s the person.” “Why didn’t he just take him home? All he had to do was take him home, Jo,” I stressed.
you don’t think he’s already feeling guilty enough?
“Do you seriously believe Capone would put Jaiden in harm’s way? I love my nephew, I do, but whatever he was mixed in was going to find him whether Capone drove him home or he caught the bus home alone. Hold Jaiden responsible, not the man who is probably out there hunting down whoever is responsible.”
thank you auntie like erin don’t do that
“I don’t like when you do that, Gorgeous,” I jumped when I heard Capone’s somber voice behind me.
mmhmm get her ass papa!
I watched as he opened his sandwich and took a bite. His facial expression told me all I needed to know. “You don’t even like it.” “That’s why these people stay in the fucking hospital. This the shit they feeding them?” A nurse that was passing by looked offended.
LMFAOOOO HOSPITAL FOOD IS NOT IT ( certain cafeteria food at hospitals do be having good stuff though)
Capone remained quiet. “Tell me what you want, Baby?” “I want him dead… I want Tasha to experience what it feels like to lose someone. She sends her son into the world to cause damage and she still gets to have him. I could have lost Jaiden, and she will continue on like nothing happened. It’s not fair, Capone,”
like i said an eye for an eye!
I looked at him and I could see in his eyes that he was serious. All the hair on my arms stood at attention as I looked Capone in his eyes and realized what I had just asked him. It wasn’t like I was asking him to take out the trash. I asked him to kill a teenage boy, and he was going to do it because it was what I wanted.
when you gon learn that he’s gonna ride for you erin?
“You’re going to move into my crib.”
*packs bags* when we leaving?!?
The minute I slid inside of you, I fucking branded you. You mine, Gorgeous, so I’m always coming crazy behind you and yours.”
THAT’S WHAT I LIKE TO HEAR 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽
Not to mention, his baby mother came and went as she pleased. I could never get used to something like that.
yeah imma. we’d him to handle that IMMEDIATELY cause i’ll be DAMNED if she come to that threshold and start some shit
My heart hurt seeing her like this. She didn’t deserve to be in the hospital fighting for her life, and she didn’t deserve to lose her baby.
i few like she’s gonna go through a deep depression—i just pray for her mental
In a matter of minutes Jaiden could have his family here, Joie didn’t have that. Her mother was God knows where trying to make it back to her. She needed somebody here for her, so I continued to hold her hand while praying that God covered her and she pulled through.
erin is a godsend 🤍
CHAPTER 4 NAHEIM
*hard eye roll*
The day I had met Capri Delgato was the best day of my life.
TUH…okay lemme stop
Capri carried herself like nothing I had ever seen before. It was her grace that made me fall in love with her. Beyond physical appearance, it was her personality that drew me in. She had every reason to be a bitch, and act like one, but she was the sweetest person. It was her sense of humor that had me sold. A pretty girl that didn’t take herself seriously was exactly what I needed when our worlds collided.
so if my bitch was bad why you cheating on her?
It was funny because the nigga, Trilla, I was running for at the time didn’t bother to make sure me or my moms was straight. When I sent word back to the block that my moms needed help to pay her bills, that pussy acted like he didn’t know shit about me. I felt like less than a man listening to my mother cry on the phone that she was being evicted and I couldn’t do shit about it.
trilla sounds like a piece of shit
After he wrapped up his conversation, he snatched the phone from my ear and spoke to my mother. He gave her a number to call, and then told her that I would call tomorrow to make sure everything was straight.
cappadonna is a sweetheart 🥹
I was her voice of reason and the person she vented to. With her becoming a criminal defense lawyer, she was always stressed with school. All it took was for me to make a joke and I could see the stress slowly escape her body.
ugh she was a goner for that man
The day I asked Capri to marry me was the best day of my life.
Capone and Cappadonna trusted me with their little sister’s heart, and I was breaking that shit by fucking with Tasha behind her back. The shit with Tasha ate at me all the time.
SO WHY THE FU—he’s about to piss me off
She was the best thing that came out of me being locked up. When I was released, Capone met me outside the prison with Capri. They bought me a brand-new whip, had a new condo waiting for me with a bank account filled with money.
the twins are gonna be so fucking pissed when they find out what he’s been doing behind their little sister’s back
