Birdsong231☾ (pm before invs)’s Comments (group member since Dec 01, 2021)

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I have a pair of two and a half inch heels somewhere. Might I just say, I look damn fine in thick heels. ùwú I have legs that women would kill for. It's the only part of my body I am proud of. xD

Artemis wrote: "dude
women"

They are scary.
Especially the ones that can run in heels.
FEAR THEM.

So kinda like a second-in-command?

I hate how many radio ads there are about that
I just
I'm currently healing from traumatic experiences with sexual stuff
I get super uncomfortable and sometimes get flashbacks
I'm sitting here, enjoying whatever I'm doing, then one of those ads comes on and I'm just "radio, pls stop" quq

I'm not sure anyone would delete their account because they were on vacation. It doesn't make any sense to me...why would someone delete their account when they're just away for a while?? I just can't see the point to that scenario
I could just be dumb, tho... I'm not sure ;-;

I hate camping. I just...no. Just no. I'm a city girl. I need civilization. Also campfires trigger my seizures, which in turn causes massive panic attacks that don't go away until I'm done seizing, sooo... No thanks, I much prefer to stay in my humble yet disastrous and depressing abode I call my room. úwù

KFKDIHDJXHSJXJV I LOVE

Oh dear

My brain wants to say SAO, but that's probably just me.

I've pretty much gotten to that point as an HM
I don't have the mental energy to bother with enforcing my own rules in groups I've made
Indo my best to follow my own rules, but I just kinda
Completely and utterly fail
Which is why I'm scared that my reputation will break if I do anything, but I need to finish or cancel projects I've set for myself. I've drained myself by piling sooo much responsibility onto myself because of my lack of trust in co moderators. I've been let down so many times by literally everyone I've ever come across as one if my co moderators. ;-; I can't bring myself to risk more disappointment, so I do everything myself. It does not do any good for me, especially now, but that feeling doesn't change.

Goes to say how many folks disregard rules. It's sad, really.

Artemis wrote: "it was the middle of the class and just out of nowhere my body made me say venice
there was nothing even venice related going on
we were talking about like cities idk I zoned out
people stared at m..."

I do that so much that it's a normal thing
People don't question it and just kinda roll with me down into insanity

Yuuuuup
I don't even understand why they would put a person with sui--al thoughts on that antidepressant
I don't know how it's spelled but it sounds exactly like fluoxitine. I've definitely gotten better with the one I'm on now. I have no clue if I'd be rn without it. HOORAY FOR SUCCESSFUL ANTIDEPRESSANTS!!!

Birdsong231ԑ̮̑ঙ wrote: "Fictional doesn't really do much to me, unless it's super descriptive. I can prove that with my angry son, Jay, who has zero filters on swearing. xD Castor's relationship history has a fragment of ..."

Even Asura's frigged up mental state is based on my own
Like
What I feel like where I'd be now if I didn't have all the support in my life from my family and friends
I still occasionally have some curiosity it know what it feels like it kill a person, hence one of the reasons why I watch true crime and why Asura and Jay are the way they are. It became less common with me once I was taken off of an antidepressant that had a bad reputation for causing those feelings of having dark urges.

Fictional doesn't really do much to me, unless it's super descriptive. I can prove that with my angry son, Jay, who has zero filters on swearing. xD Castor's relationship history has a fragment of my own experiences. Pretty sure even all three versions of Lucien has some similarities to me.
I seem to cope with my triggers through fiction, unlike irl where I'm like
Constantly hiding from the outside world unless people practically drag me out of my room-

Wait what?

Artemis wrote: "okay uhhh my turn for a p popular song with just lyric

Achilles, Achilles, Achilles come down, won't you
Get up off
Get up off the roof?

or another popular one

I could drown myself in metaphor..."

AAAAA I LOVE ACHILLES COME DOWN!!

Birdsong231ԑ̮̑ঙ wrote: "shawn wrote: "well i think they're cool, sorry for disagreeing with you."

I just wanted to make sure, because my ex showed my a photo of a style he wanted to get, and he called it a mullet. It was..."

Mini ranting of said ex bc thinking of his personality just riles me up to no end and its the kind of irritation I cannot keep silent(view spoiler)[

He was insanely petty, too.
The gall he had to tell me that I "needed to move on from him." I was the one who broke up with him, not the other way around.
And he was such a terrible liar. And painfully obvious that he was trying to make me jealous by saying he had a girlfriend over the internet.
This bitch recites his mental health problems like it's something to be proud of. And the way he told them sounded do exaggerated that it was looking at if it was fake. And honestly? I think most of them are. Never did any if his apparent traumatic experiences add up. He was almost on the level of bragging. No victim of such things would turn sharing traumatic experiences into a bloody challenge to see "who is the most messed up." That's not how it works.
I have family and friends who have exactly the same situations you describe, down to a T.
And he acted as if he knew everything about me. How I acted, how I typed, how I felt... When I told him I was autistic, he treated me like a three year old.
He also compared me to an emoji and I'm still pissed about it.

I don't know why, but whenever I think of his irritating voice and cocky look, I want to punch him and then strive to be superior to him in every single way possible. I'm not sure if this is good, bad, or petty....

Kids, this is why we don't say yes to people asking you out 20 hours after you meet meet them. (We actually met a year before, but I completely forgot he had existed because I was a loner-) (hide spoiler)]

shawn wrote: "well i think they're cool, sorry for disagreeing with you."

I just wanted to make sure, because my ex showed my a photo of a style he wanted to get, and he called it a mullet. It was nowhere even c l o s e to what a mullet is.


Now that I think of it, besides the fact he lacked an understanding of what "consent" means, he actually irritated me 80% of the time we were together.
Very few times did I ever genuinely enjoyed his presence. Or existence, for that matter.

I'm sorry. ;-; I just don't do well in arguments/fights with sexual words. The wound hasn't healed at all yet. I know it'll take many years, but I feel like it's been five years instead of five months. ònó Birb impatient.
I don't even have a therapist. I have a counselor who works with children who have gone through trauma. I only have her because I feel mentally 17. I mean, I'm glad I have someone, but I feel like a trauma therapist (who can work with autistic people) would have been better. I like her, though.

Oh lordy... those ones scare me so much