Deep into the rewrite

This is essentially the third pass through my novel...book...whatever fancy term we should use to describe it...it is gonna come in at 80,000 words or so and I don't know what that makes it. This is the first work I have written of that length and that has been a challenge in of itself.

I wrote the first draft and then made another pass through it. This pass is being done with notes from Ghost Readers. What I am mostly worried about is flow and story structure. Then it can go to the editors and they can rip apart the grammar and language and what not.

This is the toughest write of my entire career. Length aside the path to being a happy healthy human being is hardly writing a book about an ex girlfriend...and with that being said it is a story I want to tell...mostly because of how many people in the last three years have asked me what the deal was with her.

The hardest part for me right now is tapping into feelings that simply are not there anymore. I don't think anyone wants to read a book about some chick...and for me at times it is hard to remember how much I loved her and how special she was to me...cause now she is just some chick...saying that makes me sad cause for the last three years I thought she was anything but.