Where we talk about the final straw...

I am not a big New Year's resolution guy. I am pretty sick of all those New Year new me posts on social media. I am more about learning from the mistakes I make and trying not to make them again...save those really fun mistakes...I do them over and over again lol...

I think my biggest flaw, when it comes to relationships and girls and what not is not knowing when it is time to just fucking walk away. Mostly cause I super hate to be wrong, and I don't ever wanna give up on something that I think still has some value...however you want to define value...

I mention this because as today began...I got into a text fight with someone that lead to breakup #4...which is bad in of itself but even worse considering the fact that we were never actually fucking dating. She thinks because she spent the night in the hospital with me that this gives her girlfriend status...don't get me wrong spending the night with me in the hospital is a awesome thing to do...and I very much appreciate her doing that for me...but that is a far cry from hey I wanna date you. Well maybe far from hey let's jump into a relationship.

The thing is...right now I don't want anything complicated. My life is fucking complicated enough and I don't really feel like adding to my complications. Till more of that gets sorted out I am just not up for dealing with much. Since dating almost by definition is complicated I just don't have the patience for it right now. I really don't have the patience to say that to someone over and over and fucking over again. Like fuck we can hang out...we can do stuff...but anything more than that well....just no. And that is a hard no not just for you but for your entire gender.

It is not a no because there is someone else, or that I am talking to an ex, or anything beyond the fact that I am not interested in anything making my life more fucking complicated that it already is. And yes a lot of that has to do with my kid.

This is me walking away...maybe before I should but that feels better right now than staying too long and trying to hard like I usually do. And yes maybe I will miss the little things...the little adorable way she brought me tea when I was sick...or waking up to her playing video games with my kid...and other stuff but everything costs something and right now I am not willing to pay much of a price.