Being Who I'm Supposed To Be

With my wedding less than a week away, it's hard not to reflect on the past even when it's about taking my life forward. I am very secure in the future I have with my fiancé and one aspect I greatly appreciate about him is how much he lets me be who I'm supposed to be. Not that I didn't have this in the past but I think having lost both my parents and my sister, I see now how important it is to not let life veer me off to other roads when there are goals I want to accomplish, goals I've had for a long period of my life.

Sometimes something will come up and I'll think how great it would be to do only to realize if I do it, it will take away from things that are really about who I am. The biggest one in my life is my writing. While it doesn't pay my bills at this point, it is important to who I am and has been since I was six years old. It's part of me to keep telling stories.

And while it's important to balance life experiences (to have something to write about), we also need to make time for what it is that makes us happiest, that makes us feel like who we are supposed to be. That's why I've made so much time for my writing especially over the past two years. After the wedding and honeymoon are over, I also have vowed to myself to spend more time painting and working other art projects. While I have done a better job of that, I know there are places in my life where I could give up time that would be better spent painting (looking at my phone is one of them).

I see marrying Greg Saturday as us taking a new road together, one where we are helping each other be who we're supposed to be and from that day forward I'm vowing to be true to myself, to be not just the person I've always wanted to be but in knowing that I'm the person my sister and my parents always supported me to be.