Walking The Line: A Bit on Depression

 

This post is probably going to get a little personal. No, that’s not true, it’s going to get very personal and as a rule, aside from posting pictures and things like that, I try to keep my personal life on the down low.

Ok. Here goes…

Like many others out there, I have fought depression since I was a teenager, maybe even before that. I don’t take anything for it, I never have and probably never will. I fight this demon with the strength I have inside, daylight, fresh air, exercise and all kinds of other little tactics that are supposed to make you feel better.

I’m not posting this to bring attention to this matter, but to bring attention to those who believe that depression isn’t real. That people can hit such an all time low that they truly feel there is absolutely nothing to live for.

I have five children who I would do anything for. Every time they leave the house or I leave the house without them, I worry so much about them. I want to be here with them forever. I have a great job even though we still struggle, I have a wonderful husband and a home of our own. But … I still have those days.

The bad days … when the darkness takes over and I can’t rise above it. These times are now far and few between, but they do happen.

Here is the thing. When someone you love feels they could die and you wouldn’t care. You don’t shrug and say “I don’t know”  or dismiss it in anyway whatsoever. You stand up, you take your friend or husband or wife or child into your arms and tell them. “I  LOVE YOU” Tell them you can’t live without them, tell them whatever it takes to LIFT the veil of darkness from over them and bath them in the light of love.

I don’t care if its a lie. The depression will end and they will come back stronger from it, they will realize that they do have so much compared to what some people have and they will be grateful for it. But first, the darkness of depression must be lifted.

Depression is real.

I feel that medications are not for me, but that’s just me. I have found ways to fight it on my own, but like I said, the bad days still happen. It probably doesn’t help that I’m a writer and whatever my characters are feeling, that is what I feel too, so I can be almost bi-polar at times. For a writer, emotions are a serious business.

If you love someone who suffers from depression, please, make sure you are helping them and not feeding the darkness. I know there are a lot of people out there who grow weary in dealing with their depressed loved one, having to ease them out of the dark hole every time their bad days happen. My opinion, if you can’t love them for everything they are … depression and all, then you don’t really love them and it’s time to fix it. Intuition will tell your loved one that you don’t really care and you will only make them worse in the long run.

I truly hope that opening up a little bit like this helps someone who needs it. But … I also want to say, as a last bit. For those, like me, who suffer from depression, you have to fight it. Don’t leave yourself open to the darkness. Look up natural ways to make yourself feel better. Seriously, even clean sheets and sparkling counter tops can make a difference in how you feel.

Fight

Be Strong

Love

LIVE