Insecurity Attacks

I'm not really insecure by nature.  In fact, I have a lot of self-confidence.  Alam ko kung ano yung mga weakness and strength ko.  That's why I don't do things that I know I'm not good at.  Hindi ko gagawin ang isang bagay para lang sa bandang-huli eh mapahiya ako.  But sometimes, really sometimes, insecurity just strikes.  Either on my personal life or my writing career, it just find me unaware.
Naiisip ko na lang kung bakit ganito, bakit ganyan?  Bakit parang wala namang magandang nangyayari sa 'kin?  Bakit hindi pa rin ako makaalis sa ganitong punto ng buhay?  There are just so many why's.  Lalo na sa buhay-manunulat ko.  Dumadating din ako do'n sa punto na tinatanong ko ang sarili ko kung bakit ko pa ba ginagawa 'to.  I've been a published writer for two years now pero may mga pagkakataon na hindi ko mapigilang maramdaman na parang nando'n pa rin ako sa simula.  Na wala pa ring nangyayaring pagbabago.  It's just really sad whenever I reached that point of thinking.  So whenever that happens,  I always, always, take a minute of silence and think of the other good things in my life.  And somehow, everything becomes right again.
My point is, minsan talaga hindi sumusunod ang mga bagay sa gusto nating mangyari.  Otherwise, life wouldn't be so much of a challenge.  So why dwell on things you can't control?  Just do things you want to do and live your life the way you want it to.  Para sa bandang-huli, wala kang maging pagsisisi.  Feeling insecure and bitter about things won't help you.  It will only just bring you down.  Ma-i-stress ka lang at malulungkot.  Then after that, makakaramdam ka na ng inggit.  Soon you will just feel angry.  So do what I do.  Take a minute and think of all your blessings.  Trust me, it will make you feel better.
Walang lugar sa buhay natin ang insecurity.  If we let it affect us, all those negativity will destroy us. Until we become that person we don't want to be.  So just be positive and believe that someday, everything in your life will fall into place. :)