Leaping out of Bed in the Morning

I was curled up on my couch yesterday, trying to nurse my end of weekend blues by watching the movie Julie & Julia on DVD, when a line from Julia Child’s role made me complain out loud. She was describing her days in Le Cordon Bleu and how she leapt out of bed when every morning the alarm went off at 6:30 A.M. and I was jealous. Yes, I was jealous of Julia leaping out of bed for she couldn’t wait to start her days and do something she absolutely adored and quite enjoyed. I said it out loud to my husband, I was jealous of Julia and why couldn’t I leap out of bed in the morning every morning too? 

My husband pointed out a very important fact to me, that even though Julia enjoyed cooking she was not much loved by the people of Le Cordon Blue but that didn’t stop her leaping out of bed in joy every morning and working hard at what she loves. My wise man reminded me that I too could be like Julia, take what I am lucky to have and make the most out of it until I actually do leap out of bed in the morning, eager to start my day.

I’m not sure what’s wrong with me these days, but I really cannot muster up the will to do anything. I stare at my new books, shy away from my remote control, cringe at the thought of getting out of the my door, feel a headache when a song I love comes on TV or on my iPod, and just feel sick thinking of all the interactions on social media . I’m exhausted, and emotionally drained, yet people keep asking more and more of me and I feel overstretched and just plain depleted. I hate August, its the worst time of year, and all I want to do is pack my bag and go trekking in some lovely place somewhere far away from here and do nothing but take pretty pictures and eat good food and laugh, god I miss laughing, with people I love.

I don’t know what’s wrong with me, I hope I’m not falling into a bout of depression or something. In any case, after yesterday’s teeny tiny epiphany I think I’m ready to rejoin the world. You don’t always get dealt what you want in life, it wouldn’t be fair I suppose, but you can always work to get what you want or if you cannot or until you do, you make the most of what you have, find the silver lining and all that mumbo jumbo. My blog was always the highlight of my day and reading my old blog posts from years past always lifts up my spirit, hence its where I will be starting again so stay tuned for some new happy blog posts and a few rants thrown in for a good measure