Teaser: Car Crash Hearts

Because why not? Rowan and I are so excited for this book. I love our characters and our story, and I love, love, love Luc and Evelyn. So I'll start off this week with a teaser for you all:

The hot water is fading and I don’t want to waste it all and have Evie whine at me if she gets stuck with a cold shower. I finish rinsing and get out, toweling dry to the best of my ability. The mirror is defrosting, leaving me to stare at my own reflection. Messy hair in need of a cut (says my mother). Too skinny body. Long limbs.

For awhile after my surgery when I started the recovery and therapy phase of having a new heart, I looked pretty good. I felt good. I had energy and I could get through a day without feeling feverish and tired. Those good days are getting fewer and fewer and the doctors said it was a bad sign. Rejection is a normal thing with organs but they give you some meds, run some tests, get your body stable and send you home again. That’s all they can do shy of giving me another transplant.

So my choices are to wait for another heart despite that getting the first one was a stroke of luck...or to wait for the time I go into the hospital with symptoms and don’t get to leave again.

Fuck that. I’d rather run myself into the ground enjoying what time I have left.

I slide my fingers along the upraised scar down the center of my chest. Evelyn has never seen it. I want it to stay that way. I want to keep all of this as far from her as I can, for as long as I can.