The Pressure!

I love chatting with you readers. Totally love it so as much as possible, I make time each day to answer emails, comments, and stuff. I loooove what you guys say about my books, love the fact that they seem as real to you as they are to me. But sometimes... The pressure gets to me so that I... Source: http://readrosemary.files.wordpress.com/ ...CAN'T HELP BUT FREAK OUT! It's because you guys are so awesome, is all. You all say the nicest things that honestly, when I read your reviews, a part of me wonders if you really did read my book or you mistook it for something else. Sometimes, I almost wish I'm not addicted to reading reviews - if I stop reading them, I might stop second-guessing myself and just write with no expectations.
Don't get me wrong - I am super happy about your feedback. But I am also terrified of disappointing readers that sometimes I end up not writing because I'm frozen with fear. I don't think this fear would ever go away, not even if I reach the grand old age of eighty or so and I'd have been writing for fifty years by then.
Well, anyway, just wanted to let you guys know that I'll continue doing my best writing books that I personally love and hope you guys would love, too. I can't say we'll always meet eye to eye - there are things about my writing that I can't and won't change. There may be stories whose twists and turns and endings we might not see eye to eye on. I'm sorry if so - I hope you bear with me for that. I can't dictate how these stories turn out really - I know it sounds like a cliche, but it's true - these stories have a life of its own and I can only write them the way they occurred to me.
Hopefully, though, you won't give up on me or my books - if you don't like what I've written now, then who knows? You might like the next one...or the one after that and so forth. :) Also, be warned: even if you hated my current book so much you just want to kill me, I'm stubbornly optimistic. I'll make sure to woo you back tirelessly until you give my next book a try. :)