The Interesting Thing About Happiness

I'm happy and have been for some time now.

The interesting thing about happiness is you don't feel a need to provoke anybody, and that was my thing for decades,-provoking people; acquaintances, co-workers, strangers, neighbors, etc. And it really was due to the hurt inside me.

Living with pain, you feel a need to strike out at others.

Think about that next time you see somebody being an aggressive asshole, a killjoy, a negative nellie, a bully, etc. Acknowledge that prick and then immediately think about your last great meal or lover, or look forward to your next one, because while you are thinking about good food and great sex, douchebag is brooding about his pain, which is never far from his thoughts, and fuming over the fact that he was unable to provoke you.

And remember, his pain is none of your business nor your responsibility. Therefore, keep it out of your life. Let him go off and deal with his own bullshit.

Despite my past antagonisms, I did acquire some deep friendships that are with me to this day but turned-off countless others and now I have to wonder about the opportunities, connections, parties and romantic nights I missed because I was too busy counter-punching some hurt that had nothing to do with them.

-Ezekiel Tyrus 12/20/2013